ログインHe straightened, his patience visibly thinning, his eyes tracing my face.
“Follow me,” he ordered, and there was no mistaking the authority behind it. He turned and walked briskly toward a private hall—arched stone, heavy doors that whispered with history.
I followed because I had no other choice, because my pride was little and my purpose was larger, because if I wanted to stand on the same ground as him and not fall to my knees in a puddle of useless revenge, I needed to learn how the world bent.
When the doors shut behind us he stopped and turned, face blank as a slate. He cocked his head with the faintest hint of irritation. “Do you have a hearing problem wolfling?” he asked, straight-faced, and before I could answer he muttered to himself, “If you were deaf, you probably wouldn’t even hear me anyway.”
I heard that, of course I could not miss it. I could hear every thin, cutting thing he said and save them away like teeth. I let my gaze form a sterner look that looked like death itself.
He studied me with a look that was almost amused, and then more sharp curiosity. “Have we met before?” he asked. “You’re staring at me like we have a problem and you are one second away from pulling my guts out.”
Perhaps I am you dim witted murderer.My chest burned with the promise of it, one day pulling his guts out and sticking the dagger in his chest, the same one I had pulled out of Rivan and kept all these years.
He blinked, and for the first time his eyes lingered on me like he was cataloguing evidence. A deathly smirk curled my lips, and his expression shifted, he knew I could hear him.
“If you can hear me, then is the problem speaking? Can you not speak” he pressed, his tone sharp, eyes searching mine.
I stayed silent, watching him fume in frustration and before he could sharpen whatever retort he had been composing, a dark-haired man around the same age as him, with amber eyes pushed through the hall, just as smug as Aklan was and grinned at us like we had been in on a private joke.
“Your pants are ripped,” the boy said loudly, brow arched in faux concern.
I felt heat flood my face. “What?”
The boy smirked at Aklan. “There you go, she speaks Aklan. How could you not know that? She was toying with you.”
Aklan narrowed his eyes at me, the look like a steel trap snapping closed. He peered down at my uniform with a brief, dismissive glance, then back up, voice flat and lethal. “Combat and war strategy. That means you’re my headache.”
I could feel the press of dozens of pairs of eyes outside the hall, waiting to see what the Captain would do with the insolent new wolf. He didn’t smile. He did not offer the patronizing mercy so many did when confronted with a trembling recruit. Instead, he folded his hands and gave me the kind of sentence that would have my father up at night.
“You’ll be at the training ground by nine tonight,” he said. “Before curfew. You will be serving your punishment. You’re late? You’re dead.”
Punishment.
For what? For daring to breathe in a space he occupied? For surviving? For daring to hate?
He turned on his heel and walked away as if the exchange had been routine. The amber-eyed boy trailed behind muttering something about me being odd, and the sound made my skin prickle.
My nails dug into the palm of my hand until I tasted metal. I wanted to reach for him, I wanted to grab his throat with both hands, to drag his eyes to mine and make him see the shape of the grief he had created. I wanted to tear the captain’s crest from his chest and watch it fall in pieces at my feet.
But I didn’t, I couldn’t. I stood there with my fists clenched, lungs burning, while the rage roared inside me like a caged wolf. I was not strong enough, not yet. It was the truth and it was a bitter stone in my mouth.
I swallowed that truth down and let it sit heavy in my chest. For now, there were rules, there was training. For now, the blade of my patience had to be sharpened by hours and iron until I could wield it. Until then, I would learn, I would wait, I would grow until the day I no longer had to imagine ending him and I could do it for real.
The assignment echoed in my ears as the hall emptied and normality reasserted itself. Nine tonight, I would serve punishment, the word tasted like nails on glass.
I breathed in. I mapped the curve of the training ground in my head—the barricades, the dummies, the course that would become the gauge of my worth. I would be there, I would get better. Every punishment was only making me better, making me his equal. Closer and closer till I could fulfill my promise.
