Jack
I waited for Remi to leave before I addressed Lauren. I didn’t want to make Remi more uncomfortable.
“What the hell was that?”
“I was just stating the truth; she’s the reason you’ve been distant these last few days, right?”
“No.”
It was the truth; I’ve been slowly distancing myself from her for multiple reasons, and the number one reason is, that I don’t want to marry her, but Lauren and her father have done a lot for me, and I feel like I’m obligated to go through with it. It isn’t fair to her; I’ve led her on and she built a life around me.
“You’re lying. You’re a coward because you won’t admit it.”
“Fine, you want the truth?” I yelled. “I don’t want to get married.” Before I started talking again, I took a moment to calm myself.
“I thought the engagement would solidify our relationship, that all we needed was something exciting to mix things up, but I was wrong. I think I’ve been over this relationship for a while, and I just didn’t want to hurt you.”
“Well, it doesn’t matter; it hurts either way.” She let a sob as she finished the sentence.
“You need to leave, Jack. I think it’s best if we spent some time apart.”
“I agree, and I’m sorry. I never wanted to hurt you because I still love you-”
“But you’re not in love with me.”
I nodded my head to confirm what she said.
“Please leave Jackson.”
I did as Lauren said, and left her apartment, but walked up to Remi’s and I didn’t hesitate to knock on the door. I wanted her to answer it because I’m finally ready to confess my feelings for her. I’m ready to fight for her.
“Jack?” This may be a bad idea, but I need to be here; I need her.
“Can I come in?”
“Yeah.”
Her apartment had the bare minimum; her living room only had a simple couch and coffee table, but the floor plan was the same as Lauren’s.
“Not to be rude, but are you here for something?”
“I’m sorry you had to witness that, and I’m sorry that she attacked the way you look.”
“It’s fine; I’ve heard it all before.”
“If it means anything, I like the way you look.”
“You shouldn’t say things like that, especially since you and Lauren were just fighting over that.”
“I told her I didn’t want to marry her.”
“Oh.”
“What she said was true. I’ve always wanted you. When I first met you at six years old, I wanted to be your friend but as we got older, I realized those feelings were more than friendship. I was hung up on you, but you seemed to always prefer Tyson.”
“You were always so mean to me.”
“I thought you preferred Tyson, and it hurt, so I took it out on you.”
Remi let out a laugh. “Only because Tyson was nice to me, and over the years, he became my best friend, but now is not the time to confess things. You just told your girlfriend of over a decade that you don’t want to marry her. Don’t confess your attraction to me at the same time.”
“I’m trying to get everything in the open. I’m tired of settling and hurting people.”
“I’ve spent years trying to get you to notice me, Jack, but you broke me over and over, and if you say that you like me and then you end up working things out with Lauren, it will crush me, so please don’t tell me you want me unless you mean it.”
I took a step, closing the distance between us, cupped her face with my hands, and kissed her. She kissed me back, and it was better than I could ever imagine. Her lips were warm and soft, and she let me take control. Her lips felt like home, it felt like everything I was missing was found, but as I went to pull her closer, she pushed me back.
“This isn’t a good idea, and I think we need to clear our heads. Can you please leave?”
“Are you going to ignore me?”
“No, I just need time to think about what happened.”
“Fine, I see you at work tomorrow.”
I was kicked out of two apartments today and being kicked out of Remi’s apartment bothers me more. I feel bad for leading Lauren on, but I’m happy I told her I didn’t want to marry her. She deserves to find someone that will give her what she wants.
I didn’t feel like going home, so I did the next thing out of character and called my brother, asking him to meet me for a drink.
***
Sophomore Year of High School
I’ve been waiting all week to talk to Remi. I haven’t had the chance to talk to her alone, but now that I see her in the backyard on the hammock alone, now is the time. I’m beyond pissed that she’s trying to start shit between me and Tyson by making Lauren look like a bitch.
Her eyes were closed and for a second the anger left me, she looks at peace, but she needs to know she can’t be a brat.
“What is your problem, Remington?” My tone was firm to let her know I wasn’t joking.
“What are you talking about?”
“The shit you said to Tyson, about Lauren talking to you on my behalf. How she said I didn’t want to be around you because you annoy me.”
“It’s the truth.”
“I asked Lauren about it, and she said you told her that she needed to break up with me.”
“She’s lying. Your girlfriend hates me for some reason.”
“Probably because you're spreading lies. She isn’t talking to me right now because of you.”
“I’m sick of this. I think it would be better if we weren’t friends.”
