Chapter 2

Kat pov

We drove for hours till we arrived at the Fury pack and I held in a gasp at how huge the pack house and grounds were. Jonathan has a huge amount of land and houses were scattered all over. We walked in and I heard voices everywhere.

The new Luna

She is so pretty.

I'm glad he found her but Laura was better.

Lisa would of made a great Luna.

We needed a Luna.

Hopefully she does a good job.

Taking a deep breath I followed Jonathan through to my room which was seperate from his. His disgusted eyes looked me over as he sat my bags down. He looked ready to puke as he looked at me. I felt ready to puke as I took in my surroundings.

"the ceremony is tonight and we mark each other then. Dress in a loose top and drawstring pants. You will sleep with me tonight after I need pups",He says walking away leaving me stunned and worried. I had to sleep with him tonight after the ceremony. I sighed and unpacked worried that sex was gonna be brutal. It would hurt my mom said but your mate will make it feel good. I had doubts. Very bad doubts. Doubts that it would feel good and doubts I would cum.

Hours later at the pack ceremony I shifted nervously as I recited the words after Jonathan. He glared down at me as he moved to mark me. He found his spot and bit into me hard making me hiss in pain. I was marked but I went easy marking him. After we were announced alpha and Luna of the Fury pack. Jonathan wasted no time hustling me away to go finish the mating process. Once in the room he roughly stripped us both and pushed me on his bed. I held in my fear as he touched me. He wasn't gentle or easy making me tense up. I was also afraid.

"The more you tense the worse it will hurt",He growled. I looked at him trying not to lash out. Why can't he be gentle?

"well if you would go easy I wouldn't be so tense",I offered. He looked pissed absolutely pissed and disgusted to be in here naked with me. My wolf tried to tell me to relax but I was scared and nervous. Dina was trying to help but I was a nervous wreck.

He growled viciously at me as he touched me to get me turned on. When he entered I whimpered it hurt so bad. He didn't give me time to adjust before he started thrusting hard into me. I wanted to cry.

Looking up he growled down at me. Holy shit this feels worse than my period. I grit my teeth trying to get through this. It was brutal, rough and not one ounce of love or tenderness my wolf and mom said I would feel.

"don't fucking look at me look at the wall. I'm imaging Laura while I fuck you",He hisses. I felt my heart crack that fucking hurt worse than the brutal way he was taking me. I wanted to sob my heart out but I looked away fast.

I avert my gaze to the wall hoping he will be done soon. His brutal thrust continue forever while I lay giving myself to him. I hold in tears as I pray to the moon goddess he finished soon. I don't bother looking at him as he keeps going. It isn't enjoyable and from what I heard from other she wolfs I'm not gonna cum. He grunts and groans her name as he continues and I feel my heart crack more. My wolf is cussing up a storm while we lay there pleasuring our mate. Just hold on Kat I will help down there when he is done she tried to soothe me. Yeah maybe make me numb forever so the rest of my life I can endure this I say back to her.

Once he is done I leave after dressing running for my room. He can clean up the mess and deal with the blood. I make it to my shower before I collapse in tears. I'm sore and I hurt everywhere. He was moaning her name is what kills me. He didn't have any regard for my safety or pleasure.

I cry the whole time I scrub at my body disgusted with everything. I stay in an hour before leaving to go lay down. I don't eat that night or the next day I can't face him or his pack. I stay in bed feeling absolutely drained. I felt awful and I felt like killing myself to get freedom.

I wish he would of rejected me cause anything would of been better then feeling unloved and unwanted. My cell rings and I sigh before answering.

"Hey baby. How are you?", my mom asked when I answer. I want to sob to her but I don't.

"Okay mama just tired",I say wanting to cry to her. I really feel like crying but I can't tell her this. My mom would head here and try to take me.

"Did y'all mate already?" I hesitate before I answer.

"yes mama we did last night",I say cringing at the horrible memory. The horrible mating that will haunt me for life.

"are you okay? He didn't hurt you, did he?" I lie I have to because mom will come get me and cuss him out.

"I'm fine mama just tired",I say wanting to cry to her about how horrible it all was. I was marked brutally and fucked roughly while he moaned his dead mate's name.

"Well I'm gonna go baby call me later. Love you",She says.

"Love you more mama and I will call later",I say cutting the call. I laid in bed chatting with my wolf Dina totally missing Jonathan walking in and up to my bed. He watches me as I turn over sighing sadly. I stare blankly at the wall as he looks at me.

"You missed dinner last night",He stated making me jerk around scared. Shit he is quiet.

"Wasn't hungry",I said turning my back on him. He growled and yanked me to him. His claws cut my flesh as he drags me out of bed.

"to bad you need to eat",He snarled yanking me out my room behind him. I guess I'm eating.

I don't fight him as he drags me to the kitchen and shoved me in a chair. I hold in a whimper of pain cause my southern region still hurts. My vagina is still bleeding and sore. I actually hate going pee. My wolf did heal a little down there but she couldn't heal me fully.

I felt so alone and hated.