The campus was bustling the following morning. Everywhere Eliot went, whispers followed him. Girls looked at him pityingly. There were smirking men behind his back. He was the protagonist in a sad drama, and every classroom and hallway felt like a stage. Individuals were no longer even tactful about it.
"I have heard that Sasha had an affair with the football captain." Are you able to believe it? A girl said close to the library stairs.
Another person responded, "Eliot always acted like he was better than everyone." "I guess karma got back at you."
With his hands in his pockets, Eliot pulled his hoodie over his head in an attempt to drown out the noises. However, they consistently appeared to scuttle into his ears like uncontrollable insects.
Not only was the betrayal painful, but so was the speed with which everyone turned against him.
Sasha didn't conceal anything. With her lip gloss glistening in the sunlight, she walked around campus as if nothing had happened. She laughed with her pals as if she hadn't destroyed his world.
Once she was within earshot, she remarked, "It's likely that the poor guy is crying in his room."
He realised then that she wasn't sorry. Not by any means. What about Jaxon? The idiot smirked as though he owned the place and strolled around like a blasted king. He didn't believe any of the rumours. He was unaffected. Even worse, he appeared proud.
Eliot was at his breaking point. He sent Sasha a message asking her to meet him in the quiet area at the back of the arts building, which is typically empty. She was wearing tight pants and looked pleased when she got there.
"You wanted to speak?" As if nothing had occurred, she said.
Eliot bluntly remarked, "You cheated on me."
Sasha's arms were crossed. "You're exaggerating."
He looked at her in disbelief. "I entered on you. I noticed you with him. Nothing big is going on here!
She rolled her eyes and moaned. Eliot, it was simply an inebriated error. It made no difference that we were all drinking. You're going overboard.
Slowly, he shook his head. "No. You're simply skilled at lying.
"You're exaggerating how serious this is. In college, cheating is common. The world won't end because of it.
With a shaky voice, Eliot yelled, "You disgust me." "You acted as though you loved me."
She responded, "I did love you," but her eyes were vacant. "Just... not how you had hoped."
He didn't respond. He simply turned around and left. Even though the cold air slapped his face, it was nothing in comparison to the frost that had formed inside of him.
His phone buzzed when he was lying in bed that night, gazing up at the ceiling. The unidentified number sent another SMS.
"I informed you. All I wanted was for you to stop squandering your affection.
Eliot blinked. Looked at the message for a while. He felt a slight softening of his fury.
He returned the type, "Who are you?"
No answer.
The days that followed blended. Eliot didn't communicate with anyone. Did not attend a party. Seldom attended class. However, the unidentified number turned into an odd lifeline for him. When he was upset, he started texting it. While he was disoriented. If only he had someone to talk to.
"I despise them."
"I no longer even recognise myself."
"The only person who hasn't lied to me is you."
And the person on the other end always answered.
"You'll rediscover yourself."
"They're not worthy of your suffering."
"You underestimate your strength."
This person seemed to know him. Understood when and how to say the appropriate things. However, the response was consistently the same whenever Eliot inquired about their identities:
"That isn't significant."
"If you knew, you would despise me."
"I just happened to see you."
Eliot eventually dragged himself to his literature class one afternoon. He tried to stealthily slide into the rear seat because the classroom was packed, but Jaxon was there, of course. As if he owned the world, he was seated in the front row.
Jaxon looked over and met Eliot's look. With a sly smile, he turned back to face the professor as if nothing had occurred.
Eliot felt like he was holding back fire the entire time as the speech went on. Then, as everyone started packing up after class, Jaxon passed his desk and bent down.
He said under his breath, close to Eliot's ear, "You looked really cute when you were mad that night."
Eliot's entire body froze. He screamed, "Screw you," but Jaxon was already leaving with a smile on his face.
Eliot felt rage flash in his chest. Out of his pocket, he grabbed his phone and tapped frantically into the anonymous number.
"Are you Jaxon?"
His heart pounded.
A single second. Two.
His phone then buzzed.
"If I were, would anything change?"
Eliot's chest tightened as he looked at the TV. It sounded nothing like a denial. He hesitated over the keyboard, trembling his fingers.
No. It isn't possible. It couldn't be Jaxon. That would imply...
That would imply that the only person keeping him sane was the same person who destroyed his life.
Once more, his phone buzzed.
"Eliot?"
He took a deep swallow.
Anger, perplexity, betrayal, and something more he wasn't quite ready to label all fought within him.
He typed:
"Be honest with me. Are you teasing me?
The dots showed up.
I'm typing...
Then vanished.
Then reappeared.
And lastly:
"I've never told you lies. Not once.
Eliot's throat tightened with breath. He was immobile. Unable to think. The world seemed to have skewed.
He had to know for certain.
Thus, he texted:
"Come see me. This evening. By yourself.
He waited.
A minute went by.
The response followed.
"All right. The same location where you found us.
The bedroom. The party house.
Eliot's heart was racing.
He didn't know what he was getting into.
The door squeaked open as Eliot stood outside the home that night, the chill of the wind against his skin. And there was Jaxon, leaning against the frame with the same snarling grin.
Jaxon said, "No more lies." Only me, as well as you.
With rage and something far more sinister in his look, Eliot took a step forward.
Tell me, then," Eliot urged. "What is it that you truly want from me?"
Jaxon gave him a look.
Then he smiled.
"You."