My heart briefly skipped, and I regretted everything I just said. I didn’t want her out of my life. I want her, but I can’t tell her that, she wants Tyson and doesn’t care if I’m happy or not.”
“Maybe that’s for the best. You’ll have Tyson, so you don’t need me to be invited to places.”
She winced at my last statement, and it made me feel jerk, but she needs to feel my pain.
***
Present Day
“I can’t remember the last time you initiated having drinks with me.”
Tyson was smirking at me, and I hated it when he felt like he was right, but I had to get over it because he was right.
“I kissed Remi,” I blurted out.
“It’s about fucking time you found the courage...wait, what about Lauren?”
“I told her I didn’t want to marry her.”
“Are you sure you’re my brother, Jackson? How did that go down?”
“I’m serious, Ty. I think I might have made things worse.”
“What did Lauren say?”
“This all started because she invited Remi to dinner and then started insulting the way she looked, and I told her to stop, and that turned into a huge argument, and it ended with me telling her I didn’t want to marry her and while I loved her, I wasn’t in love with her.”
“Damn, now tell me about the kiss with Em.”
“I felt like a schoolboy. It felt like my first kiss. I was nervous, but it was probably the best kiss I’d ever experienced. When I tried to take it further, she pushed me away and asked me to leave.”
“Do you think you’ll patch things up with Lauren?”
“I want to be on good terms with her, but I don’t want to continue the relationship.”
“Good, because if you give Em some time, she’ll come around. She’ll kill me for saying this, but it has always been you for her. She hasn’t told me, and she won’t confirm it, but throughout the years, I’ve picked up on some things and I called her out on the crush she had on when we were in high school. I tried kissing her once. We were about seventeen, and she slapped my face. That was the last time I tried to make a move on her.”
“I was always so angry at you, I thought she preferred you. We went to a party our junior year of high school, and when I came out of the room and saw you two standing there, I wanted to kill you. I thought you guys had hooked up.”
Tyson sat there laughing at me. “You got it all wrong. Emi had lost her virginity that night, but I didn’t have the honors. We just ran into each other, and I caught her doing the walk of shame.”
I can’t believe I’ve missed out on years with Remi because I couldn’t just ask what was going on.
“What should I do?”
“Give Emi time and do not get back with Lauren.”
One of those things is easier said than done. It’s going to be hard to give Remi some space. I want this to work out, and I want her to trust me.
Emi When Jack left, I called Alyssa, but she didn't answer, so I called Jake and asked him to have a late dinner with me. I didn't get to eat much of my food earlier because of the argument Jack and Lauren were having and I was starving. I was relieved when Jake said he was free and would even pick me up. “What the fuck happened to your face?” “I tried to break up a fight at work and got punched; I would prefer not to talk about my eye. I have other things to tell you.” “Fair enough. Where do you want to go?” “Any place open that has food and beer.” “I know just the place.” It didn’t take me long to realize he was taking us to Pat’s Bar and Grill. It’s his favorite place to eat and never misses an opportunity to eat there. As soon as I walked in, I saw Tyson and Jack sitting at a corner table, and I didn’t want to sit anywhere near Jack while I had this conversation with Jake. “Let’s sit over here.” I quickly pulled him over to a table near the door. “Ok, start spilling befo
EmiAfter the rose and note, Jack didn’t reach back out; I didn’t even see him in the teacher’s lounge, and its been close to two weeks. I still see him in between classes as we monitor the hall, but that’s the only time.It felt awkward, but I was thankful he was giving me space. He needed to figure his relationship with Lauren before anything happened between us.“It’s about time you showed up!”Alyssa yelled as I joined them. I quickly glanced around the table and noticed Jack was there with Tyson. They barely hung out together, so I wasn’t expecting him to join us tonight, but I like seeing them together. I took a seat next to Alyssa. “I didn’t know he was going to be here. Tyson didn’t tell me he invited him.”“It’s okay. It’s nice to see them getting along for once. I think they’re trying to mend things.”“I think it helps that Jack knows that you’re not into Tyson.”“Let’s not talk about this.”I like to avoid things. I know it’s not healthy but it’s easier than dealin
JackI was hoping to surprise Remi by showing up early and didn’t consider that she may have been feeling sick from the alcohol she had last night. I look like a douche, and I can’t blame her for being annoyed.I was hoping the food would help my cause by making her feel better, and it seemed to have worked.“Can I have five more minutes so I can straighten my hair?”“I think it looks good, but if you want to straighten it, I can wait.”I honestly thought she was beautiful; she always has been. I remember the first time I saw her when we were six. I told mom Remi was beautiful and that I hated Tyson for taking her away from me. He stole her attention from me that day, or at least I thought he did. I can’t believe it turned into twenty years of bickering and jealousy.“All done. So where are we going?”“I’ll give you two hints. You used to love it when you were younger, and it was the first time you saw me punch Ty in the face.”She let out a gasp, followed by laughter.“The ar
