CHAPTER 37 VerbotenVerboten- forbidden; prohibited by dictateOrigin: German37NICK'S POVEIGHT YEARS AGO"How do I look?" Catherine asks me.She shows off to me her lovely white dress that I bought from a flea market in town and she seems to love it. It was just really cheap and I thought she wasn't gonna like it because it was a cheapass dress but she loved it. She really loved it. She still makes it look so pretty damn good on her and I was glad it fits her. Catherine is always so beautiful to me no matter what she's gonna wear or how tired she looks like or how sleepy and how make-up free her face is. Catherine will always be beautiful to me."Say something." She pleads.My lips twitch."How do I look Nick?" She asks again while she reaches for my hand.I smiled at her. "You look very very beautiful, love."She smiles sheepishly. "Are you sure? It's a perfect fit though. I really love it."I cupped her right cheek and kissed her forehead. "Yes I am. You're the loveliest."I am
CHAPTER 38 Sinbi (신비)Sinbi (신비)Translation: MysteryOrigin: Korean38SAVANNAH'S POVI threw myself to bed and I'm already so exhausted even though it's still Wednesday. I have this seriously difficult project to pass on Friday which I'm still not done with, the same day as my exam for English I. I haven't memorized the English writers needed to be memorized. The past three days, I haven't seen Nick again. He's always gone so long and just pops out of nowhere all of a sudden. I know I shouldn't be allowed to look for him because we have no label but he makes me worried about him sometimes.The door swings open, "Ugh! Good thing I saw you."It was Tracy.She walks inside and slammed the door behind her. She sits on my bed and I smiled at her. She looks as tired as I am. "I need a hug." She sighs.She opens her arms wide to me with a rueful smile. I pulled myself up and just hugged her. I rubbed her back. "What's wrong?" I asked."Clyde and I fought. Nick is not picking up his phone w
CHAPTER 39 AbuliaAbulia- abnormal lack of ability to act or to make decisionsOrigin: English39I watch Tracy and Clyde talk to each other on another table, right across us while I was sitting down on the same spot where I was right next to Nick. I just kept sipping my juice, little by little so I would avoid talking to Nick. I don't want to talk to him right now. I'm not allowed to get hurt but now that I found out that he's still visiting and seeing Catherine, I feel so downgraded. I can't blame him for using me when he's here. The real thing that I'm bugged about is his real current relationship with Catherine. I wonder what they are now."How you've been?" He finally speaks after eating his steak. He grabs a tissue and wiped his outer lips."Good. Busy." I said without looking at him as I put my lips back on my straw.We were quiet again. I see Tracy and Clyde walking back to our table with smile on their faces, I think they've patched up everything now. I smiled at them."You
CHAPTER 40 Furyo (不慮)Furyo (不慮)Translation: AccidentalOrigin: Japanese40I got myself busy and studied my lessons during the rest days of the week. I tried to avoid seeing him, I would eat dinner earlier than Tracy. I would do it on purpose or I would go out alone just to avoid seeing Nick. I keep on reminding myself that it's for the best. I know it's for the best. It might actually help me just a little bit to get over this feeling I have for him and I wish it would at least help.Now based on the way things that happened last Wednesday, I doubt that he actually cares much for me. He didn't even try to call or text me after that night. He completely treated me like shit.If I did something wrong that he didn't like, I expected that he would eventually explain it to me what it was or at least tell me what the hell upset him so much that night, but no he didn't bother telling me about it and I really hate it. The last thing I got from him was the slamming of his bedroom door after
CHAPTER 41 Stultus AnimiStultus AnimiTranslation: stupid feelingsOrigin: Latin41The glowing sun was slowly rising up in the dull morning sky as the sunbeams were casting down on the window pane. The light was growing more and more vivid making the sky more and more radiant as the glowing sphere climbed higher and higher into the sky. But as beautiful as the morning starts before my eyes, I knew today was going to be horrible.I was still inside Nick's car. I was still with him. After what I told him last night, neither of us spoke to each other anymore. I didn't try to say anything because I think I already embarrassed myself too much in front of him. I didn't even catch any sleep because I couldn't sleep at all. I couldn't sleep knowing that he didn't say anything to what I said. I'm still inside his car and he's still sitting down right next to me. We acted like neither of us existed.The car was parked right before the cliff where I could see the entire city below. My head was
CHAPTER 42 Green-Eyed MonsterGreen-Eyed Monster- jealousyOrigin: English42I miss Nick.Terribly missing himI keep on getting myself busy with my studies, exams, assignments and projects. Though time to time, Nick passes by my mind but I would quickly shake him off. It has been almost four weeks since the last time I talked to him. Almost four weeks since he dropped me home. Almost four weeks since I saw him.I was completely being delusional that I could handle it when he'll tell me that he never wanted more cos I thought if I'd give him time maybe he would come around but he's not.Tracy, Clyde and I would have dinner together but he wouldn't show up. Sometimes Alec would join us but Nick never did show up even though every night I hope he would. Every night I join dinner with Tracy hoping he would pop out of nowhere like he always do but he's not. He's clearly avoiding me. We both know we need this time and space from each other but the more days pass by, the more I miss him a
CHAPTER 43 CarapherneliaCaraphernelia- a broken-heart disease that occurs whenever someone leaves you, but leaves all of their things behind43"Tell me to leave." He says.I didn't answer."Push me away. Treat me like a complete shit like how I treated you before." he says.I didn't answer again.He looks at me and my eyes couldn't look away. Oh Nick I can't do that. Even if you hurt me, I can't hurt you like that cos I love you and I'm too scared of pushing you away cos I know you won't come back."Make me leave Savannah." He added.I shake my head, my words are not coming out from my lips and I don't know why."If you'll tell me to go then I'll go. I'll leave you." He continues as I feel his breath on my neck. But I shake my head once again.His arms were wrapping around my entire body. He's hugging me close to him that I can't seem to move away cos I love our position. My arms were on my sides. I'm not hugging him back. I don't want to feel anything attached to us anymore cos I
CHAPTER 44 Nunchi (눈치)Nunchi (눈치)- the subtle art of listening and gauging others' moods; the ability to know what not to say in a certain social situationOrigin: Korean44"Yeah I'm going." I say.Tracy looks at me. "Yes!" She rejoiced.I tried to comb my hair and gaze at my own reflection. I'm obviously preparing myself for tonight because I know I need to party and unwind."Been wanting to hear that coming from you without being forced by me." She said while laughing.I smile as I fix my mini skirt. She looks at me. "Wow. You're showing more skin.""Is it a bad thing?" I asked.She shakes her head. "No. You'll definitely be a jaw dropper. I love your sleeveless too. It looks so fancy."I smiled. "Thanks."I let Tracy put make up on me but not too much. Just a little make up that looks like I didn't put any make up. When we were done preparing, we headed out of the dorm and got into Romeo's car. Penny was there as usual but I really didn't bother her presence as if she wasn't her