Monday morning, I woke up in a rush to go to school because it was almost 8 am when I got up from my bed. Thank goodness I successfully made it on time but I was too exhausted as well. It has been 3 am when Aspen drove me back to my apartment since we still went in many places to spend the hours with. It's like he never bothered himself in what time it was, and I didn't try to ask him why he's been very entertained with me as if it's just the only chance we had to be together again. But that's kind of vague to happen, we would never let that happen. Lunch break came but I still didn't get any chance to see Aspen so I decided to just ignore it for now. I went to the cafeteria with Coraline and yes, she was sulking when I tried calling her to come with me earlier. Good thing she was convinced by my offering of treat. Great, lessening my allowance instantly again. "I know it's my fault for not telling Kiana and you that I left the party last night. But you see, all of us are fine. I am
It's been three days straight that I've lost communication with him. Mezakiel explained me why we received this punishment saying Wren should have disqualified us but Mezakiel pleaded to spare the rudeness and mistake I did so he ended up giving us this kind of punishment. That's a huge pain, why would he get mad of my rudeness toward his when I reacted like that because of his annoying actions after all?! Added to it, Wren might've intentionally made me mad to lose my control and throw unpleasant attitude toward. So that he could do this to us, to Aspen. He wanted us both to separate so we couldn't make stronger closure. Come on! He really got some huge problem with his younger brother?! Even involving our friendship?! It's making me angry every time I think about it.But good timing, I could not actually have my time making a move to Aspen for the gamble because the arrival of the midterm examination day's too close. We both needed to focus studying and I know that he's also piled
Even though I haven't finished cleaning the library, I still let Maddison bring me to wherever she wanted us to go. After the long walk, we finally made it to the cafeteria of the school and there I found myself, facing her in one table. The cafeteria's a bit silent since there were least students inside. "What do you want to tell me again?" I asked, pretending I didn't understand what she'd said earlier. But I heard it clearly, she's going to tell me the reason why Aspen's being like this to me suddenly. If I were Maddison, I would also doubt Aspen's sudden changes toward the close friend he just wanted to spend his time with. "His reason of ignoring you," she replied, holding her hands together over the table. "Believe me or not, I will still say it even if I'll sound like betraying the rest people." I creased my brows on her. What did she mean by betraying rest people? It's like she's implying the information must be a secret to me. This is very dubious, I really need to know it
Lately, I've been deciding to just avoid Aspen for now. It's for the better, it's not easy. It's not easy to let him ignore me at all. It's extremely hard to believe that the person who was just treating you like you're the best friend he have ever had suddenly became a stranger to you in a blink of an eye. The more I dive into this problem, the worse pain and overthinking I get. To the point that it's forcing me to approach his brother and tell him to stop it but I could not do it because I must not. I told to Mezakiel that we should not mind this suspension and gamble for now and just wait for Wren to stop the punishment but it's actually me who was being affected at all. After my schedule ended, I quickly went home because I needed to sleep and study for a bit. I closed my door and a loud thud disturbed the quiet room. I admit it, I expected Mezakiel to be here and talk to me because I admit it, I badly wanted to talk to him. I needed his voice, his words, his irritating face that
If I were to calculate how long have I been staring at my phone's screen---where Jasper's profile's been displayed, it has been almost an hour. When I went home, I sat on my couch first to prepare myself from chatting Jasper, in case Aspen's the one who's holding his phone at this moment. My grip on my phone tightened when it rang and Jasper's messenger icon popped out, meaning he's the one who's calling me. Out of my startlement, I nervously picked the call and put it on my left ear. I began trembling, thinking if it's Aspen who'll talk. And why am I doing this? I declined Jasper's offer earlier because I didn't want to disobey Wren's punishment. Then why did I answer the call?! And why am I waiting for him to talk? Why's no one answering?! "You sure you'll not talk to him using my account?" Thank goodness it's only Jasper. "No, I don't want to waste his time. He needs to focus on studying instead. Don't plot some tricks like this one anymore, Jasper." "I'm the one who's helping
As if there's going to be a chance for me to feel comfortable? Are my parents this serious? Of all places and chances for me to get away from the sources of my problems, why did it still follow me? Look, even if minutes alreast passed by, I was still getting suffocated by the intense ambience of the dining place. Despite the jolly presence reining because of the lively talk of our parents, I still could not make myself calm. I tried to swallow my food again and it's very, very hard to do it. Not because it's Kiana's not-so-pleasant cook but because of him. I dropped my fork and spoon before attempting to glance at him. He remained fixated on his food. Never have I ever caught him looking at me. And that's really suffocating me. I sighed again, I think I've been sighing for so many times since the dinner started. I caught Kiana who's already glancing at me and it's so clear that she could understand what's between me and the guy in front of me."Something wrong? Kiana?" Wren interrupt
A week passed by and the hassle examination finally ended. After the exam, sembreak's already waving and I am dead prepared for it. Gosh, if only I coud go out with my Grandma again to have a trip but I badly needed to find a way to talk to Aspen. The last time we talked was that night. When he confessed his feelings to me. When I realized I couldn't give him the perfect reaction. I was so dumb to run away out of the total startlement. Thank goodness I decided not to jump on the sea and just end my life happily when he finally said he like me. Gosh, that was so unforgettable, he didn't know how I didn't sleep that night! "You freak! Did you really study too much that you almost perfected all the subjects?!" Coraline complained. Of course, I was not surprised when I was one of the topnotchers in the exam's result in our batch! Who wuld I blame when I was too motivated in studying? I was recopricated! "That's odd for you to not believe! It's because I studied very well, unlike you."
"What? He's merciless!" I complained, Mezakiel and I met once again and went out to talk about how Wren's going to handle the punishment. Mezakiel finished his glass of soda first. "Yes, he's not going to change his mind, the punishment is still running." I sighed. "Why is he so rough? What's the sense of the gamble if he's taking our suspension this long?" I asked, annoyed. He shrugged, it irritated me to see his calm situation. "I don't know, I think he's obviously showing that he doesn't want you to end up with his brother. That dude you like? I mean?""Gosh, I'm aware of that. It's because Wren's going to marry my cousin sooner, for sure." He didn't answer me, he remained silent and enjoyed his meal. Mezakiel's already updated thay my cousin and Aspen's brother who leads this gamble would become engaged soon. And it's hard to stop that. It's not like Mezakiel and I would stop the wedding so I could freely have Aspen and win the gamble. That's funny.Funy enough to annoy me.