[Rosalynd]
Crying, I run back down the hallway. As I pass Gary, he tries to stop me. Screaming unintelligibly, he grabs my arm roughly, forcing me to listen to his babble, my mind unable to focus on his words.
"What the hell is wrong with you, Rosalynd?" His nails dig into my flesh. "Where the hell is your mother?"
Thinking of exactly where my mother is, I snag my arm out of his grasp and throw the studio keys back at him. "Why don't you go find out for yourself?!" I get up close to him, our faces only inches apart as I yell. "Fuck this place! Fuck this job! I'm done!"
For the first time in the 10 years that I've known him, Gary is silent. Like a fish, his mouth moves up and down as if instead of trying to say something he is gasping for air.
The metal outer door to the studio closes with a loud band and I find myself in the parking lot. It doesn't take me long to find my car, the distinct shade of rusted metal red easy to discern amongst the smooth and shiny rentals and new leases. I wish I could afford to rent or lease a car, but then I'd have to make payments and I can barely afford to dress and feed myself. My car, a 1998 Subaru Outback, might be the ugliest in the lot if not all of LA, but it is mine, it is paid for, and it runs...most of the time.
I'm digging through my fanny pack for the keys to my car when I hear big, large, heavy footsteps racing after me.
"Wait!"
I turn to see a young man wearing all black from his ripped Ramones T-shirt to his large knee-high boots strapped tightly to his calves with about a dozen strappy belts. His height, enhanced by both his platform boots and his spiked blonde hair, towers above me as he stands just above 6ft tall without all of his ornamentation, but seems closer to 7ft tall with all of his extras. His black eyeliner was blurring down his face and his black lipstick was smudged down to his chin.
He probably still had my mother's jizz all over his face. Just another thing I'll never be able to remove from my mind.
"Hey babe," he reaches for me.
"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!" screaming I pick up my pace and practically run to my car. "Did you even wash your face before coming out here?"
He pauses in his tracks. Staring after me he whimpers "I never meant for you to find out this way..."
"You mean at all."
"Well yeah, but babe, you don't understand I..."
"Just stop" I beg, holding up my hand. "You're right, I don't understand." Holding my keys in my hand, I fidget with them to help me ground myself.
"Well, I guess this is...goodbye?"
"You think?" I scoff. "Are you even a little bit sorry?"
He pauses, his gray-green eyes connecting with my own. For a second I think he might feel a little remorse, but then he says "I mean, she’s been my dream girl since I was thirteen and...”
I don't wait to hear the rest. I open my car door and start the engine. It takes all of my strength not to run him over as I veer out of the parking lot into traffic.
I am such an idiot.
I guess I should have seen this one coming. But how can anyone predict when things will go this far south? I mean, my mom should have more self-control. He's young enough to be her son (although, to be honest, that has never stopped her before...). Now, whenever I think about any of the kisses Hunter and I shared, I'm going to wonder if he brushed his teeth first...
Oh God…
As I drive back to the condo I share with my mom, I find my mind searching every encounter between Hunter and me, mystified by what went wrong. I think back to all our awkward conversations, the way he looked at my mom when he came over to my house, all the times he made excuses to leave early, and...
Yeah, I am a damn fool.
When I get to my house I grab my oversized suitcase and pile all of my clothes and shoes I can fit inside. I also grab my backpack and purse and head for the car as fast as I can. I want to make some distance between this hellhole and myself as quickly as possible--before either my mom or Hunter comes looking. I don’t feel safe here anymore. I need some space, some time to get away from all this nonsense.
Sitting in my car, I scroll until I find the name of the person I miss the most in the world, my best friend Slone. Pressing “dial” I place the phone on speaker and head north.
After a few rings, I hear an excited "ROSEBUD!”
“Hi, Slone.” I stammered, glad that she couldn't see my tear-streaked face.
“You sound depressed, what’s up?” Even through the phone, she sounded sunny while also sympathetic.
“Nothing much, I just quit my job. And my boyfriend. I quit him too”
"What!!" She screams into the phone, almost deafening me.
“And, I was hoping I might be able to stay with you for a bit…”
“Are you kidding?!!" her exuberance is almost contagious. Almost. "Yes! Of course, you can stay here!"
I smile at the phone, even though I know she cannot see me. But then I start to cry again as I turn onto the freeway headed north.
“Oh Rosebud, what happened?”
I spent the next two hours telling her the whole story.
I am so glad I have such a good friend.
We grew up together, but she left me to go to college up in Humboldt County in the middle of the redwood forest. She has invited me to stay with her so many times, and practically begged me to transfer all of my college units up here and stay with her forever, but I couldn’t bring myself to leave my mom behind.
Until today.
“Don’t worry, Rosebud, we’ll get you hooked up with a hot lumberjack in no time!”
I start to laugh, my mood lifting. I miss her so much.
And as SoCal disappears in my rearview mirror, I realize I won’t miss LA at all.
