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I was completely zoned out and lost in thought, as my cranky old landlady droned about kicking me out of my apartment, if I didn’t pay up my rent before the end of the week. As a jobless twenty five year old without money or a means of raising any, I was positive I would be homeless by the end of the week.
After the meeting, I did the next best thing I could think of. I called Cherry, my only friend from college. I met Cherry my sophomore year in college, in a baking elective I took to fill a credit. She wasn’t even supposed to be there, she’d wandered in late, smelling faintly of vanilla and cigarette smoke. Somehow, she convinced the professor to let her stay. She was loud where I was quiet, fearless where I hesitated.
We became fast friends over burnt cookies and late–night diner runs. She’d talk about dreams that changed every week, modeling, acting, “maybe just being rich for a while.” I talked about kitchens and flavors and how I wanted to cook for people who’d never been cooked for. We didn’t have much in common, except that we were both a little lost and trying hard not to show it.
Holding the phone against my ear with my right shoulder, I started folding the heap of clothes I’d left on my rickety couch. My apartment wasn’t much to look at. Most of the furnitures were second hand items purchased from yard sales. Few seconds later, I heard Cherry’s shrill voice over the phone.
“Hey Sasha, been a while”, she sounded out of breath. I’m guessing she was either on a treadmill or on a dick.
“Yea I know, I’ve been quite busy” I lied.
Between being unemployed and having nothing going on, all I had was time. She was quiet on the other end of the phone so I spoke.
“Hey listen any chance we could catch up over drinks this weekend?” I didn’t want to outrightly tell her I needed help. We made plans and hung up.
The weekend came by faster than I anticipated. Tonight, I was meeting Cherry. I’d normally just throw on a pair of jeans and a crop top. But, I wanted to make an effort on my appearance. So I sleeked my auburn hair into a bun, applied some make up on my face. I tossed out all my clothes from the broken wardrobe, in search of the prettiest dress I owned.
It was a black, short sequined dress with lace at the back. I’ve had it for three years and it still remains the best clothing in my wardrobe. I stood in front of a mirror to admire my effort and I was satisfied. The dress hugged my curvy body in all the right places. Albeit, my cleavage was a little more exposed than I would have liked. The black fabric a stark contrast to my porcelain skin, my minimal makeup highlighting my hazel eyes, the red lipstick making my lips look fuller.
Already running late, I grabbed my pair of gold sandals, black purse and off I went. The night in Pilsen felt thick enough to touch. The kind of heat that clings to your skin and makes every step slower and heavier. My phone vibrated in my purse, I brought it out and there was a text from Cherry. She was already at Simone’s, one of the most popular bars in Pilsen. A couple more blocks.
The closer I got to 18th and Morgan, the louder the nightlife became. By the time I reached the bar, I could already hear Cherry’s laughter from the patio. The familiar sound cutting through the mix of conversation and bubbly music. I pushed open the door, the air inside was cooler but thick with bodies. I strutted as elegantly as I could to the small sitting area, where Cherry was flirting with the bartender.
Once I was in her line of sight, she hopped off the high stool where she was perched on and hugged me dramatically. I wondered if she was already drunk. She smelled like vanilla and musk wood. Petite, pretty, with a kind of easy confidence that makes people notice her without trying. I suppose with these qualities, she didn’t have to try hard as an escort.
Life took us in different directions after college. Me as chef and Cherry as an escort. Honestly, that never changed how I saw her. I wasn’t judgmental, especially as I was about to ask her to introduce me to her world. Well, not permanently of course, just until I am able to sort out the financial mess my life is in right now.
Three magaritas later, I finally told her I wanted in as an escort. She laughed, and then stared at me like I had grown a second head and four tits. For a second, she didn’t say anything, just blinked. Lips parted, eyes wide, like she couldn’t decide if I was loosing my mind or joking.
“Wait…what?”
Her voice was soft but sharp enough to cut. She downed the shot of tequila the bartender placed in front of her, shook her head and said.
“Sasha what’s going on? You tell me this very second”.
I fiddled with the hem of my dress, looking at her mortified expression.
“ I lost my job at the restaurant, they’re closing it down, my landlady is kicking me out because I can’t pay rent Cher.”
She looked at me sympathetically. “ why didn’t you tell me? What about your savings?”
I glanced around the lively bar, deciding if I should tell her.
“I spent most of it keeping Monica in rehab.” I admitted.
She ran her manicured hands through her hair, before she said anything, I quickly grabbed her hand and said.“She’s my baby sister and my only family, she needs me, I can’t turn my back on her regardless of her shortcomings. Family is family.”
Cherry looked me dead in the eyes. “She’s a little ungrateful shit, how many times times has she relapsed and you had to pay for her rehab over and over again?”
I was beginning to get irritated. Talking about my little sister, wasn’t exactly one of my favorite topics. She’s my family. All my parents left me with and that’s that.
She noticed my withdrawal from the conversation, then took another shot of alcohol. “In two hours, I’m meeting a high profile client, if you’re really serious and if you’re up for it, we can leave in an hour, my car is parked out front.”
I nodded, downing the rest of my drink.
