LOGINWoke up feeling like I’d been dragged through fire. My entire body ached in places I didn’t want to name, my lips were sore, and my wrist... God... my wrist was still glowing faintly in the morning light.
For a long moment, I lay there, staring at it, daring the silver shimmer to fade. But it didn’t. It pulsed in rhythm with my heartbeat, alive, taunting me with the memory of last night. For a second, I tried to tell myself it wasn’t real. That I had dreamt it up, maybe from exhaustion, maybe from the stress of juggling too many responsibilities. People didn’t just wake up with glowing tattoos from mysterious, rude gods who kissed like sin. Right? Except my body betrayed me. The soreness, the heat lingering under my skin, the ghost of his touch, all of it screamed reality. Every shift of my legs reminded me I hadn’t imagined Damian, or the way he had pinned me like he owned me. The way he whispered the thoughts I was too afraid to say out loud. Damian. Even thinking his name made my chest clench. He wasn’t supposed to save me. He wasn’t supposed to want me. And yet, last night… I pressed my face into the pillow and groaned. I hated how much I remembered. The sound of his voice when it dropped low, the press of his lips against my throat, the way his eyes devoured me even as his words cut me down. He had warned me I’d die faster because of him, and yet some traitorous part of me was already wondering when he’d come back. Pathetic. That’s what I was. Completely pathetic. Of course, that’s when my phone started blaring. I didn’t need to check the caller ID. I knew. Only one person had the impeccable timing to call me when I was trying to convince myself not to cry. Mom. I hesitated, staring at the screen, but ignoring her would only make things worse. So I swiped to answer. “Hey, Mom.” “Well, look who finally picked up,” she said, her voice sharp enough to cut. In the background I could hear the familiar soundtrack of her house: dishes clattering, kids shouting, a TV blasting a cartoon theme song. “I’ve been calling since seven. Do you even bother checking your phone?” I closed my eyes, rubbing at my temple. “Good morning to you too.” “Don’t get smart with me, Nanya. I’m up before sunrise trying to get your siblings out the door and you sound like you just rolled over in bed. Your brother is throwing a fit because he can’t find his sneakers, your sister dumped orange juice all over the table, and I’m two seconds away from losing my mind. But sure, sleep in.” I rolled onto my back, staring at the ceiling. Same chaos, different day. “I wasn’t sleeping,” I muttered. “Then what were you doing? Because it wasn’t helping, that’s for sure. Do you realize I had to cover the grocery bill last night? Again? You promised me you’d send money. Do you know how humiliating it is to stand in line and realize your daughter flaked? Again?” Her words stabbed in time with the throbbing pulse in my wrist. If only she knew. If only she knew I had bigger problems than groceries, like the fact that I had apparently become a god’s mistake. But how could I explain that? “Sorry, Mom. I’ll send it today.” “You said that last week,” she snapped. “Do you want me to keep a list? Because I can.” My throat tightened. The sound of her voice faded into the background as Damian’s voice overlapped in my mind: The more you want me, the faster you die. And I hated how my stomach twisted at the memory of his lips on my skin when he said it. Mom’s voice yanked me back. “Honestly, Nanya, sometimes I wonder what’s going to become of you. You can’t keep avoiding responsibility. You’re not a kid anymore.” I sat up, clutching the blanket to my chest. “I know, Mom. I said I’ll handle it.” She let out a sharp sigh. “You always say that. Look, I don’t have time to argue. I need to get the kids to school and somehow make it to work without losing my mind. Just… try not to screw up today, okay?” “I’ll try,” I whispered. “Good. Because I can’t carry everyone by myself. You need to get serious about your life.” Her words hit harder than I wanted to admit. As if I wasn’t already painfully aware that my life was a mess. As if I wasn’t already struggling to keep my head above water. “Mom, I have to go,” I cut in quickly, my voice cracking more than I wanted. “I’m already running late for work.” A pause. Then another sigh, softer this time. “Fine. Go. Call me later.” And just like that, she hung up. I dropped the phone onto the bed and laughed bitterly, though my chest felt tight. This was my reality. A family that always needed more from me. A boss probably waiting to chew me out for being late again. A life I was barely holding together with duct tape. And now, layered over all that chaos, was Damian. The mark on my wrist pulsed again, hot and insistent, like it knew I was thinking about him. My fingers hovered over it, trembling. I hated him. I wanted him. I wanted to forget last night, but every nerve in my body remembered. His mouth, his hands, his control. The way I gave in when I should have fought harder. “God, what am I even doing?” I whispered into the silence. I dragged myself out of bed, stumbling toward the bathroom. My reflection in the mirror didn’t look like me. My hair was a tangled mess, my eyes ringed with shadows, my lips still swollen. And that mark — glowing faintly like a secret tattoo I couldn’t erase — mocked me from my wrist. I touched it gently, almost reverently. The heat curled low in my stomach, unwelcome but impossible to deny. No matter how much I wanted to pretend otherwise, last night was real. Damian was real. And he wasn’t done with me. Not by a long shot. I touched the glowing mark gently, almost reverently. Heat curled low in my stomach, unwelcome but impossible to deny. No matter how much I wanted to pretend otherwise, last night was real. Damian was real. And he wasn’t done with me. Not by a long shot. I dropped my hand, forcing myself to breathe. To focus. To remember I still had a job, a life, a million responsibilities waiting to crush me. But then... The air shifted. Soft, subtle, like a shadow brushing against my skin. The hairs on the back of my neck stood straight, my breath catching in my throat. The bathroom suddenly felt too small, too heavy, like someone else was in there with me. My heart thundered. “Damian…” I whispered, barely a sound. No answer. Only silence. "Damian..." I called again this time, looking aroundI walked into the store, the smell of roasted coffee beans and pastries hitting me like a memory I didn’t want. I should’ve felt comforted, but today, it only reminded me of the calm I no longer deserved or maybe never did. Claire appeared almost instantly, her usual bright energy a jarring contrast to the storm in me. “You know that handsome dude?” she asked, grin wide, eyes sparkling with mischief. I clenched my jaw. “Please, Claire, I just want to be left alone.” “Nice try, baby. But you know I go nowhere,” she replied, hands on her hips, like a general observing a battlefield she knew better than I did. I groaned. “A customer might be in there for you to attend to.” “For me to attend to? Nanya, I’m the manager, remember? The earlier you start speaking, the better for both of us,” she said, voice teasing but firm, like she could see every thought spinning in my head. I had nothing left to argue with. My voice felt hollow, stolen long ago by nights of heartbreak and bitter re
