Lena. The last place I ever thought I’d see again was Luca’s house.But here I am, standing in his doorway, feeling like an echo of someone who no longer exists. He opens the door with the kind of caution reserved for ghosts and enemies, and I can’t blame him.I wouldn’t trust me either. Not after everything I had done. “Luca,” I say softly, not daring to step inside until he says so.He doesn’t move, but he doesn’t close the door either.His jaw is tense. He’s wearing the same cologne he always did warm cedar and spice and it hits me like a punch. Every part of him is familiar and unreachable all at once.“You shouldn’t be here,” he says finally.“I know.”“Then why are you?”“Because I owe you the truth. All of it. No more lies. I think you deserve that and I just need you to hear me out.”He studies me for a moment, eyes narrowing like he’s trying to read between the lines of my face. Then, he opens the door a little wider and steps back.I walk in slowly. Each step heavier than
Lena. I used to love the smell of cinnamon.Mom would boil water with clove and cinnamon sticks when we couldn’t afford candles or electricity. She said it made the house smell like love. Like holidays. Like things we could never really have.It’s funny, the things that stay with you from the past. Even now, sitting in this bus station with nothing but a duffel bag and silence, I swear I can smell it again.Faint. Fading. Like a ghost of the girl I used to be.My name is Lena. Or at least, it used to be.And before I was Lila, before I stole someone else’s breath and smile and signature I was just a girl watching the world forget her.I didn't steal just anyone's name, I stole my best friend's life. She was the only person in the entire world that had ever accepted me for who I was and never judged me. And in return I had messed everything up for her. I wasn't always like this, selfish and a liar. Life has a way of messing you up sometimes that you have no option left. I don’t re
Lila Morgan. (The real Lila.)When I agreed to this meet up I was going through a Rollercoaster of emotions after finding out we were practically siblings with the man I had, had a huge crush on for almost half my life and meeting with my biological dad and also finding out my parents had been keeping the most important news from me. But now I wasn't so sure I was ready to do it, meet the woman behind all this chaos. The moment I step into the café, I feel her eyes on me.She’s sitting near the back, tucked in a corner booth like she always used to half hidden, observing, calculating. There’s a calmness to her posture, like she’s been expecting this moment for years. Like she’s had her apology her excuses rehearsed for so long they feel real to her now.But I’m not here for her version of the truth.I’m here for mine.I walk slowly toward her. My heartbeat pounds in my ears, but my steps are steady. She’s thinner than I remember, her face more angular, more sculpted. Her hair is sty
Lila Morgan. (The real Lila.) The guest room is quiet, but sleep doesn’t come.It does not feel homely at all, I guess which is why it was a guest room. People are not supposed to feel at home. I stare at the ceiling, replaying the day in my head the graveyard, the lilies, Luca’s voice when he said I was enough. I hadn’t expected him to look at me with anything other than pity or distance, but instead there was… something else. Not quite warmth. But real. Unfiltered. And it got me wondering what it was? I had a crush on him my entire childhood and teenage years, but we were both from different sides of the coin. He never looked my way, I was not his type back then, but maybe I was now. I thought to myself smiling. Maybe all this, after everything that had happened something good could come out of it. The floor creaks outside my room. Footsteps. Then a soft knock.I sit up, heart tapping gently in my chest. “Yeah?”Luca opens the door just enough to peer inside. His hair is messy,
Lila Morgan (The Real Lila) The town looks smaller than I remember.Maybe it’s because I’ve been gone too long. Maybe because the shadows of the past don’t seem as big when you’re standing in them again. Or maybe because this time, I’m not running anymore.The taxi slows in front of the cemetery gate, tires crunching on gravel. I thank the driver, step out, and pull my coat tighter. The spring air is cool, not quite warm enough to forget winter, not cold enough to numb the ache in my chest.A part of me does not want to get out of the car, somewhat me stepping on that cemetery ground will simplify that my mother is really gone, and for a few seconds I want to keep on pretending like this is just a bad dream that I will eventually wake up from. Except it's really not, and my mother is really dead. She has been dead for almost eight months now. The last time I was here was exactly five years ago, right before she sent me off to college. We talked everyday, I wanted to visit but we re
Lila I had expected him to come back after he walked out on me, but he did not. I stayed up almost all night, tossing and turning, checking 8f his car had pulled up in the parking lot, he was nowhere to be seen. I finally fell asleep at three in the morning, and even then I still forced myself to sleep. How could I comfortably sleep with everything going on. I didn't even know how much of the truth he knew. I wake before dawn, my eyes gritty, my limbs heavy. The guest room is too neat, too silent, and far too cold. It’s not like the room I used to wake up in our room, the one where I’d wake to Luca’s sleepy mumble and the brush of his fingertips against my back.But I don’t have the luxury of mourning what’s gone.I have a plan.I pull myself out of bed, ignoring the stiffness in my muscles and the sting of the scrapes on my arms. The bruises haven’t faded, but I don’t care. Not today. Today, I’m going to remind him. I was going to remind him about us, about me, the woman he fell i