The restaurant had gone quiet, that golden lull before the dinner prep started. The staff were gone for their break, and the hum of the fridge filled the silence in my office. I was closing out invoices, half-listening to Cherry recount some story about a client who canceled on her because of “energy incompatibility.” It made me laugh, the kind of laugh that released some of the tension sitting at the base of my neck.“You’ve got to stop meeting these crystal men.” I said, shaking my head.Cherry chuckled. “Oh, please. I should start invoicing them for wasting my time.” I smiled faintly, still focused on my screen. “You could make a business out of it.” She gave a low laugh, but it faded quickly. When I looked up, she was fidgeting with the straw in her cup. A sure sign something was on her mind.“What?” I asked.She hesitated. “I, uh… there’s something I’ve been meaning to tell you.” The change in her tone pulled my attention. “Okay…” She sighed, setting the cup down. “You rememb
I’ve always believed in systems. In the quiet logic of things that didn’t betray you. Grids, measurements, sound structures. Numbers didn’t lie, steel didn’t change its mind, and walls never walked away. When my marriage ended, I built my survival around those truths. I dedicated myself to designing the perfect house for other people’s happiness while avoiding the mess of my own. I stopped looking at rooms as places to live and started seeing them as things to solve. But she, Sasha, the woman who cooked her thoughts into meals was unsolvable. She existed in gradients. Her laughter, her silences too full. She didn’t plan her feelings, she felt them and I found that both terrifying and magnetic. When my ex wife left, the divorce had been clean on paper but messy in spirit. I loved her with precision, but not the kind of love that burns or breaks rules. I had thought steadiness would be enough. It wasn’t.Work became the language I understood best. I ran my firm on discipline. Respect
Crest called just after seven, his voice low and familiar through the phone, in the way that always made my shoulders loosen a little. “Hey, I just got back in,” he said. “If you’re not buried in work, maybe come over, have dinner with me?”Dinner. The word alone felt like relief. The apartment around me was heavy with tension. The sharp echo of Monica’s music still vibrating through the walls, the smell of her perfume clinging to the air like entitlement.“Dinner sounds perfect,” I said quietly.By the time I got to Crest’s building, the city had begun to cool into evening, lights softening in the windows, the air tinged with that faint metallic scent Chicago gets when it’s about to rain but never quite does. He was already waiting at the door, barefoot, wearing a dark button-down with the sleeves rolled up. The faint smell of rosemary, garlic, and something buttery drifted through the air, wrapping the space in quiet warmth.His place looked the way he always did. Clean lines, calm
I heard her before I saw her. That sharp, singsong voice calling my name from the hallway.“Open up Sasha, it’s freezing out here!”I froze, hand still on the counter. I hadn’t heard her voice in almost a year, and hearing it again was like stepping into an old bruise. Familia, tender, not quite healed. When I opened the door, she was standing there, one hand gripping the strap of her bag, in an oversized hoodie, hair shiny and freshly trimmed, skin clear. The version of her that used to stumble through my door was gone. At least on the surface. She looked around with a casual, almost challenging air, as if she owned the space. Which, in a way, she did.“Hey,” she said, voice light, breezy. “I’m home.”“Monica.” I said softly.She grinned, eyes bright, and threw her arms around me before I could think. I hugged her back, awkward at first, then tighter, the memory of every sleepless night flashing behind my eyes. “You look good.” I managed.“I feel good,” she said, stepping back to
The first week felt like stepping onto a tightrope without a net. Every morning I woke before the city stirred, the apartment quiet except for the hum of the coffee maker and the faint smell of herbs from prep the night before. My body ached in new ways, my shoulders stiff from chopping, my feet sore from pacing the restaurant floor. The space had started to breathe under my hands. The ovens hissed, pans clattered, and the subtle scent of roasting vegetables mixed with freshly baked bread. Each day I tweaked a station, adjusted a table, or shifted a light, constantly imagining the flow of guests, servers, and food. I relied on the temporary staff more heavily for now. My two servers had learned the rhythm of the room. The quiet glance to indicate a finished plate, the practiced step to avoid collisions in narrow walkways. My sous-chef was indispensable, keeping the prep line moving even when I had to step away to handle an unexpected delivery. The dishwasher hummed like a metronome,
The idea had been sitting quietly in the back of my mind for months. “My own restaurant.” Nothing shiny or extravagant, just cozy, a place where the food offers comfort and warmth. My mornings became rituals of planning. I woke early, made coffee strong enough to hum in my veins, and filled pages of notebooks with my ideas. Menus, suppliers, rent estimates. I looked at spaces on my days off. Small storefronts in Logan Square, an old bakery in Bridgeport, even a narrow corner in Pilsen with a cracked tile floor and peeling paint. The real estate agent called it “character.” Crest had offered to pick me up from my client’s on one Thursday evening. A small family on the North Side. I slipped into the passenger’s seat smelling faintly of rosemary and smoke. Hair pinned up, sleeves rolled to my elbows. I was tired but not exhausted. He smiled and hugged me like he didn’t just see me the previous day. I laughed. "I missed you too.” We rode in silence for a while, the hum of the cit







