Jordan walked towards the doctor’s office with isn heart in his mouth, he knew he had to go and see him and Dr. Nate rarely had any good news for him in his office. The last time he had been here, it was because June failed to get into a clinical trial because her body won’t react to it and they had no choice but to drop her off it. Jordan had cried his eyes out that day on the same hallway and many watched him break down with pity. Having a daughter that had cancer would do that to you and it was something he hated to have to experience again.
He said a short prayer, he wasn’t the religious type but cancer would humble you. He knew he had to start believing in miracles since June made it past the three years the doctors had thought she would die and now she’s five and soon to be six. Majority of those years, she had spent them on the hospital bed either going through one trial or the other. His little girl had gone through a whole lot of shit and it pained him every day that nature chose to make her suffer for nothing.
He took quick deep breaths before he knocked on the door of the doctor. He waited for a reply and he could only hope for the best. His mind was all over the place and he couldn't help the bad feeling that was starting to settle over him. He knew he shouldn't be doing this but he could hardly help it, he was supposed to stay strong for both him and June. He was failing miserably at doing that. He was tired too and he wanted everything to come to an end. He wanted them to live like a normal father and daughter, not like a sick daughter and an over stressed father. The doctor’s voice came for the second time and he pushed the door open to hear his fate.
“Welcome Mr Wilder, I've been waiting for you. I wasn't on duty when you came by yesterday or else I would have given you the news. Please have a sit, you will need it” Doctor Roman said and He sat down right in front of him. He rubbed his sweaty palms together and he waited for him to say whatever he wanted to say.
“I'm sorry to break this to you but June’s body is no longer responding to treatment and her body is too tired to fight anymore. Applying another treatment method would be killing her faster than intended and she has gotten to her limit. The drugs are no longer working for her. I know this is probably not the kind of news you are looking forward to but I'm so sorry about everything Mr. Wilder.”
Jordan tried to process what he just heard but he couldn't. He tried to search the doctor’s face for any sign that he was joking but the neutral face confirmed his fears. The doctor meant everything he said and June was dying truly. He had a thousand and one questions to ask and he couldn't even bring himself to do it.
“Do you mean that the current clinical trial that we thought would be her last isn't working anymore?” he asked in a shaky voice and Dr Roman nodded his head. Jordan took deep breaths and he tried to take control of the alarms going off in his head. This was a joke right? A dry joke that was only to pull his legs. Deep down he knew it wasn't and reality was finally setting in.
“Do you mean there's no other clinical trial for her to try out? Even if they are no free ones and we have to pay to get in, we don't mind,” he asked in a shaky voice and Dr Roman shook his head in pity. His client wasn’t getting the whole point and that is kind of sad because he already broke it down in a very simple manner.
“Mr. Wilder, this isn't about another clinical trial. This is about the fact that her body can't take it anymore. She wasn't medically fit for the last one I entered her into. I did it for you and now her body has deteriorated terribly and getting her into another clinical trial would cost me my license. I just want you to know that she had very little time left and you can spend that time making solid memories with her. We are taking her off the machine as soon as you consent.” He explained further and Jordan nodded.
He didn't know how to feel or what to say anymore, he just thanked the doctor and he walked out. He could have headed anywhere but he didn't know where to go. He knew he couldn't bring himself to go and see June now without feeling like he betrayed her and he failed as a father. He kept wondering aimlessly until he got to the roof of the hospital. The whole place was chilly and it felt like the perfect place to empty your thoughts.
“Mr Wilder, just the man I've been looking for. I'm Dr. Charles, a psychiatrist here and I was asked to speak to you. I came here to clear my head too. Therapists are humans too you know” Dr. Charles announced before walking closer to Jordan who was leaning on the rails. He had no idea someone else was here with him too.
“I I'm not crazy and I don't need to speak to a shrink” he deadpanned and Dr charlie chuckled. He knew Jordan was going to say that, almost every one of his patients did but you don't need to be crazy to see a shrink.
“You aren't crazy, you are tired. You are tired of having to be strong for your daughter. You are tired of having to act as if your insides weren't a crumbling mess. I know you are tired and I'm here to say that you are allowed to feel that way. It's absolutely fine to feel so because you are human. There's only a little to what a human can do. Please listen to me and allow me take you through this healing process.” Dr Charles said and Joedan stared at him. He might not be crazy but he could totally relate to it.
