CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR

Lucien's pov-

Pulling María close I wrapped my arms around her securely as She rested her head against my chest. 

A sigh of relief washing over me as I rested my chin upon her head. 

"I'm sorry princess, I promise I'll do better in controlling my jealousy" I said, placing a kiss on her head.

I was telling the truth I needed to do better for María. I'm only hurting her every time my jealous tendencies take over. I don't want to hurt her anymore, i never wanted to hurt her to begin with. 

I hated to see her cry, I hated to see her hurting. The worst Thing out of all of this, was that lately I was the one to cause her pain. 

If someone else was to cause her pain or tears I would kill them, No hesitation. So why do I consider it acceptable to do so myself? 

No matter how hard I try, the monster I truly a