CAMILLA RENÉE
SATURDAY MORNING.
There goes an evening without me looking like a deranged person.
Why can't things just go my way for a change? With the terrible night, I'll just rush upstairs and maybe fall in bed, letting sleep take away all my problem and they are a lot.
At this point, I'm faced with two alternatives. Two choices. Two options. Just one and two. There's no third party. Both of them are catastrophic depending on their reactions, they were actions and by rule they had equal and opposite reactions.
The first and the dredged one was to Point blank tell him the truth if I did.
The simple truth to his question, a mono syllabic word, it's simple to pronounce.
It'll take less than three seconds to mouth, but that's not the problem.
Speaking the truth isn't the issue at this point, it's living and managing what comes next.
Follow up questions. Doubting gazes
Drop your thoughts on my book. Love to hear them. Always.
**CAMILLA RENÉE**SATURDAY.Flipping the straps of my dress up my hand and over my shoulders, I continuously reminded myself how easy this should be.It's the same as a teacher's job.The student which in this case is Dylan Emerton, that student seats far away and listens as the teacher, me, speaks to him.I make sure he understands and afterwards, we can both put an end to the tortue and call it a day. Easy as that."With Dylan Emerton, you and I both know that's a joke."My mind wouldn't even buldge no matter how many times I grit my teeth or curl my fingers, even if they turn white before the end of today, somehow we both know Dylan makes everything more stressful than need be.I purposely skipped breakfast with the "family" which was weird even to me. I've wished for my parents presence for days, they return and I avoid them.The talk. That's what I'm calling it now. The one I've agreed to for almost a week yet neith
**CAMILLA RENÉE**MONDAY.The tutoring session went lovely. Dylan made no snarky comments or remarks, no flirting. He's also kinda intelligent, once he gets past the whole bad boy issue. He's an actual nerd. He'll kill me, but it's true.As for Sunday, there's nothing much to write up about it other than the fact that my parents ditched me, no new thing there. That's practically all of it.Now it's Monday, back to my usual routine.Up from bed. In the shower. Down the stairs. On Dylan's bike. Get to school.By the time I reached the stage, almost everyone was done with breakfast. I took an extra ten minutes in the bathroom, but I didn't mind since I had a full stomach from last night pizza.One thing did catch me off guard. My parents eat breaking and eat bread. When did they return?I avoided their gaze, pulling up a chair beside Dylan. They can save them apologises if they'll keep making one mistake over again.
CAMILLA RENÉEMONDAY.I retracted as many steps as I could, maybe five or six. It still didn't feel enough, his presence still crowded my senses and this wasn't in a good way. The goal was to create as much space between us as I could. His goal was to make me cower in fear. That has always been his motive. I keep letting him though. Stupid. Dumb. Scared. Camilla. The more steps I retraced, the more steps he took to close the gap, plummeting all my efforts at getting away from him. Meanwhile, that mini attack was building up quickly, creating this huge lump in my chest. I didn't mean that figuratively, maybe it's just in my head but I still found it difficult to draw any breath. I'm sucking in as much as I can, but it's hard. It's hard.Still, I kept moving backwards. He did the opposite and a hand flew to my chest.One more step behind and my back hit something strong. A human wall if you may.
CAMILLA RENÉEMONDAY.It took a few minutes of praises and chants of our school to have the audience in a cherry mood.Then a few more till it passed away, the praises that is.It all subsided, but the entire soccer team didn't end theirs there.While the losers, God it feels good to say that, while they bowed their heads in shame and walked away, our team retreated to the locker room to finish what started in the pitch.They had water which was a tradition, it didn't seem rational to pour water over yourself merely because you're celebrating, but it's their tradition so I'll go with it.The announcer made it clear our team would have to go to Richmond High the next day, but winning first already gave us an edge.Dylan has disappeared with his teammates, taking the fun backsta
CAMILLA RENÉE MONDAY. After my confirmation, I heard whispers from both sides, left and right. As though it weren't enough, those snickers were followed by slight cooling. The type girls usually engage in at those sleepovers. Of course. This time it wasn't girls, Dylan's teammates were shared on each side, they were making those funny sounds. "Shut it all of you!" Dylan yelled at the top of his voice. I snickered at his attitude which worked since they all stopped making silly sounds. "You'll go?" He repeated unsure if I meant my earlier response. I smacked my lips acting like I was still thinking, fingers underneath my jaw and all. After a second or two, I frowned my face and he fell. Suddenly, I brightened it up with a sly g
CAMILLA RENÉE MONDAY EVENING. Flipping him the bird away from my parent's watchful eyes of course, I threw in a low snort, all to throw him off topic and get the heat off my skin, it's burning might I add. Mondays are never a good day for me, it's literally the worst day of the week for everyone in the world. I just hate them. Bad things are bound to happen. "Meanwhile, it's evening and I'm certain it was a fun day in school. Both of you better stop glaring and looking as though you will slit the other's throat. In my opinion, the best thing is to start getting along. You're going to spend alot more time together. Fourteen days." His Mother emphasized. I groaned in agony. Do not remind me. Come to think of it, I didn't have places to go anyway, but Dylan could have, now he is grounded, c
CAMILLA RENÉE MONDAY EVENING. From the beads of sweat scattered over his arms and exposed chest, I'd say he got out of the water and left to do some silly thing which he always does. He got back just in time to catch me, which might I add is so fucking hot. I can't keep my eyes away, I'm sure I don't even want to. "Dylan." I breathed his name for two things. The first was accepting what just happening and the second was confirming that it wasn't a poor figment of my imagination caused by actually hitting my head. Maybe I fell into the pool and was drowning as we speak. Oh wow. Daringly, I wrapped my arms around his waist, taking in his musky scent more confirmation that all of this was happening. I was not imagining it. He did freeze underneath my to
CAMILLA RENÉE MONDAY. Blake's hands lingered on mine after the shake, he gave rise to his thumb and rubbed a small circle over the top of my palm. He didn't pull away after that, just a very intense gaze and what I've come to know as his signature smirk. Taking matters in my hand, I mean that quite literally, I pulled my hand away, clearing my throat not to make that exchange too awkward and obvious. Even afterwards, his gaze rested solely on me. From behind, Dylan got out of the water, pulling my hand to help me. I was close enough, could get out myself, maybe there's an ulterior motive to that. Since we were out, Blake took his eyes off me for a minute, directing them to Dylan. A tensed and angry Dylan. This entire place was tense. "Come here!" He cooed, pulling him in for a little bro hug. Even I could tell he didn't want to do it, his shoulders tensed