CHAPTER FIVE: TOO CLOSE FOR COMFORT

ELLE’S POV

I woke up feeling like crap, i had cried last night before falling asleep but waking up now i felt sick much more sick, but i guess life goes on , i remember last night Jack calling me later at night, i guess he had gone and dropped off his girlfriend or she slept there?, then maybe he then remembered that oh i have not yet thanked the person who threw me this wonderful party.

When he called i never answered and i just went to sleep i also decided i will try my best to deal with my heart carefully then move on going forward, i don't think he was going to be my usual close best friend now that a girlfriend is in the picture again because girls will always get jealous whenever he has someone it’s understandable i guess.

I honestly don't know how this is going to work. How come i did not know he was talking to this girl for this long of a time. He just sprung this new girl on me.

It hurt me so much but i now have to think of moving on as well , very soon i will start working a very serious job then i will get my own place and i will look forward to life, i have my family i also have Claire it will be just fine.

With something to look forward to i get ready. I put on my little summer dress and some boots and get downstairs to eat so that i can go check out the place i am moving in.

When i got to the dining table everybody was just looking at me funny and so i knew that the only thing could be about me leaving Jack’s party and the lack of excitement changing from yesterday’s happy mood to todays sad mood that i was in, but how does my family know me so well? How embarrassing is this.

So we eat and my Mom talks to me about how i am feeling this morning and she starts to give me advice and some sweet words, which is funny cause how did i think my mom would not know how i feel about Jack with the way i act about him, she is a literal psychologist she can read me so well.

Of course she knew i liked Jack all this time, she tells me about how my time to be happy will come and i have so much to do with my life and to stop being sad. Its also funny how people are us are knowing this but the guy himself doesn't know how i feel,i do not understand.

And speaking of the devil as i get out of the house to get into my car I see Jack's car coming into our drive way so i walk as fast as i can to get to my car and leave before he sees me but luck is not on my side as always, because i am almost to the drivers side when Jack reaches me.

"Elle Wait!, i know you are ignoring me but we need to talk" he says in his deep voice as he walks to me.

He has already caught up with me so i stop and i lean on my car waiting while looking at him waiting for him to continue.

He sees that am not going to speak back so he just continues.

"I wanted to tell you before everybody else but i did not know how your reaction was going to be or how you were going to feel about her cause it happened so soon thats why i told you with everybody to make it easier , i could see you were disappointed that i did not tell you beforehand".

Well i it sound like a lie but i was not just disappointed my heart was broken too, but go on i say in my heard sarcastically.

“Am sorry”, He says and pulls me from where i was leaning on the car and wraps his arms around me,pulling me to him.

“You left so early, i wanted to thank you for the birthday party, you are always the best".

I breathe in his scent and i feel at peace forgetting all my problems for a sec and until he pulls away to look at me.

"Are you fine?," he then looks me in the eye and asks that dumb question.

of course am not fine you idiot, i love you and i have always loved you but because you are oblivious you went ahead and got yourself another woman, i have been right here. I say in my head.

I look him in his beautiful grey eyes and i almost feel like crying again, love is painful. but i hold it in and i just nod my head to him then i turn around to get in my car but he grabs my fricking waist! And turns me around to him once again,he is standing so close why does he always do this to me, it gives me butterflies.

"why are you lying to me," He whispers to me so closely and it makes me feel some type of way, it feels so good does he realize we are standing too close to each other and that his arm is still around my waist and that if his new girlfriend were to see us right now it would be a big issue to her maybe.

This is what he always does to me and then just continues to live his life while i get left feeling the after effects. I need to start thinking from now on, or i will keep getting my heart broken.

"Jack, Your arms", i whisper back, He realises what am saying and take his arm from around me while taking a step back from me and i get the chance to get it my car without saying anything again to him and i drive the hell off.

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