Dr. Charles plopped down on the floor and Jordan follows suit. He didn't know what made him follow suit but he wanted someone to speak with him badly. His only daughter was dying after spending everything he earned to make sure he stayed alone. He wished he would be able to look at her without feeling like he was a failure of a father. He had tried his best and he wished they discovered it fast. Maybe he wouldn't have been dumped and maybe they would have been happy family. Now what was left of their family is just pains and spiked memories. It was that sad
Jordan had discussion with the doctor who told him to take June home and wathc her becasue the clinical trial wasn’t working anymore and they shoukd spend the little time she has left as a family. It would help save money and he would get closure 0before her death. Jordan was heartbroken and he decided to eave her in the hospital, he felt terribly that his job was taking away the little time they could have spent together but he made a promise to be coming earlier than before and he should be informed if anything is happening. He went back to her ward and she was asleep with Amelia watching over her.
“I have been waiting for you all night and you were no where to be found. June kept on asking of you so I had to lie to her that you stepped out for a moment. She already slept though. What's wrong? Why are you eyes red? Have you been crying?” Amelia rambled in one breath and Jordan flashed her a sad smile. He knew she was worried and he hated the way he made her worried too. After June, she was the second most important person in his life and he wouldn't trade her for anything. She has always been there for him days when he was too tired to hang on. His conversation with the doctor made him refreshed and he was willing to carry on no matter the outcome. June had lived life no matter her fate and his baby girl had been a strong warrior.
“June is dying and I can't do anything about it. I have failed her as a father and I wished I could do something about it. I want to take away all of her pains and replace it with freedom. Every other six year old have a normal life, they go to school and do family stuffs. My baby is on that machine with wires attached to her body. I see her smile in pain everytime and I want to take it away from her. I want her to stop pretending like she is fine and happy when she want to run along the world without any care.
Whats the essence of having a rich father then? All my money won't even save her and now her body is too weak to continue another clinical trial. Now I will have to watch her die slowly. Isn't that beautiful?” Jordan broke down and Amelia felt her heart wrench at each sob. She didn't want it to be like this and she really wished she had a superpower to make everything right.
Jordan was tired already and he was barely hanging on to a little tiny thread. She could see it and they all could see it too. He had tried his best and he would forever remain goated in her heart for that. He has had several people look up to him and many of them never got the chance to meet the real him. She always wished people met the real Jordan Wilder, the man she loved and her best friend. He left her side before walking near June’s sleeping figure. He picked up her tiny hand and he shook his head at her tiny hands. She didn't deserve all of this pain but anybody could be next. He kissed her hands gently before whispering.
“Daddy loves you June. Even if the next few days will be me saying goodbye and you slowly breathing your last. I would forever hold on to that. I don't care but I'm proud of you baby. I'm proud of how you've walked into many clinical trials and you came out unscathed. Even if the majority won't work and you would still raise your head and not lose hope. You inspire me June, you inspire me to do better. No matter what life is throwing at me, I don't mind and I would forever be your superhero. I love you baby” He ended his speech by kissing her forehead and dimming the lamp. he adjusted the duvet and he walked to the door before Amelia followed suit.
“Jordan, no matter what happens. I am here for you, I will be here for you, and allow me to be there for you on every step of the journey. I know it's hard watching your child die slowly but I want to hold your hands as you walk through everything and be your support. That's what best friends are for and I'm telling you that on each step of the way, you will see me there. I love you Jordan and I'm proud of your strength.” Amelia declared before pulling him into a hug. She hoped she was pouring all her feelings into the hug and this human realizes that she would be there for him if he let her.
Jordan felt loved all over again and he knew if he would be grateful of people and things, he would forever be grateful that he had this woman in his corner. This was what best friends are truly for and he was glad that they were doing this forever thing together.
