CHAPTER SIX: TENSION

ELLE’S POV

After Spending the whole day getting the papers for my place ready and then going shopping for stuff i will need for the house i felt like i was ready to move in anytime and i could not wait. It also kept me busy from thinking about Jack too much. It was very disappointing, i kept it moving.

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TWO MONTHS LATER

I moved into my own place with my best friend Claire!! I had thought about it and with Claire also looking for her own space we decided why don't we live together for some time, it was a beautiful house with two bedrooms so why not and it would be the best experience to live with my best friend while we figure our lives together, so we had moved in, it looks so beautiful.

Jack and Luca had surprisingly come for our housewarming party and Luca was always around anyway with him and Claire now being together but i loved it for them so much. Imagine if they end up married to each other one day and now my best friend will become a real sister to me, it brought happy tears to my eyes, i hope my brother doesn’t mess it up.

But now when Luca comes i always know that jack is around the corner and instead of me having to heal my heart in peace and not deal with seeing him he is always in my face unexpectedly.

I decided to not talk to him much anymore when he is around and i try my best to ignore him but he always finds a way to talk to me but things are different now i cant believe once upon two months ago we were always together now i rarely see him because i am running away from him or he is with his girl probably.

I still miss him everyday, but If he is not working, he is out of town and when he is around he is with Elena or Luca and so i just remove myself from the situation to save myself.

I missed him so much during the last months, with me now also Working i tend to be busy. is this what people mean when they say people grow up then grow apart? We are all busy with our lives now. He always texts me asking how i am doing but its not the same with spending time together and asking that in person.

During the first month he started to bring Elena to our church which both families frequently go, which is a good thing and she genuinely looks like a good person and boy do they look so good together and the pain in my heart instead of decreasing it keeps increasing as time goes.

Before her i used to sit next to him and Luca in church now there is Elena replacing me and that makes me feel forgotten.

Sometimes when we are all at a gathering together me and Jack find ourselves looking at each other , it has become tense to the point i don't want to look at him anymore it hurts and also embarrassing for me, but he doesn’t know that and he is probably so confused.

Just like right now we all gathered at my parents house for the evening and Jack is here with the gorgeous looking Elena by his side, Claire and Luca are also together looking cozy, everybody seems to have someone by their side , i look at my parents they are sitting on their favorite couch side to side speaking to each other they are so beautifully in love as ever, Sam has a friend over as well.

As i look at all these people i don't feel jealous but i just feel so alone and a Sadness and loneliness like no other washes over my whole body i get up and excuse my self and i go to Sam's room to breath alone for a bit.

I lie on her bed and i think about how two months ago i was so happy about life and now i am scared about my future, what if both my best friends get married and move on with their lives i will be all alone. Watching Jack be happy with someone else, how do i move on from this? I don't know how to start to move past the guy my heart beat for.

I need to find myself,my own person i cant be alone and keep hurting while i watch my friends be happy in life. I look out the window from where am lying down and i realize its dark i guess its time to go home, i can be miserable over there.

As i sit up i hear a knock on the door well its Sam's room but i allow them in anyway and guess who strides in Looking hot,? Jack. Who is he lookin for?.

He walks in and closes the door behind him which is a bad thing we cant be alone in this room right now it seems tense with us these days.

"I was looking for you", Jack says to me.

" Why"? I say standing up from the bed it's intimidating that he is standing over me while am sitting, it does not make much of a difference with me standing as well though because even if i stand he is still very much a tall man i can only reach his shoulders.

" You keep running away from me, why,? "Elena doesn't have to change anything between us, am your best friend right?" he says.

"well she does", i say "i have to go home now its late".

I try to walk past him but he doesn't let me open the door because he grabs my arm and pushes me against the door, which is my only escape from him unless i choose to jump from the window on the second floor to my death.

It feels so hot in the room all of a sudden and my heart is beating out of my chest it feels so forbidden.

"i miss you Elle, i miss us", he mumbles to me which causes goosebumps to break all over my skin because i miss him but he doesn’t need to know .

"Jack stop lying", i whisper to him not even knowing what am talking about or if he is feeling what he is doing to me with the way he grabbed me.

He looks at me and i look at him, and it feels so wrong but all i wanted in the moment was for him to Kiss me so bad i could die.

I licks my lips automatically and i see Jack look at them.

And i can see his eyes and brain work probably now realising how wrong we are standing and how am looking at him, he always does this to me.

" Elle", he breathes out my name, while he keeps looking at me and probably seeing my flushed face ,he unknowingly keeps coming close to me i don’t think he realises what he is doing anymore and that he is almost close enough to my face he could have his lips on me.

but then thank god we hear a knock on the door and i move away from him from the side.

I cant find my voice but i have to answer or they will burge in and we have to explain our situation. We live in a Christian home.

" yes,Who is it"? I ask whoever had knocked.

"Its Elena, have you seen Jack"? She asks and the guilt i feel is so heavy i look at Jack who is standing next to me with his hands in his pockets as if nothing almost happened in here.

" No!" i lie to her but am already guilty enough for other sins it just makes me feel so bad.

"okay,thanks" she says and i hear her footsteps go away.

I turn to Jack "you have to go,” like why did i even lie to her.

I turn to him and he just keeps looking at me instead of leaving and he takes a step towards me, Does he not feel mad right now? I lied to His girlfriend who was just outside the door.

As much as i love him he is not going to use me and compel me to be a bad person.

I think its the atmosphere in this dark room making him lose his head so i have to be the bigger person and leave why is he making my life difficult,

Its me who is in love with him and when am trying to move away from him this mess happens Cause am sure another minute and if Elena hadn’t knocked we almost kissed in there or maybe it was just me urgh

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