Loving Unapologetically

CHAPTER ONE

Aura's POV

I was standing on the crossway of the road, the car was honking and people were shouting at me when I realized I was about to get hit by an angry truck driver. Someone grabbed me from behind and pushed me towards the sidewalk.

When I turned around, I didn’t expect the most unexpected person to save me.

It was Sabestine. I froze at that moment. I pinched myself as I couldn’t believe my eyes. It was Sabestine. I tried to run away but I knew he would not let me escape this time, but I somehow managed to face him.

His eyes were clearly showing how angry he was with me, what he was feeling and what he went through because of me.

“WE NEED TO TALK” he said as he grabbed my hand in his tight grip and dragged me away. I am sure it could surely leave a mark.

I was not ready for the answers he would seek, but nor did I have any different options. I nodded and we went to a café in the nearby area. The only word I was able to say was SORRY.

He was trying to get an explanation from me for what I did to him while he was trying to control himself.

Why did I never contract him? Why do I hide the fact I was never in love with him? What am I doing here in LA? He looked so frustrated yet so happy to look at me.

I could tell he was happy to see me but very angry for lying to him for all these years. It was not just an ordinary joke. His veins popped up due to anger.

I looked at him, he was looking pissed. I could feel the environment getting tense. It was early October and it was already chilly air but at that moment I was feeling suffocated. So, I suggested he come to my apartment and I could explain everything to him in brief without any disturbance.

He looked at me trying to find a lie or escape, but at last accepted my offer and we got to my apartment in his car. It was silent yet the most chaotic ride I ever had.

We did not talk about anything on the drive back to my apartment. I just guided him in the direction. It took about thirty minutes for us to get there. We got out of the car and went inside the building, entering the lift.

He asked me “What’s your floor?”

I replied “the 9th floor”.

It was quite a journey to an apartment as we arrived. I opened the door of my house. We went inside the apartment. I could see him watching everywhere with the edge of his eyes.

“Make yourself comfortable, I am coming in five” I said as I went to kitchen.

He was looking at all the pictures hanging on the wall and I suddenly remembered there were two photos of him also.

Before I could stop him, he already saw his photos. In one photo we were both looking at each other and the other one was the candid I clicked secretly.

AHHHH FUCK. He just smirked but did not react to it. THANK GODD. Now he looked more relaxed and I was watching him from my kitchen. I have always really missed him, especially his gray eyes. They were like a comfort to me.

I was staring at him until he came to me and asked

“Is something on my face?” he asked me, pointing to his face and having a slight smile like he caught me, eye raping him.

I was so embarrassed and quickly looked away, shooking my head not able to form my words.

He went to the sofa and sat down reading the magazine that was lying there. I took the snacks and also went to the sofa. Now, it was the moment of truth. He was looking at me with the hunger for answers.

I was sitting on the carpet leaning towards the sofa. It was getting tense in the room, so I broke the ice by asking

“How have you been?” He looked at me in disbelief.

“What do you think how I have been?” he said in a sharp voice and I could see pain in his eyes, it was even painful to watch him like that.

Finally, he asked me

“WHY DID YOU LIE ABOUT YOURSELF? WHY THERE WAS A NEED TO LIE, EVEN TO ME? WHAT WAS MY MISTAKE? WHY DO YOU LEAVE ME LIKE THIS? DID YOU EVER LOVE ME? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU?” I could feel his voice getting hoaxed in the end and his eyes swelled up with water.

Asking all the questions, a loner escaped his eyes. I made him so upset he cannot control his emotions now. He started to question me again and again. I could imagine how unbearable pain he had suffered. ALL ALONE. As he was trying his best to control his emotions, I hugged him tightly until his tears faded away.

I could feel the turmoil going inside me and him. I always wanted to meet him all the time but I refrained myself to be near him.

He deserves much better than me, better than us. I can't let him to live in a Deadpool with me. He deserves the world.

Feeling him in my arms, I felt at peace. It's like I got the missing piece of mine back to it's place. I felt complete like I just belong here, with him.

Fate come to us,

Even at the wrong time

But destiny makes it possible

At the right time.