44. Good Enough

Lily

It’s been six months… six hard months of motherhood, pack problems, work and continuous nightmares. I wake up every night screaming; we’ve had to move the twins out of our room because of it.

I don’t know… I was fine, well, at least I thought I was. I can’t explain the anxiety that coils in my stomach on a daily basis, how my skin feels dirty even as I stand underneath a scalding shower and how my heartbeat never seems to slow down.

Konstantin has been understanding, but I know he is growing tired of this. It’s been nearly a year since he claimed me, and we haven’t been intimate since. Not that we haven’t gotten close… I just freeze up when he gets on top of me.

I know he understands… but his beast doesn’t.

How do I move on from being abused? It’s not like I can just walk into a therapist’s office and tell them I was being held as a sex slave to a demon who wanted to use my womb to birth his master. But I can’t exactly talk to Konstantin about this either. Caterina has enoug