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Chapter 14
“I don’t know why he keeps hanging around with her?” I slur to Sam.
We are sitting at her table taking shots and passing a joint between the two of us. We had been back at her place for about 20 minutes. She lives a few blocks from the bar so instead of going home and thinking about what Zain and Hannah were doing, Sam invited me to her place to drink about it. Probably not the best way to handle the situation, but I didn’t care now.
“You know why. We both know he doesn’t actually have any feelings for her.”
“I know and I have never cared before.”
“So why now Ash? What is it bothering you when it never has before?”
“She isn’t good for him. All she is about it getting messed up and partying. She doesn’t even have a real personality. She dang near stalks him around the city on the weekends. It’s weird that he posts a photo or video of a band and within 30 minutes she shows up. Stalker much?”
Sam raises her eyebrow at me as she takes anot
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