I try to scream , my mouth is open trying to enunciate the sound . Nothing comes out except a painful groan . His canines must be a damn metre long it felt like they sunk right down to my bone and perforated it . I bet there was some kind of canal in the middle allowing it to become a sort of bloody lake , the blood cells must be punching the air right now .
My surroundings were getting slightly foggy and I felt hazy , I could tell I was slipping away .
" J..Jace . Stop . " My voice comes out hoarse as he finally yanks his teeth out causing me to gasp in pain . Tears form in my eyes involuntarily in response to the excruciatingly painful laceration in my shoulder . I try to push at his shoulders but he was holding me steady , his hands on my waist . I wanted to look at the damage that was done . My arm hurt too much for me to push him . I can only hold back a sob .
It hurt so fucking bad .
Slowly , Jace pulls away and his eyes meet mine , colour had final
" I'm leaving for my dorm . " I tell him plainly ." You want some space , I understand that but .. " His eyes darken and I could feel his anger radiating from him in waves of piercing emotions." But ? " I question .What did he have a problem with this time ?" You can't break up with me . " He growls and I look away with a sigh .I guess I did say that in the heat of the moment , I wasn't entirely wrong about it either . The truth is , Jace and I are completely different people . This causes alot of misunderstandings between us .If this is always how it's going to be , then how am I supposed to live like this ? I don't want to leave him . I love him . I'm also tired of things like these happening over and over again . I'm not quite sure what to do." Listen what kind of relationship doesn't have it's ups and downs ? I have you , that's all that matters to me . I'm trying to control myself better . " He tells me." Well gues
It's been a few days since our fight .I look in the mirror , observing the scar . Alec's medicine was working like a charm and the wound had almost disappeared , leaving just a mark in it's place .It's amazing how Alec is as powerful as a beta but also has the potential to be a really good pack doctor , he seems like an all rounder sort of person .I sigh and wear a random top with some jeans , not particularly interested in dressing up . I was crazy to be excited to go to classes , now that I've attended them , they are no different from what I had back in the castle .Boring .A monotonous routine , words spoken in an uninteresting manner with no real intentions of teaching us anything . Why should I even know the history of wars in Russia with other countries ? It's not as if it's going on right now is it ? There's a different kind of war at play here , I'd rather focus on that .I pull apart the neck of the top to observe the mark once
I haven't seen her again .It's been a while . She didn't come to class either so there's no way of knowing . Honestly , I let the whole ordeal go . There isn't any reason for me to pry after all .There isn't . Yet why does it bother me ?" What are you thinking about ? " Jace lifted my chin .We were on a date , having some ice cream after class ." Nothing in particular . " I shrugged ." When you're with me . You should only think about me . " He growled teasingly as he brings his lips to mine ." Mmm your ice cream tastes good . " He grins as if he could taste it off of my lips ." Jace that sounds so wrong . " I look around me . There wasn't anyone here so that's fortunate . We had just gotten our order and were walking towards his car ." Do you want me to teach you to drive ? " He asks me as he licks the cream from his cone . I watch as his tongue darts into
I walk to the library to return some extra books ." Please , Alexis ? You're my best friend . It'll only take two minutes . " Kayla had said as she munched on crackers and watched her favorite show .I sniff ." I'm being used aren't I ? What has my life come to ? " I whisper to myself as I stand next to the checkout counter and swipe the books on the scanner before putting them in the cart . I whistle as I wait for the books to process the accepting procedure and clear them from the issuing card .There were 3 days left and I was already feeling strange . Apart form feeling a little nauseous after eating human food , I can't stand to be in warm places . The sun is irritating my skin constantly and I either have to lather myself in a bottle of sunblock until people ask me if I've showered in it or instead I could wear full sleeves and a hat and act as if I was hiding my scars from years of abusing . That's excluding the fact that I would die from the heat if
After sitting in the tub crying for two hours , I play with the rubber ducklings as if I was 5 years old .I can't say for sure that I've come to peace with it .I've only acknowledged it for now . I'll never get Aeron back .A part of me is angry at Jace . A part is pissed at myself for keeping false hope .I just feel sad and empty ." It's alright . Bad things happen . That's what life is . Get over it . " I mutter to myself." Quack . " I make a sound as I ensue a fight between the 2 ducklings ." Alexis ? " It was Kayla ." Hmm ? " I called out blankly ." You've been there for 3 hours . What's going on ? " Her voice is soft and laced with concern ." Nothing much . " I reply as I get the ducklings to stop fighting ." Chu ~ " That's right little ducklings . Make up with each other ." Then why don't you come out ? Your phone has been ringing non stop . " Kayla reasons ." Just hand it to me inside .
I feel the sun shining on my face . It isn't warm . It isn't comforting .It's tearing my skin apart .I scream as I get out of bed and rush to the corner of the room , surprisingly reaching there sooner than I had expected as if my own weight wasn't hindering my speed anymore .I look at the blinds . They were closed but there was some light poking through in between the blinds and that's what burned me . I gulp , wondering what would have happened if it was completely open . How would I have ended up ? Meat barbecue ? Maybe Michael would bring in a soda can and actually enjoy the opportunity .I stay in the corner , heaving a great sigh . I was grateful I got out of this one though I'm sure the blinds were pulled up last night before I went to sleep . I think Jace must have pulled it up after I fell asleep .So what am I supposed to do now . I look at my phone , it's lying on the centre of my bed . I don't see Jace around either so I
"Are you crazy ? No way !" I made it a point to. refuse strongly. Well actually he might have just been joking but I couldn't take any chances with that ."Oh come on . It'll be fun . Have your pick , girl or guy ?" He asks with a serious look and Alec rolls his eyes . I know that he's joking now , he can't possibly be serious about kidnapping an actual human being . Perhaps back in the day where no one cared about what happened to other people and the only way for news to spread was from mouth to mouth . It isn't possible to survive in this century unless you're incredibly careful .Hypothetically speaking , if I kidnapped someone . There would be an APB put out for him and it would be all over the news . If I couldn't wipe his mind properly because of no prior training and he goes on to blab , things would end badly .It would be even worse if I couldn't control myself and end up killing him . I could leave him in a ditch so
After changing and cleaning up a bit . We decided to join Alec and Michael at the club lounge . There was a huge bar and disco lights . Since it was day time , the music wasn't loud and instead of the swirling disco lights there was only a normal white one . Instead it was used for simply playing during the day .There was a pool table , darts . Hell there was even a play station with a huge screen . It seemed like an all rounder lounge . If one went deeper inside through the door , there's a small cafe inside it , away from the stinging smell of alcoholics .Perhaps encouraging the customers to take a break and sober up for a while ." I wonder if I can still get drunk . " I look over at the hundreds of bottles being displayed in curiosity .The last time I had drank wasn't one of my best moments . I embarassed myself thoroughly but that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it . It really calmed my brain down from the constant shit I was getting bombarded with.