Chapter 5

Dakina’s POV

Our world rotates around the sun time and time again, but right now my world has stopped rotating- everything halts. What did I just hear? It feels like I have just heard my own death sentence

“Knotted. Pups. Most probably already with my pups…”

I stare at him- this man I know nothing about. My mouth opens and closes instinctively like I am some helpless fish gasping for air. The room feels like it's shrinking around me- smaller and smaller and everything is suffocating. My hands shakes, moving on their as they find their way to my stomach and there they press it

"What do you mean?" I whisper, praying to the moon goddess that I did not hear him well. Maybe daddy was right, maybe my hallucinations have started again. “What do you mean?” I ask again, my voice cracking on every word. He has refused to answer me

He watches me with those dark brown eyes, as if he is enjoying feeding off my mystery . Finally he decides to speak, "You were in heat, Danika. Your body was calling for a mate. I answered that call. Who would you rather knot you if not me?”

I feel my body go limo. Maybe death is better than what I feel right now. My teeth are chattering, I feel like I have just been dunked in an ocean full of ice bergs. My hands rushes all over my body, checking for signs, anything to tell me what happened. My inner thighs feel tender. There's a soreness between my legs that wasn't there before. My breasts feel swollen. I catch my reflection on the mirror nearby and I see that I have a damn hickey!

No. No, no, no.

"I cannot recall…” I whisper, my voice low and barely audible. "I don't remember anything. How do you even know my name?”

"You told me your name last night,” he says simply with a smile, pretending to be a gentleman. “As for your memory, heat can do that- especially when it's as intense as yours was. You were burning up, begging me to help you,” he smirks. “I did what I could, you are welcome,” his eyes hovers over me hungrily, as if he is remembered the ordeal of last night

I stagger not knowing when my back hit the wall in the way. The concrete reaches for my back as if assuring me that this is my new reality- I have lost my virginity to a man I do not know. This… this is a nightmare! I've lost everything in a single night!

Almost nineteen years I've kept myself pure, waiting for my true mate. All these years of fighting off advances from males who wanted the Alpha's daughter. All these years of believing that someday, somehow, I would find the one person the Moon Goddess chose for me. I even had to break things off with my needy boyfriend who I had crushed on since childhood- just so I can keep myself pure

Now it is all gone. How can my whole existence vanish just in one night that I barely remember the details of

"You're lying," I whisper, daring to believe in the lie I tell myself at this moment. The evidence is written all over my body. If anything, the unfamiliar scent clinging to my skin, the way my almost nonexistent wolf feels... different.

"I'm not in the habit of lying, little wolf,” he grins victorious

Something inside me snaps.

"You fucking bastard" I scream, throwing myself at him in a daze with every ounce of strength I have. "You knotted me without my consent! You took advantage of me! Who do you think you are!?”

Before I can even touch him, he just makes a small move without so much effort. He catches my wrists when I want to punch him, he raises them up and pins me to the closest wall, his strength making me feel like a mete child fighting against the wind. But the fight in me doesn’t die. I scream and struggle like a wild animal. I hate myself

"I was not aware of what you were doing! I was helpless!" I cannot help but cry since I cannot fight him off. "How could you? How could you do that to me?"

“You asked me to help you and I did,” he says

I break free from his grip for just a moment, and my hands fly to my stomach. If he is saying the truth, if the preposition is right that I am already carrying his pup, then I'll end this before this stupid journey begins.

"Die!" I scream, balling my fists and hitting my abdomen hard. "Die! DIE!"

I feel the pain that I cause myself, I can't stop. I won't bring a bastard pup into this world. I won't be tied to this stranger for the rest of my life.

"Get out of me!" I sob, hitting myself harder. "I don't want you! Get out of me!"

He quickly grabs me, stopping me from hurting myself and pulling my arms above my head like before and pinning me against the wall. His face is so close to me. I can see all his features clearly now. I try to read them, but they are unreadable- Idon’t know what his intentions are

"Stop," he growls, his tone more serious now. "You'll hurt yourself."

"I want to!" I scream, struggling against his iron grip. "I want to hurt myself! I want to die! Do you know what you've done to me? Do you have any idea what you've taken from me? I was a virgin!"

"I saved your life."

"You have ruined my lfe!" I scream louder "You destroyed everything! You destroyed me!”

His jaw tightens as if he is beginning to have enough of this drama. "If I hadn't knotted you, every unmated male in this pack would have smelled your heat and come running. You would have been torn apart by a dozen wolves fighting over you. Is that what you wanted? A hard core gang bang?"

"YES!" I shriek, the word escaping from my throat. "Yes, I would rather be knotted by every male in this pack than by you! At least I would have been dead by now!”

I gather the saliva in my mouth and spit a huge slimy blob directly in his face, “I hate you!” I yell. “If my father was still here…”

Before I can finish my sentence., Chunks of stone rain down from behind me as his hand collides forcefully with the wall

"SHUT UP!" he roars, his voice making me cower under him "You ungrateful little… bitch! Do you have any idea what I risked to save you? If I hadn't intervened, you would be dead right now! DEAD!"

But even though his strength scares me, I am beyond caring about his anger, beyond caring about anything except the pain I feel in my heart

"Then you should have let me die!" I say in a small voice , my voice hoarse from both crying and the residue of fear I feel after his great punch on the wall. "You should have let them kill me! It would have been better than this! I can think of a million bad things that would be better than this!"

"Keep testing my patience, little bitch wolf. Because if you don't start showing some gratitude, I might just deliver you back to your dear brother Lucan. I'm sure he's missing you terribly."

"Do it then!" I say again, my voice breaking. "Take me back to him!I have nothing left to lose! Nothing! I don’t care what he does to me!"

"You think death is preferable to carrying my pup?"

"Yes," I whisper back, meaning every word. "Kill me. Please. Just end this misery."

Then, suddenly comes a sharp knock at the door.

"Alpha King?" a voice calls from the other side of the door. "Alpha King Alfonso? I heard raised voices. Are you alright, Your Majesty?"

My blood turns to ice in my veins. That voice. I know that voice.

It's one of Lucan's trusted guards. One of the men who dragged me to the breeding room like he enjoyed watching me suffer

He's here. In this building. Looking for me?