[Rosalynd] It’s late by the time I’m ready to stop for dinner. I’ve been driving for almost 10 hours, only stopping to get gas. It's easy to forget, sometimes, how long the state of California really is until you find yourself traveling from the bottom to the top of it. My poor car has never seen this many miles in one day, so when I stop into the parking lot of this quaint restaurant just off of Hwy 101, I hear it make a faint wheezing sound as I turn off the engine. That’s not a good sign. I walk into the backyard garden to order my food. It is beautiful, oversized sunflowers are taller than me as I walk through a path of wildflowers and native plants, buzzing with life. A grandmotherly figure takes my order and her husband, a kind old cowboy, brings my food to my table, bringing me a large cold glass of cola. “On the house,” he explains. “You look like you could use something to perk you up.” “Thank you,” I gratefully take a sip. “Oh gods, this is good.” “May I ask you a ques
[Axel]She barely says anything as we drive through the forest. I can hear her little heart beating like a caged bird. I hate that I am unable to make her feel at ease. There is something about her, something different which draws my attention. She is both fragile and strong simultaneously.I feel torn. My wife and Luna, Alexa, left us a year ago and I have not been able to move on. I think part of me is still wishing she’d come back, even after the divorce papers arrived on my doorstep. So I feel a little guilty as I sit here, lusting after another woman. Rosalynd smells amazing, like juniper and sandalwood. She isn't even a wolf, but I feel a connection to her, almost stronger than anything I ever felt with my mate bond. It was that connection that led me to her as she huddled frightened in the night, curled inside her car. I know she must have heard me and I realize that the experience must have been traumatizing. Not a great way to start a potential relationship…but I am getting
[Rosalynd]It's weird, standing in some strange man's kitchen, trying to remember what he said about tea. Especially when you were too busy watching him walk away…Good God! I don't know why I'm suddenly all hot and bothered. My heart is still broken over the hurt I received from Hunter's betrayal--I’m not ready to start something new, but here I am, fantasizing about someone I hardly know. Yes, he’s manly in ways I’ve never experienced, animalistic and raw, while still tender and considerate. He’s nothing at all like the little punk boys I dated back home. He is a man with a life, a home, and a son. Wow. That means the boy has a mother somewhere, which means he might still be married.I’m also not 100% sure he isn’t a serial killer.Can serial killers also be good fathers?Shaking my head at my silliness, I take a look around as I wait for the tea to brew.Axel’s house is simply stunning. Set on a hill overlooking the river, it is made of wood and glass, with exposed beams overhead a
[Rosalynd] "Little Pig, Little Pig, let me come in.." "NOOOOO Dada!" a small voice laughs, followed by the sound of chasing feet around his living room. "I wanna be the wolf this time." I am lying in a small bed in a guest room tucked underneath his stairs. Axel offered it to me as a place to rest while I waited for my car to be repaired. After a quick shower, I soon fell asleep. But now I am awake, wide awake. I lie there for several minutes, not sure if I should interrupt their scene, or wait for it to simmer down before coming out and asking
[Slone] Rosie called me. Her voice sounded light and carefree. So very different from the day before. I didn’t want to tell her my news when I was speaking with her on her trip up north, because I knew how much stress she was experiencing. Which might be why she was standing in front of me, her face tight with shock. “So…” Rosalynd's face barely moves as she grits out the rest of her sentence “You’re telling me now, right now, after I traveled almost 700 miles, risking rain and wolves and serial killers on my way to live with you, after several phone calls where you could have explained your situation, that there is no place for us to stay…at all.”
[Rosalynd] I close my eyes, thinking about all the things I wish I could do with my life. I wish I could be strong and successful on my own. That I can follow where my heart leads me. I need a place to feel safe, loved, and wanted. I need to feel that for myself more than anything. I desire something real, something solid. A family. I send this thought out into the universe. I can feel the warmth of these thoughts wrap around me like a blanket, both comforting and gentle. I take a deep breath, and I feel the heat of a greater force, an energy beyond myself, fill me to the brim with energy and light. At that moment, I know that the universe hears me. I open my eyes. The crystals around me are glimmering with red, green, blue, and golden light, but none are glowing as brightly as the one in my hands, the large piece of uncut rose quartz, which is now warm to the touch, pink glowing from its center, magnified by the facets of the crystal. The warmth of these glowing stones fills m
[Rosalynd]“Rosie! You are magical!!” Slone says slowly, grabbing me by the shoulders and shaking me with each word as we leave Evander’s house, new keys in hand.“You just want to see magic everywhere,” I assure her. “I’m just me, Rosie Reid. Nothing special here.”“I have been in this forest a THOUSAND times and not once have I found that trail.” She points to the dirt path that leads to Evander’s lush garden.“OK,” I admit, shrugging, “Maybe I’m lucky….”“And,” Slone continues, “You found us a place
[Axel] Conner, my wolf, is pacing anxiously in my head. "When is she going to get here?" "Heel boy," I say quietly to myself, my heart racing. We are both excited to see Rosalynd again. It's crazy, a girl I just met last night is already working her way under my skin. The last time Conner paced like this was the night we marked Alexa. Not that it mattered in the end. She still rejected us, and our son. I can smell her before I see her. I have grown accustomed to her scent, a blend of roses and jasmine, but as I turn to make sure it is her, I notice something has changed about it, or maybe just come into the foreground. Sage. She now has the unmistakable aroma of sage blended with the other two. "Witch." I breathe. "Mate" Conner howls. "No! It can't be. How can a witch be our second-chance mate? The pack would never accept a witch as Luna." "MATE!!" Conner insists. "We must have our mate! I will fight them all to keep her!" As I watch her approach, the wind playing w