Present DayEmiHe wants to kiss me. Should I let him? Would people think I’m a home wrecker if we were to be seen kissing in public? I don’t want people to think he’s cheating.Now that I have Jack’s attention, I’m afraid of it, but I still want him to kiss me. I don’t know what I should do. “We can save the kiss for after the day is over with,” I suggested. I didn’t want to seem too eager.Jack smiled, and I couldn’t help but smile back at him.“So, what’s next?”Honestly, I didn’t expect there to be anything else. The first part of the day was fun, the food was great, and Jack was honest with me.“Well, what are you in the mood for? I had one other thing planned, but I’m not sure how messy you like to get.”“I’m up for anything.”“Don’t regret your decision later,” he jokes.We walked back to his car, and he drove us downtown and parked in front of this small warehouse.“Umm, I didn’t think you were a murderer.”Jack laughed and took my hand and guided me towards the b
JackHer kiss surprised me, but I’m so fucking happy she made a move. I didn’t care I still had paint on my face and hair; I just wanted to devour her. Kissing her is like being on a rollercoaster, it feels like my stomach is flipping, and I have butterflies fluttering around. If I had known kissing Remi would feel like this, I would have fought harder for her. I knew I wanted her, but I didn’t think she would make me feel like my heart and soul were complete.I turned us around and lifted her onto to kitchen island and deepened the kiss. When she let out a moan, I took that as a sign to continue. I slid my hands up her shirt, gently caressing her skin. I slowly made my way to her breast, where I massaged them and pinched her nipples, and rolled them between my fingers. She pulled me closer as I broke the kiss to pepper her neck and collarbone with kisses. My dick was throbbing, and I wanted to be in her, but I knew I had to wait for her to be comfortable with me before going that fa
EmiI was nervous when I saw Lauren walking toward me and even more worried when she started talking to Jack. I’m afraid that he’ll want to work things out with her because of their history together. I know he says he doesn’t love her, but it’s what he knows.Part of me thinks it’s best to stop this so he can’t leave me to go back to her. I want to ask him what they talked about yesterday when he comes over today, but I know it would be rude and it’s none of my businessThe buzzing of my phone distracts me from my thoughts, and I can’t help but smile.Jack: I’m running a bit late. Do I need to bring anything to make it up to you?Me: Nope, just bring yourself.Jack showed up about twenty minutes later, and when I answered the door, he greeted me with a kiss. Even though it surprised me it still felt normal. “This is for you,” he said as he handed me a cupcake.“I hope it’s still your favorite?”“Is it peanut butter love from Layla’s?”“It is.”“Then it’s still my favorite,
Jack“I want this, Jack.”I was happy to hear her say those words. I was waiting for her to stop us and I wouldn’t blame her if she did. I have a lot of work to do to gain her trust. “But before we continue, I want to let you know that I don’t have a lot of experience and I may suck at this,” she stated. I sat up and looked at her. “What do you mean?”Her face turned red, and she looked down at her hands.“I’ve only done this twice and both times; it wasn’t what I expected, so I think I’m doing something wrong.”I lifted her chin, so she was looking at me. “Don’t worry about that; let me take care of you.”I stood and picked Remi up. “What are you doing?” she screeched out.“Going to your bedroom? Which one is it?”“Second door on the right.”Once we were in her room, I placed her on the bed and removed her pants, leaving Remi in her bra and underwear, and I stripped to my boxers before placing myself on top of her.“You can tell me to stop at any point.”“How many time
EmiWe got nothing done. Hours later and I’m still in bed next to Jack. I did not know that guys could go for more than one round. He blew my mind and the sex was great, but I want more than sex. I want him to commit to me. I want to trust him, and our past makes it hard for me to trust him. He always said mean things to me, blamed me for things, and at one point, he blamed me for ruining the relationship he had with Ty.I let out a sigh, and I guess it was louder than I thought it was because it got Jack’s attention.“Everything ok?”“What are we doing? I mean, what are we?” I asked, moving my finger back and forth between us.“Well, I was hoping this meant you wanted to be with me.” Jack’s tone was nonchalant.“Really? I need to know that this is more than sex for you. I need to know that you’re just not pulling me along until you’re tired of me or until you’re ready to get back with Lauren.”Jack set up, leaning on his elbows to look at me.“It is more than sex for me. I was