MOLLY
“Okay.” Dr. Sandquist was rubbing the top of her nose where it flattened between her eyebrows, and she had her other arm wrapped around herself. Her elbow was resting on her own arm. She looked tired, but that could’ve been because it was four in the morning.I first met Nea Sandquist in a pottery class. I met a lot of friends in pottery classes. It was kinda my outlet. I liked to take an edible, put on my headphones, and get all spiritual with the clay. I felt a connection to the movie Ghost that I didn’t think was healthy.“You are in shock, Miss Easter.”“Molly,” I piped in, kinda hoping for an edible right now.She sighed. “Molly. You’re in shock, but it doesn’t look like you’ve been physically harmed. The key you swallowed should make its way out of you within a day or two.” She shared a look with Nurse Sloane, the head honcho of all the nurses at the hospital. “I’d like to introduce you to our social worker. He can help you go through the emotional aftereffects of what happened to you. I’d really, really suggest talking to either Matt, our social worker, or he can refer you to someone else, unless you already know someone you could talk to?”The two detectives were outside the door, and she glanced over her shoulder at them before her head ducked. She stepped a little closer to me, quieting her voice. “I need to let the police in to question you, but in the meantime, is there anyone you want us to call?”Sloane closed in on the other side. “Jess, maybe?”Head honcho. Sloane knew everyone and everything.I shook my head. “Not unless . . . no.” I changed my mind. “I have time to call her myself. Where are my employees?”“They were released and sent home after they gave their statements.”I loved Sloane. I had a mentor crush on her. Sometimes, when I was little and I was brought into this hospital, I liked to pretend that Sloane was my mother growing up. She could put anyone in their place, take charge of any room, and make police jump at her instructions. She was a big part of the reason the two detectives, Worthing and Monteyo, were still outside the room and hadn’t barged in.They’d tried in the beginning, but she’d taken one look at them and snapped her fingers. “Outside. Now.” Her tone was super sharp, and they did what she said.No one messed with Sloane.“Molly, do you want us to call a lawyer for you?”Most people might be confused about why she was offering this. I’d been the victim. It was my place that was held up—no. Never mind. I just remembered that I had indeed shot someone. This suggestion made total sense, but for a minute I thought maybe Sloane was referencing the other elephant in the room.Everyone on the street was aware of the Mafia war going on.When that robber had first come in, I’d thought that Easter Lanes would be collateral in the war because of my loose connection to the Walden Mafia family. I was relieved to find out he was just a typical run-of-the-mill idiot criminal.“Is that guy I shot—is he dead?”Sloane and Nea stiffened before sharing a look.“No. Oh gosh. No, Molly. From what we were told, your hand jerked, and the bullet grazed the side of his face.” Nea motioned down her cheek. “He’ll have a nasty burn for a long time, but it was mostly superficial. He’s handcuffed and in police custody at the hospital.”My shoulders sagged. I felt like I just gained back five years of my life. “Are you serious?”“Yes. Did you think—”I shook my head before she could even say it. “I didn’t know. I was . . . never mind. Thank you.” I shared a silly smile with both of them. “I didn’t kill someone. Phew. I mean, they probably won’t charge me with much for self-defense, right? It was self-defense. It’s not like I’ll get assault with a weapon or something, right?”They were doing that look-sharing thing again before Sloane spoke, and her voice was curt. “No. They will not be charging you with anything. I will make sure of that.”Okay. Who knew a nurse had such pull with the police? But go Nurse Sloane. Mentor slash crush.I gave her another smile while starting to think maybe I had ingested an edible and didn’t remember it. “You’re super cool, Nurse Sloane.” I was starting to feel rainbows and unicorns. That was a momentous feeling. I’d be up for meeting a yeti at this point. “I always wished you were my mom. Did I ever tell you that?”The ceiling was moving. The clouds were coming in.I was sure I was seeing Mount Everest too.“The drugs kicked in.”A hand went to my arm and another behind my back. I was being lowered down to the bed. “You can take a nap, Molly. I’ll handle the detectives and get them out of here. When you wake up, everything will be fine. You don’t need to worry about a thing.”I was trying to tell Sloane that was amazing, and thank her for it, but one of the unicorns started to talk to me. I was going to shut up.I didn’t want to miss this conversation.“He has a point. You got shot four times.”“Six times, actually.” I touched the spots on my body like a prayer. “Drive-by shooting. It was apparently meant for him, but I stepped out of the house at the wrong time, and boom. They decided to settle for his daughter instead.”“That’s not supposed to happen,” Mona said, frowning. “We’re not supposed to be fair game.”“It’s not a game to them though, to guys like that. Those assholes don’t care if we’re innocent or not. They’ll hurt us if it gets them what they want.”“I’m sorry that happened to you.”I waved it away and stared out over the yard. I didn’t remember much from the aftermath, but I remembered it happening vividly: the black truck that pulled up, the guns that appeared in the windows, the way I screamed, the pain as it flared, the weird, almost calm knowledge that I was going to die. Then black, then waking up in the hospital, in pain, very, very angry, and all the rehabilitation, the surgery, the bullshit. It took months to g