I carried her the entire way back to Norsen, her weight light in my arms and unbearably heavy in my chest. She barely stirred, her head tucked beneath my chin, her breath shallow and uneven against my throat.The forest gave way to stone paths and torchlight, but none of it registered properly. All I could focus on was how wrong it felt, like I was holding something already slipping away.Her skin was ice-cold, seeping through my shirt like frostbite, her shivers vibrating through me like aftershocks from an earthquake. I held her tighter, my steps careful but urgent, the moon filtering through the canopy in silver shards that lit her pale face.She looked so fragile, so breakable, and the thought that I might have been too late, that Valora’s jealousy had pushed her to this, twisted in my gut like a poisoned blade.Sius whined endlessly in my head, a constant loop of our mate getting hurt, of tearing the person who hurt our mate apart. I didn’t have the energy to shut him up but for
Fear slammed into my chest so violently I staggered, one hand shooting out to brace against the stone wall beside me. It wasn’t my fear. It was hers—raw and overwhelming, a terror so sharp it stole my breath. Beneath it was panic, confusion, a desperate plea that had no words but echoed all the same.My heart shattered.She felt unprotected.Exposed.Because of Valora. Because of me.Guilt twisted the knife deeper. I’d failed her. Just like Rivan. The bond that was supposed to protect her had only brought her pain—and now she was out there, breaking, because I hadn’t been there to stop it.The pain of that realization was almost unbearable. I gritted my teeth, forcing myself to stay upright as I honed in on the thread connecting us, letting it guide me the way instinct guided a hunter. My feet moved before my mind could catch up, carrying me through the western gates and into the forest beyond, deeper than students were ever meant to go.The forest swallowed me whole—trees thick as to
I’d searched every gods-damned corner of Norsen, and she was nowhere.The training fields—empty, the mats still rolled from afternoon drills.The library—rows of silent shelves, dust motes dancing in the dying light, no sign of her curled in her favorite alcove.The gardens, the hidden rooftops where I’d seen her sneak off to think.Nothing.I had searched until my legs ached and my lungs burned. Every corner of the academy grounds mocked me with its emptiness.Courtyards I had passed a hundred times, lecture halls now dark and abandoned, dormitory wings where students laughed behind closed doors while the girl I was supposed to be bound to had vanished like she had never existed at all.The sky had already begun to dim by the time panic truly sank its claws into me. I stood at the edge of the eastern practice fields, hands braced on my knees, breathing hard as though I had been running from something rather than toward it.My chest felt tight, too tight, like my ribs were closing in
I was halfway through explaining a flanking maneuver to Dava when everything in my vision narrowed to two approaching figures.The courtyard had been loud a second ago, steel clashing in the training rings, students shouting over one another, Kiyan barking orders and the son of the Narthan minister of foreign affairs, Dava teaching the new drills he had learnt from his time down south during his time there as an exchange student and spy. Kiyan, Dava, and I stood in the shade of the old oak near the training fields, maps spread across a stone bench, debating flanking maneuvers for the upcoming inter-realm exhibition. Dava was sketching formations in the dirt with a stick, Kiyan arguing about supply lines, and I was nodding along like my mind wasn’t a warzone.But the moment I saw them, the noise dulled, like the world had decided to step back and let something important happen.Two girls were walking toward us.One of them looked terrified, her shoulders tight, hands fisted at her sid
I ran until my lungs burned and my legs shook, until the hallways blurred into a maze of stone and shadow.I didn’t know where I was going, I just needed distance from the lecture hall, from the commander’s shocked face, from the snickers that had followed me out the door.My pulse thrashed in my ears, drowning out everything but the compulsion to get away from the memory of a sharp-mouthed asshole with silver-grey eyes who had absolutely no business affecting me the way he did.My boots skidded slightly against the polished floor as I made a sharp turn, ignoring the sting of the cool air on my cheeks. I didn’t stop until I reached the right wing—too far, too quiet, and rumored to be cursed enough that most students avoided it unless they needed a place to nap or cry or hide. Or, apparently, have a complete breakdown.The right-wing bathrooms were infamous: two years ago someone had been maimed in here, a brutal attack no one could ever fully explain.The lights were dim, the mirrors
If there was a prize for pretending to pay attention, I’d have won it by now—gold medal, trophy, plaque, maybe even my name engraved on Norsen’s wall of fame. But the universe—or rather, the moon goddess—had other plans, because absolutely nothing the commander was saying about war brokering and territorial accords was sticking to my brain.Not one word.Not even a letter.I was supposed to be learning how to broker peace between warring realms.Instead I was learning how many seconds I could survive before my body betrayed me again.The lecture hall was packed, rows of students hunched over notebooks, the commander at the front droning on about territorial treaties and blood-oath clauses.His voice was a dull hum, like bees trapped behind glass.All I could focus on was the persistent, traitorous buzz happening between my legs, the kind that made my thighs twitch under the desk. I shifted for the eighth time in ten minutes, silently praying my chair wasn’t noticing how much I hated