When I walked into the café that morning, I didn’t know how I was supposed to feel. Not relieved. Not excited. Not guilty. Just… suspended. Because how do you cope with suddenly being new money? Not the flashy, "champagne on a Tuesday" kind. Not the kind that changes your clothes or your accent overnight. But the quiet kind. The kind that sits in the back of your mind and reminds you softly, persistently that survival is no longer your only option. The kind that tells you you don’t have to stand here anymore. But I still showed up for work. I had to. I did. The bell above the door chimed as I stepped inside, and the familiar scent of coffee wrapped around me like a habit I hadn’t learned how to break. Everything looked the same, the counter with its chipped edges, the stools that wobbled if you leaned too hard, the scuffed tiles I could navigate with my eyes closed. And yet, something inside me felt different. Calmer. Not happy. Not free. Just… steady. Like the constant
Just then, I saw him.He stood across the street, half in shadow, half under the streetlight—like the world itself hadn’t decided whether he belonged to it or not. Damian always did that. Appeared quietly. Never announced himself. Never rushed. As if he knew exactly when I was about to break and stepped in before the cracks went all the way through.I didn’t think.I didn’t check if he was real.I just ran.The pavement blurred beneath my feet as I crossed the street, my chest tight, lungs burning. I slammed straight into him, my arms wrapping around his torso like muscle memory had taken over where my mind failed.He caught me instantly.No stumble. No surprise. Just solid, warm arms closing around me, one hand firm at my back, the other pressing my head against his chest like he was shielding me from something unseen.I breathed him in.Storm. Heat. Something metallic and clean beneath it all.I hadn’t realized how badly I was shaking until his hand slid up and down my back, slow an
She didn’t wait for my answer. She turned and started walking toward her car like the conversation was already settled. The implication was clear: get in, or we’re doing this right here. I followed, mostly because arguing with her in public had never ended well for me. The car smelled like peppermint and old receipts. Familiar. Claustrophobic. She got in, slammed the door, then sat there for a moment without starting the engine. Silence. Not the comfortable kind. The tactical kind. I stared out the window. “You know, most parents ask how their kid’s doing before interrogating them like a suspect.” She started the car. “Most kids don’t look like they’re dissociating in plain daylight.” I scoffed. “Wow. Straight to the psych terms.” “I didn’t raise you to be stupid,” she said, pulling into traffic. “And I didn’t raise you to lie badly.” My jaw tightened. “I’m not lying.” “No,” she agreed coolly. “You’re editing.” That hit harder than it should have. We drove for
I swear I smelled something like lightning. The thought followed me all morning. Not as panic. Not even as fear. Just… persistence. Like a word stuck on the tip of my tongue. Like a memory that refused to take shape. I worked. I smiled when customers smiled. I apologized when they frowned. My hands moved the way they always had, familiar with heat and steam and porcelain. From the outside, nothing about me had changed. That might’ve been the worst part. Because inside, something felt misaligned. As if my thoughts were arriving half a second too late. As if I was watching myself from a seat slightly behind my own eyes. At one point, I caught my reflection in the metal side of the espresso machine. I didn’t recognize her immediately. She looked… intact, Put together, Normal, But there was a distance in her gaze, a quiet alertness that hadn’t been there before. Like she was bracing for something she couldn’t name. I blinked. The feeling didn’t go away. “Order up,”
As I walked into work that morning, something felt… off. Not in the “the-gods-are-after-me-again” way, but in a quieter, more unsettling way. Like my spirit was three steps behind my body. I blinked at the clock and I was early. Me. Early. For work. wow.Even worse?Claire was already there.She looked up from the register, one eyebrow raised. “I didn’t know you’d be here this early.”I dropped my bag behind the counter, rubbing my palms together for warmth. “This is early for you… this is normal work time for me, pretty.”She gave me that look, that Claire look that said she saw ten layers deeper than anyone should be able to see. “Okay… I said I wasn’t going to ask this, but tell me what’s been going on with you, Nanya. You’ve been so out of everything.”“You won’t believe me even if I tell you,” I said, and for once it wasn’t sarcasm. It was the truth. The honest, ridiculous truth.“You can’t tell until you try me,” she said confidently.I gave her my look, the one that usually sca
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The voice that spoke next didn’t echo like the others. It was softer, clearer—closer, as if it leaned down just beside my ear. “It doesn’t have to be this way, Damian Blackthorn.”I turned, though the darkness stretched endlessly in every direction. No form, no shape—just that voice, warm as tempt
Light cracked through me like a blade. One heartbeat I was in the mortal world, Nanya’s scent still tangled in my lungs; the next, I was ripped from it—torn from her—and hurled into blinding nothingness.I staggered as reality snapped apart. The air here wasn’t air—it burned, heavy with judgment. B
The world giving way never felt graceful. It ripped instead — like an answer pulled free, jagged and hot. One moment I stood in the restaurant with the taste of her on my tongue and the echo of her laugh in my bones; the next, the air around me collapsed and something older than time yanked me else