Amber After that very strange, but surprisingly good night out at the bar, I did my best to hide from him for the next couple days. When we were sitting at the bar, our legs touching slightly, I felt it: that tingle down my spine, that buzz on my lips. We ate, he asked about me, made me laugh, and toward the end of the night, our fingers touched as we reached for the check, and I stared into his eyes, and I knew in that moment that if he’d kissed me, right then and there at the bar, I would’ve kissed him back. We walked back together, said goodnight, and I’ve been hiding from him ever since. I should hate him. I don’t understand what the heck would attract me to a guy like that. He robbed a man in front of me for fun. I hated that sort of thing, hated men that bragged about crime and thought it was exciting, hated that sort of macho arrogant crap most of all, and yet somehow, he was different. He didn’t seem to take himself too seriously, and he made jokes all the time, and of cou
I walked along the bar toward a large man up near the door. He was on the way to the restrooms, so I had a good excuse to pass him. I exaggerated my sway, just a little bit, making myself look drunker than I was. The guy had a goatee, a double chin, and a tiny sprout of hair at the top of his head. I noticed the Rolex first, then the way he leaned toward a much younger, much prettier girl and grinned at her with a creepy hunger in his eyes, and I’d watched him down three drinks since I’d started my first. He was rich, he was trying to impress a girl, and he was drunk, which made him ideal.It wasn’t a complicated maneuver. Amber stared at me, wild and ready to get up and chase me down, so I hurried a little bit. I turned the corner toward the restrooms and bumped into the guy, grunting as I did it loudly. My hand slipped into the pocket of the jacket he had hung on his chair— found nothing.“Shit, sorry,” I grunted, and slipped my hand into his pants pocket. It was tricky, but they we
“To our night out,” I said.She smiled, met my toast, and sipped her drink. “This place isn’t so bad.”“You got a lot of spots like this back home?”She shook her head. “I didn’t come to fancy places like this. I’m more of a dive bar girl myself.”“Funny, I’m the same way. South Philly is filled with little holes in the wall, bars that have been there for generations. Some real cheap, trashy places, but you can get good and drunk and see the boys from the neighborhood there, so it’s not so bad.”“Philly’s a weird place. It seems so small, you know?”“It’s old. Not built in an ideal spot. Didn’t sprawl out like the newer cities. Chicago’s kind of that way too.”“I guess that’s true. I like it though. It’s got character.”“That’s what I think. Philly’s got everything you could want, and it’s cheaper than most other cities, plus it’s a lot smaller, so you can get around way easier.”“If you’re trying to get me to move here permanently, I think I’m sold.”I laughed. “I’m not sure you’d wa
Ren At first, the job wasn’t so bad. I hung around that big house, watched TV when I felt like it, bothered Amber when I got bored, and kept out of Mona’s way as much as I could. Things were quiet for a while, but after a few days it started to get real old, real quick. Amber wasn’t happy. That got pretty obvious by the fiftieth time she told me to go fuck off. Not that I minded if she told me to go to hell, to be totally honest—I sort of liked that she pushed back against me. The girl had spirit, she was a goddamn handful, but I could tell something hung over her. I kept thinking about those fresh-looking scars on her body, so like the bullet wound scars I’d seen on countless other guys, and had a couple myself, but that made no sense. I couldn’t imagine what a girl like her would be doing with bullet scars. One night, Mona decided to head into the city. Amber watched her go like a sad puppy, and I knew she wanted to go with her, if only to escape the house for a little while. I l
I climbed out of the water, intensely away of his eyes on my body. He was a good-looking guy, muscular but trim, with light eyes and dark hair slicked back. His pouty lips would’ve made a younger version of myself swoon, but I was over all that, over and done with it. I felt self-conscious, though, and realized that some of my scars were visible— the two on my leg, and the one on my shoulder. I quickly walked to my towel and grabbed it, wrapping it around myself, but too late. I caught him looking with a thoughtful frown. “We should set up some ground rules, if we’re going to do this for real.” He looked at me and shrugged. “All right. You played along with me, so I’ll play along with you. Give and take, the bedrock of any healthy relationship.” I doubted he’d ever been in a healthy relationship, but I didn’t say that out loud. “When I’m swimming, you can’t sit there and watch me.” “Fair enough.” “And you can’t follow me around all the time.” “That’d make me a shitty bodyg