The edge

*** Rebecca ***

I sat on the edge with tears dripping down my cheeks. I screamed and cried till I no longer could. I cursed him into the harsh wind that was blowing down my tear stained cheeks. " I hate you! I hate you, wish I had never met you!" I screamed. My voice hoarse and my hair messed up by the wind. " That as****e, how could he!"

I whimpered. "How could he.."

I tried getting up, but my knees wouldn't hold me. So I sat there all cried out and unable to move for hours..

5 hours earlier

I finished work earlier today and decided to pop in to grab some Chinese takeaway on a way home. I wanted to surprise Matt on our anniversary before we head out for a night of fun. I was on cloud nine, cause exactly same time next year I would be Mrs Holloway! I couldn't wait to marry this handsome man that's been in my life for three amazing years. We met on my last day of high-school at the party we organised to celebrate the new chapter of our lives. He was few years older and a college boy, drop dead gorgeous and with the most charming smile I've seen in my life. So I fell for him. I fell for him very hard and very fast, and so did he. It felt like a match made in haven, we were both in college, well I was just starting and he's been studying couple of years already. Both of us were quite ambitious with what we wanted to do in our lives, and what we wanted in relationship, family, and we were on the same page for pretty much every aspect. We balanced each other perfectly and it felt like we were always meant to meet. Two years into our relationship he proposed. And, oh boy, did I said yes! I screamed 'yes' a million times over and over, I could not be happier! We moved in together shortly after and been living the dream ever since, everything seemed just perfect. We would study during the day and spend the evenings doing what lovers do. Walk in the park, lunch on a park bench, movies, dinners and dancing. Nights very hot and steamy in each others arms, while me made love for hours. I felt like I couldn't be happier with anyone else ever in my life, he was my soul mate. Or so I thought..

I was just around a corner of our flat when I noticed my best friends car parked nearby. " Ohhh, she must have dropped by to wish us happy anniversary " I thought to myself. Louise was my best friend since probably our kindergarten days or even longer. We grew up next to each other and been doing everything together for as long as I remember. We even went to the same college so we wouldn't have to part. We loved and cared for each other to bits, she was my sister I never had.

I grabbed my keys out of my purse and quietly opened the doors wanting to make a surprise entrance. Kicked my shoes off and made my way to the living room. The food I was still holding hit the floor with a loud thud on the ground at the scene I saw. And my best friend jumped of off my fiance from the noise. I couldn't utter a word at what I saw, my fiance, the man I was meant to marry a year from now was sitting naked on the sofa while my best friend was riding him! Both sweaty and grunting in ecstasy. My legs and hands felt numb and I couldn't move. "It's not what it looks like" Matt stumbled. While Louise tried to grab her clothes to cover her naked body. " I didn't mean to.." I felt my blood boil and I couldn't hold it anymore. I started screaming and cursing them, trying not to choke on the sobs that were forming inside my throat. " You piece of s**t, how f*****g could you???!!! How dare you??!" I screamed. " You didn't mean, what, to f**k my best friend??!! Or you just forgot that you're engaged to someone for a moment??!! And you??!! " I turned to Louise. "Did you accidentally fell on his d**k??! Or did you forget that he's my fiance??!! Your best friend's fiance!!?You're nothing, but a worthless tramp! I wish I have never met you, either one of you!! I hope I will never see you again in my life!!!"

With those last words I grabbed my keys, slammed the doors and ran out the building with tears starting to burn at my eyes of the place that was once my happy home...

Waves crashed into the cliffs beneath me while I sat on the ground all cried out, pitying myself. And then I got angry, disappointed with myself. I'm not the girl that falls apart without a man, I'm not the girl that doesn't know what to do without a man, I can't, I won't allow it. I was always a strong minded and independent woman even when I was with Matt. I wanted to be mine and myself, before I was anyone else's. And he gave me away so easily..

I got up, my legs still wobbly, and made my way towards the car. I need to make a plan, something to get me started somewhere far away from this damn town and him. I don't ever want to see him or her for that matter. I'm done.

I sat in my car and took my phone, there were 12 missed calls from Matt and another 5 from Louise. Really, what can they think they can possibly tell me??! I dialled Matt's number and after three rings it connected. "Baby, where are you? I'm so sorry, we need to talk, please come home, so we can... " I cut him off " You have two hours to get the f**k out of my apartment with all your stuff." I hung up. That's it, I want him gone and out of my life. He hurt me more than anyone ever in mine life and I can't, I won't go back, I do not care what he has to say. He tainted the love we had and promised he made when he asked me to marry him.

It felt like the ground was ripped from underneath my feet and I had nothing left in this town, this place I dearly loved and called my home. He damaged all of it, leaving me with no other choice. I decided to leave this place once and for all.

When I reached my apartment there were no lights and Matt's car was gone. I took a breath of relief and went in to pack my things. I managed to get hold of my landlord and thankfully she understood my situation and agreed to terminate our tenancy contract immediately, so I would be able to leave the next morning. I spent most of the night packing my things and carrying everything into the car, it was almost dawn when I ran out of energy and felt asleep on my bed. Woke up few hours later feeling hurt and dizzy from all what has transpired yesterday afternoon, trying to shake off the pity I was feeling for myself, got up to get dressed and posting my house keys into the letter box I left, never turning back.

I was driving for few days, stopping to only eat and have a quick nap here and there, not knowing where exactly I was heading. So I decided that I would know when I would reach that place.

"Iverdale" I read crossing the sign of a picturesque little town nested down in the valley between mountains and rivers. I felt warmth and calmness when I reached the town, it was perfectly untouched by the big city corporations and surrounded by beautiful nature and forests. Maybe this is where I could start over, well at least for a time being and see what the future brings.

Driving through town I managed to find the only motel in here and I went in to book a room, I couldn't wait to finally sleep in a normal bed again. The advert has caught my eye while I was walking pass reception window and I took a number, maybe it's not what I'm exactly used to do, but it's a start. I called the number right after I brought my bags from the car and a sweet voice answered the phone.

"Dalton ranch, how may I help you?"

"Hi there, I have found your advert for a business administrator vacancy, is it still available?"

"Well, yes it is. Do you have any qualifications to help with the position?"

"Yes, I do. I actually have been working as an apprentice in business management for the past couple of years while also studying business management. This is my final year and I will be getting my diploma."

"That's quite impressive. Tell you what, I can make some time for tomorrow morning, for your interview if you are available?"

"Absolutely. What time would you like me there?"

"Is 9 am good for you?"

"Perfect."

"Great, then bring your cv and passport with you and we can talk in more detail tomorrow morning. I will send you our address to your mobile and will be looking forward to meet you."

"Thank you very much, I shall see you tomorrow."

A sigh of relief left my throat and I fell backwards onto the bed, feeling happy and looking forward for tomorrow. My new life would begin tomorrow and I couldn't wait!