Se connecterChapter Seventy -- The Russians Are HereI felt like I could breathe.I was lying across Zane's bed with my head resting on his lap, watching him play with a strand of my hair while music played quietly from his laptop. The curtains were half closed, and the afternoon sun slipped through the gaps, painting golden lines across the floor.Nothing dramatic was happening.Nobody was threatening me. Nobody was spreading rumors about me. Nobody was trying to ruin my life.It was just me and Zane.Honestly, I wanted to stay like that forever."You're staring," Zane said.I smiled without looking away from him. "I'm allowed to stare at my boyfriend.""Boyfriend?" He raised an eyebrow. "I thought I was still on probation.""You are.""Then why am I in your good graces already?""Because you have a nice face."He laughed. "That's it?""And a nice room.""Wow.""And your bed is comfortable."Zane shook his head. "I should have known you were using me."I laughed, and he leaned down to kiss my fo
Chapter Sixty-Nine - Miss Prescott'sDoug is the first person to speak.“Someone tell me what happened.”Nobody answers immediately.He looks at the open window, the blood on the floor, and Rita standing against the blackboard. Then his gaze settles on me.“Miss Prescott?”My throat feels raw. I can still feel Rita's hands against my back, the sudden emptiness beneath my feet, and the terrifying moment when I thought there would be nothing to catch me.Zane answers for me.“She pushed Ava out of the window.”The room falls silent.Rita shakes her head. “That's not what happened.”“I saw you,” Ashley says. She's sitting on the floor, one hand pressed against her ribs. “You had both hands on her back.”“I was trying to pull her away from the window.”“You were pushing her.”“I wasn't going to let her fall!”“Then why were you running?” Zane asks.Rita looks at him.For once, she has no answer.Doug takes out his radio and calls for assistance. Within minutes, two security officers arriv
Chapter Sixty-Eight- BaseMy fingers open.I don't decide to do it. That's what I'll tell the police later, and it's the truest thing I'll say all day. Nothing in me chooses it. The muscles just quit, the way they quit at the end of a long routine, and the strip of painted wood slides out from under my palm, slow and smooth, like a hand leaving a doorknob.The sky tilts. The chalk squares rush up at me. I think, very clearly, one, two, three.The classroom door bangs against the wall.It cracks through the room like a gunshot. The hands on my back jerk away, and a voice I know better than my own name tears down the length of Room 206."RITA!"I feel the floor of the world drop out. Then something hits the backs of my thighs, hard, and two arms lock around my legs just above the knees."I've got you!"My body stops sliding. It hangs there, my ribs on the sill, my hair swinging over the courtyard, and behind me someone grunts and plants her feet and pulls. I know that grunt. I've heard
Chapter Sixty-seven - The NobodyI scream.It's not a good scream. It comes out thin and cracked, and the brick walls around the courtyard throw it right back at me. Nobody is down there. Nobody is in this wing. It's two minutes to eight in the morning, and the only person who can hear me is the person doing the pushing."Help," I say. ". Help me. Helppp!""Shh." The voice is right at the back of my head. "You'll hurt your throat."A girl's voice. Low and even, almost kind. There's no machine in it this time, no metal, no gravel. Just a voice, and I know it. I know it the way you know a song you've heard in a hundred stores and never learned the name of."Who is that?""Guess.""Let me up!""That's not a guess."Her hands shift on my back. One slides up between my shoulder blades and the other stays low near my spine, and they lean. Just a little. My hips slide another inch over the sill. The wood scrapes my stomach through my cardigan, and my one remaining sneaker kicks against the r
Chapter Sixty-Six- BurnerMy alarm goes off at six forty and I don't remember falling asleep.I lie there with my eyes on the ceiling. The sheet is twisted around my legs. My hand hurts, and for a second I can't think why, until I turn it over and see the faint pink flush across my palm. Slapping a person leaves a mark on you too. Nobody tells you that.My phone is on the pillow beside my head. I don't pick it up. I already know what's on it. It buzzed all night, face down on the nightstand, a low, angry insect sound that crawled through the dark until about three in the morning and then gave up.I get out of bed and stand under the shower until the water runs lukewarm.Mom is at the kitchen island when I come downstairs, both hands wrapped around a mug she isn't drinking from. She's still in her robe. Her hair isn't done. In seventeen years, I've seen my mother come downstairs without her hair done maybe four times, and every one of them was a bad day."Sit," she says."I'm not hungr
Chapter Sixty-Five - The Bad Guy IIThen he turns and walks out of the room.They let me out through the main concourse.Reyes walks beside me, one hand not quite on my elbow, the other holding a clipboard. “We’ll need you at the station tomorrow with a parent. Nothing formal. Just a statement.”“I understand.”“Your mother’s been called.”“Of course she has.”The concourse is a slow river of people moving toward the exits. Students in navy and gold, students in black and silver, parents clutching coats, a few reporters holding phones at chest level. Everyone is talking in low, fast voices. The second I step out of the corridor, a bubble of silence ripples outward around me like a stone dropped in water.They know. Of course they know. Phones come up like a field of black flowers.I keep my chin high and walk.I pass Ricky with an ice pack on his eyebrow. I pass two girls from my squad who turn to each other and whisper. I pass Maddox, sitting on a bench with a towel pressed to his ch







