"Thank you."
My steps faltered when I heard the voice of Sandy talking to Von inside the room. My hands fell to my sides and I abandoned the plan of pushing the door open. I didn't come in as I wanted to.
"Don't mention it. I told you already that I won't let anyone harm you."
I heaved out a sigh when I felt my chest constricts in pain.
"I'm sorry, Von. I'm sorry about your brother. Believe me when I say that I tried helping him but he became out of control these past months. I'm sorry.. it's all my fault. If only I have told you before then it wouldn't go as far as this."
Sandy sobbed uncontrollably.
"Shhh.. it's not your fault about what happened to him. You don't want it to happen either. No one wants what happened. You only protected yourself. It's a self-defense. Don't worry. Brad is already conscious. I'll make sure that he faced his remaining years in
"Jill!""Cathy!" I screamed hard when I saw my cousin's figure emerged out from the arrival area of the national airport.Cathy's face seemed glowing when she saw me. Leaping forward into her direction, I hugged her as tight as I could before releasing her."I missed you so much, girl!" I exclaimed and scanned her face. Cathy lose weight which made her look prettier."I missed you, too! It's been what? Almost a year?" She outstretched her arms in the air and inhaled for air. "I miss my hometown! I miss everything here and of course, I miss you!"I giggled and hugged her again. We are attracting attention from the people but we do not care. I'm so happy to finally see her in flesh after how many years of being separated.With our arms on each other's waist, we walked to the exit where a car is waiting for us. Mom arranged for someone to fetch Cathy
"Cathy, I'll be there later after an hour. I just have to run some errands for my perfectionist mother. You know the drill about Madam Divina. She gets everyone so worked out."Cathy chuckled at the line and quickly dimissed me. She said that she will do the report first while waiting for me."I didn't know how you do it Cathy but I'm so glad I'm not you."Cathy laughed. "And I'm also glad I'm not you, Jill. I can't see myself being foolish just for a guy!""Uh-huh. You are not going there. I'll hang up. See you."Five minutes more and I am parking outside Von's residence to give him the paper myself. My mother said it's a very confidential matter so I need to take it myself. I didn't ask for any further questions. Even though I promised her that I will do everything she wanted me to do, I'm still having a tug-of-war relationship with working for the company."Sorry Ma'am Jill but Sir Von instructed us not to receive any guest for now."
"Stop meddling with my affairs, Jill. Go home or go to work. You will never get anything worthwhile from involving yourself to my life."He stood up and walked to me to get the envelope but out of my frustration, I tore the document into two pieces and handed them to him. Von gritted his teeth and threw the papers on the floor."What is wrong with you?!" he roared.That's when I knew that I can't take it all in anymore. With my eyes blazing hot in tears, I stood up and faced his wrath."What is wrong with me?! You! What is wrong with you?! Why can't you see all that I've done for you! I've done everything for you Trevor just so you could give me a part of your heart! I've done everything for you but your eyes are still glued to Sandy! Can I ask what did she do for you to love her that much? Can you compare it to what I have done for you? Can she die for you? Can she help you like I did? Is she willing to give up eve
"I told you already, Jill. I warned you the first time you told me about your fascination with Von that you should never expect your feelings to be reciprocated by someone who still has hang-ups for his ex."I poured myself another whiskey and drank it all out."I know, Cathe. I know! But what can I do?! I'm stupid and madly in love! How can I caution myself to be out of his life when all of me is screaming for him! I love him, Cathy! I fucking love him!"I wept and howled at the same time while thinking about the disaster that had happenedCathe sat by my side on the floor on her room and snatched the glass away from my hand. What was supposed a visit to the newly opened spa turned out to be a crying session in her pad."Jill, I will tell you a secret only your mother knows.""What is it?" I asked in a ragged voice while I put the bottle on my mouth. To hell with the glass."Von and I had a past. We had a relationship dur
I am definitely back where I began but this time, it came with another twist.I'm now imprisoned in the promise I made with my mother to work in the company. I did not have the luxury of time to cry for another day because she put me on the front line out of the blue.I'd like to think that she did it on purpose but I know she doesn't know about what happened between me and Von. I don't want to tell her at all because I'm done asking for her help. What I want is to prove to her that I can do this starting now.It's also a good thing that I'm too absorb in the work. No time to think about how hurt I am.Sometimes I get myself astonished. There are days when I would stay up until the wee of morning crying until it's impossible to close my eyes while there are days when I felt like it all happened years ago. I tried to maintain my latter's disposition but the minute I wake up in the morning to go to work, the voi
"And why? Are you hiding something from me, Jill?"I bit my lips as I uttered the two words that I hope will convince her."I'm pregnant."Her face stayed blank before I saw the slightest change. Her eyes registered pity and then anger before it settles back to her usual stoic face."Who's the father?""You know who's the father. But my unborn child will have no father if the marriage will take place.""Does Trevor know about your condition?""No. I broke off whatever we have after I found out that he went back to Sandy. But mom, everything now has changed. We will have a child so I should be the one who will walk down that aisle and not Sandy. So please, don't stop me. He has the right to know about this."I wiped the tears off my face and turned my back."It's over, Jill. By the time you get there, the ceremony is over. Stop fighting for someone who clearly doesn't want you in his life. Let him go completely."I
The full five-minute drive to the wedding is akin to a funeral march. Every second that passed is a second towards my death sentence.I'm having difficulty in breathing but I don't want it to show in front of my mother because she might stop me completely.She decided to accompany me to avoid any stupid action I might make according to her. But in my dejected and mournful state now, I don't think my mother could stop me from doing anything drastic.We entered a country club and then pulled off outside an open hall that's filled with all kinds of expensive flowers. A line of chairs covered with elegant white linen are on each side of the aisle where Von and Sandy were holding hands and staring lovingly at each other before an officiating priest.I tried to open the door to go out but my mother was quick to stop me. I looked at her begging."Mom, please. Just this once, please. Let me go out. Please."I reached for her hands and squeezed them
But she didn't. My mother didn't live enough for her to witness just how adorable and handsome my little toddler is. She didn't hold on as what I've asked her to.On the third month of my sensitive pregnancy, she died in her sleep while holding my hands.No matter how many times she has prepared me into this, I still can't accept it. Nothing could ever prepare me for this. Now I am officially an orphan. And I couldn't do something but cry and be bitter about it.My mother's funeral has been solemn with many friends and acquaintances paying their respects to my mother and condolences for me.I looked at the faces of the people I barely recognize. Who are the wolves and the vultures among them? Can I find a single friend in them?Von was also present in the service but he made sure to position several seats away from me. He didn't get to talk to me not because he didn't try but bec