“Adonia, I hope you are prepared to give me what I would consider your very best. After this acne, I will determine if you will still be the main lead of the show or not and If you would be the one to continue the role. I saw the magic you gave at the audition and I’m expecting nothing less.” Jordan asked softly and Adonia nodded. He felt bad for shouting at her the other day but he doesn’t know how to bring up a conversation with her after the shooting. He was definitely not going to apologize to her in front of everyone because some of the cast deserved the shouting he did at them, especially Quincy. He really hoped the young lad knew what he had planned for him in this shooting. The young stars who managed to climb the fame ladder need to be taught the etiquette of how not to behave if you want to last long outside. Adonia’s heart was racing as she took the script in preparation to read it and the last thing she wanted was to be embarrassed especially after Jordan asked her if she
Adonia was heading home with Maxine and they discussed in hushed whispers that Jordan didn’t care about anyone’s opinion before stripping Quincy of his role as the lead actor before he was being put in consideration for a much smaller role. Adonia could already imagine the whole management board finding him a suitable role because he was already throwing tantrums. That was Quincy for you, throwing tantrums when he couldn’t get something. Adoni wished she would walk up to him and gloat about the whole process. They weren’t the only ones talking about it too because apparently, Quincy doesn’t really have people who like him like that and he has been gloating in everyone’s face even before the shooting started and no one wanted to be at the mercy of his fierce trolls who would stop at nothing until you are below the floor and in the mud with them too. It was somehow how Quincy always pretended not to notice what his fans were doing to people. “It was funny how the director just turned
Rounding up shooting was stressful already but nothing beats the stress of him having to imagine that he would have to go back to the hospital to watch June slowly wither away. Imagining himself having to be there for someone emotionally when he needs help himself was something he couldn’t wrap his mind around yet and he was sure he would find a hack for it very soon. The pain was starting to get to the peak for him and he felt like he wouldn’t be able to proceed forward with the whole back and forth thing. He really wished there was a way to make everything be fine and make it all stop. June was a strong kid and he could see how she was literally fighting to stay alive amongst everything. He wished there was a way to take away all of her pains and replace them with joy. For a little girl, she has seen too much and he hated it. There was nothing he could do about it. He was packing his things into his car and preparing to head back to his apartment when Amelia caught up with him, s
Jordan tiptoed out of bed as soon as Amelia turned the other way, he had been awake for close to thirty minutes and he was waiting for her to detangle herself from him so he could slip out as quiet as possible, his thoughts were all over the place and the last thing he wanted was them having the conversation right after waking up with both of them reeking of sex. Their clothes were strewn across the whole room and Jordan blamed himself for losing his self-control yesterday night. He went out of the duvet and he picked the clothes from the floor before folding them gently on the drawer, he made sure to be as silent as he could. Amelia was a deep sleeper but he wasn’t ready to take any chances. After a quick shower and he changed into his sports outfit, he picks the new headset a company sent him as an ambassador and he proceeded to jog around the whole estate. Maybe by the time he would be back, his head would be clear enough to have the discussion with her. He closed the door gently
Adonia walked into the press conference with her head up high on her shoulders, she was feeling on top of the world, no feeling could beat that. Knowing she was out of a toxic environment was one thing and knowing she had one of the best management now was another thing. She wanted to sue Quincy for libel and defamation so they agreed under the roof that he pays her a sum of thirty million dollars for damages and they have a red table discussion that would be made public. That way, Adonia’s side of the story would be clear and nobody would be able to talk her down anymore. Her mom is no longer her manager, instead, she is being managed by the great Bella Diez, a ruthless manager. She wondered how long her dad had been planning to switch management for him to get her a new management by Bella Diez and when she met the woman, she was at peace because she looked strict and was very nice. She was here for the red table event with Quincy and it was a live event so no one edits out a part
Adonia walked into the press conference with her head up high on her shoulders, she was feeling on top of the world, no feeling could beat that. Knowing she was out of a toxic environment was one thing and knowing she had one of the best management now was another thing. She wanted to sue Quincy for libel and defamation so they agreed under the roof that he pays her a sum of thirty million dollars for damages and they have a red table discussion that would be made public. That way, Adonia’s side of the story would be clear and nobody would be able to talk her down anymore. Her mom is no longer her manager, instead, she is being managed by the great Bella Diez, a ruthless manager. She wondered how long her dad had been planning to switch management for him to get her a new management by Bella Diez and when she met the woman, she was at peace because she looked strict and was very nice. She was here for the red table event with Quincy and it was a live event so no one edits out a part
After the morning jog, Jordan made it back to the house with sweat trickling over his face. He looked a mess but his insides were quite stable now. He was ready to face Amelia and tell her his truth. He would probably come off as selfish but the truth was that he needed to come out straight to her, he had no idea what would happen at the ned but he knew he wanted his best friend back and he wasn’t ready to go into a sexual relationship with her. He closed the door as he walked in and Amelia appeared from the corner of the room, looking all dashing as always. He tried to look elsewhere and avoid making an eye contact with her, he had fucked up terribly and they both knew that. He was sane, he shouldn’t have gone further. He took a deep breath, forcing his mind to stay in the present moment even though all he kept remembering was the expression of pleasure on her face when they fucked. This was part of the reasons he used to avoid mixing business with pleasure and he would balmed whate
The only place he seemed to think of for refuge was his baby's presence. A popular saying that home is where the heart belongs but in Jordan’s case, he had no idea where home was at this point. Maybe he needed to take a step back from everything and rethink his own life. If friends and family abandoned people, there would always be one person who would never leave your corner. For Jordan, that person was June, his sick daughter. He might not know what to do at this point but sitting with his baby girl without any care in the world would definitely make things work better for him. If he went to the hospital maybe it would give him some sort of clarity he desperately needed. He needed someone to tell him he wasn’t crazy for refusing to pretend he wanted a relationship with Amelia or for telling how pathetic she was starting to become by offering herself cheaply to him. She was a queen and she deserved better than an unrequited love from someone who would never see her more than his bes