Eliot continued to run.He didn’t have any destination in mind, only that he had to go. He ran past the quad, the field, the back of the old gym. The cold wind stung his face, and he didn’t give a damn. His lungs were on fire, his legs were weak and shaky from the shock, but none of that hurt as much as the truth that lies heavy in his chest.That stupid silver ring. The way he walked. “He mumbled to himself” The video didn’t lie. And it all clicked.Theo had been lying to him. Smiling in his face, acting like a friend, while stabbing him in the back the whole fucking time.But Eliot didn’t scream, he didn’t cry nor punch a wall or break down like he did when Jaxon left.He just… stopped.Breathing hard. Chest burning.Then something in him snapped.This time, he wasn’t gonna be the one falling apart. He wasn’t gonna give anyone the satisfaction. Not Theo, Sasha or anybody.So when Eliot finally walked back into the dorm, soaked in his sweat, he kept his face blank. Like nothing happe
Eliot didn’t sleep. Not really. After Sasha’s stunt at the pool and that email that wrecked his whole head, there was no going back. Jaxon’s face in that video wouldn’t stop playing in his mind. The way his voice cracked when he said he didn’t plan the kiss. That he fell. That it was real.And Sasha. Always watching. Always one step ahead.By morning, Eliot was awake, feeling like someone had drained him of all blood and replaced it with adrenaline. He needed something...anything... to make him stop thinking. It was there that he saw a flyer on the cafeteria bulletin board.“Hockey Open Tryouts, This Week Only. All Levels Welcome.”He stared at it for a second. He didn’t play hockey. Not really. But Jaxon did.And maybe that’s why he signed his name.Maybe that’s why he signed up, too. The locker room reeked of sweat and menthol. Eliot was heaped up in the corner, tying skates that weren’t the size of his foot. It was cooler in the rink than he had imagined; it was cold enough that it
Eliot had never felt hatred for silence like he currently did. The room was too empty. Too silent. It was too much like something had died. Maybe something did. Because Jaxon was gone. Just… gone. No note. No text. No “see you later.” Not even an emoji. Eliot's hoodie was drenched. It was a burden that made him feel like garbage, like his punishment. Raindrops were falling from His sleeves onto the carpet, he couldn't care less. He froze in the middle of the dorm room, in a pose as awkward as the expression on his face, staring at the unmade bed. The drawers had been cleared, the posters torn from the walls, and even the yellow mug Jaxon used to drink his morning coffee from was missing from the desk.All of it… gone.Eliot turned in a slow circle, like maybe it was a prank. Like maybe Jaxon would pop out laughing, saying, “Got you.” But there was nothing.Just the shadow of what was here, once.He collapsed onto the bare mattress, elbows on his knees, hands in his hair. His heart
Just as the sun broke through the heavy clouds, Eliot left Jaxon's dorm. He had his head down and his hoodie up. The campus was damp and quiet, but the rain had stopped. He hurried, praying no one would notice.A voice behind him yelled, "Wow." "It wasn't long before you recovered."Eliot stopped. He turned around slowly.Sasha stood there, arms crossed, dressed in her normal sharp perfection. She had perfect lipstick. However, her eyes were burning.Startled, Eliot said, "Sasha." "What are you doing here, exactly?"Cold and harsh, she chuckled. "That's what I should be asking you. Leaving Jaxon Reid's dorm in secret? Really?Eliot remained silent.She took a step forward. Is this the reason you have been ignoring me, then? Since you've developed feelings for him?Eliot angrily said, "Don't pretend that you care." "Remember how you cheated on me?"Sasha gave a slow, poisonous smile. "I don't want you to be happy with someone else just because I cheated on you."Eliot said quietly, "Yo
With his drink in hand and his eyes averted, Eliot sat at the rear of the bar.The volume of the music was high. People danced and laughed. But in the gym, Eliot could only hear the kiss's echo. Jaxon's mouth against his. The fire. The misunderstanding.He detested it.He detested the fact that he still felt it.A voice said, "Hey."When Eliot turned, he saw a man standing next to him. Tall, kind, and smiling well. "Are you here by yourself?"Eliot gave a nod. "Yes."The man slid onto the seat next to him and introduced himself as Mason.They conversed. Mason had a sense of humour. Assured. It's easy to be around.Eliot also wished to forget. Only for a short time.One drink became two. Then they were outdoors, sharing a kiss in the darkness behind the bar. He had Mason's hands on him. His breath was warm.However, Eliot's thoughts were solely focused on himself.Jaxon.He touched him in a certain way. The expression on his face. The kiss that caused Eliot's heart to accelerate and hi
Eliot pretended to take notes while he sat in the back of the room and looked down at his notebook. But he was distracted. His look continued to wander. To Jaxon.He detested being the centre of attention. I didn't like how Jaxon leaned back in his chair with one arm slung over the backrest, as if he were the owner of the planet. As if he hadn't been the one who split Eliot's life in two.But Jaxon had been everywhere recently.In the dining room.Outside his room.Eliot claimed that he could still feel Jaxon's look on him in class. He looked up, and it was there. Jaxon was silent and unreadable as he watched him once more. They looked at each other. Eliot's heart leapt in his chest as he hurriedly averted his look.This was insane.This is not how he should feel. Not about him.Not Jaxon.Eliot was sitting on a bench behind the dorm building that afternoon, using the anonymous number to browse through his messages on his phone. Nearly every day, they had been texting one another. The