LOGINMaya didn't sleep.
She'd woken hours ago in a bed that wasn't hers, in a room that wasn't hers, in a house three floors tall and full of wolves. Bruised. Sore in places she didn't want to name. And when she finally made herself check her throat, her fingers found two puncture marks below her ear, already closing. Already his. She hadn't slept since. How could she. Gold eyes and a mark that pulsed with every beat of her heart and an Alpha downstairs who'd stood in a room full of people and told them he'd bury her himself. The house was too quiet. No city under it. No cars, no sirens, no bus hissing at the corner the way there'd always been under her own thin walls. Just wind in the trees. And under the wind, far off, something else. Howling. Answering the thing under her skin. At 2:13 in the morning she gave up. She splashed water on her face at the little sink and caught her own reflection. Brown eyes. Normal. Liar. Because when she blinked, they flickered gold, and were gone. The door was locked. Wilder had a key. He wasn't using it. Small mercies. There was a knock. Soft. "Food." Lindy's voice, careful through the wood. "Left it outside. I'm not coming in." Maya opened the door a crack. A tray on the floor of the hall. Soup gone lukewarm. Bread. And a note tucked under the spoon, in Lindy's blocky handwriting. Eat. He trains you at dawn. —L Dawn. Wonderful. So Lindy was in this now too. Pulled into a house full of wolves because Maya had taken one wrong shortcut, handing out soup and bad news through a door she wasn't allowed to open. Maya's chest did something complicated. Guilt, mostly. She'd spent two days trying to keep Lindy out of this, and here she was, three floors up in the middle of it. Maya drank the water and left the food. Her stomach was a fist. That was when she heard it. Footsteps. Outside. Down in the yard. She went to the window. And there he was. Wilder. No shirt, jeans, bare feet in the wet grass. Pacing a line back and forth like a man wearing a groove into the ground. Claws out. Jaw set so hard she could see it from three floors up. Fighting something. Fighting himself. The full moon hung behind him, huge and low and gold-white, and it lit him up like a struck match. Then he stopped. Looked up. Straight at her. Even through the glass, even three floors up, she felt it. That tug behind her ribs. The bond, leaning toward him like a plant toward a window. He lifted two fingers. Come down. She should have said no. She didn't. The halls were freezing and empty and they smelled like pine and him. She found him at the back door, leaning against the frame, breathing like he'd run somewhere. "You're supposed to be sleeping," he said. No hello. "So are you." He looked at her. At the too-big sweats somebody had left her. At her bare feet on the cold floor. At the mark on her throat. His own throat moved. "The bond's worse at night," he said. "Full moon makes it worse. Pulls harder." "Is that why you're out here looking feral?" The corner of his mouth twitched. Almost a smile. Almost. "Come on." He didn't take her to the training yard she'd half expected, all fences and floodlights. He took her to the tree line, where the grass gave out and the dark started. "Shoes off," he said. "I'm not wearing shoes." "Then feel the ground." The grass was cold and soaked and it squelched between her toes, and she felt ridiculous, and she did it anyway. Wilder stopped in front of her. Close. Close enough that under the pine and the rain she caught plain soap, and warm skin, and wolf. "Close your eyes." "No." "Close them, Maya." She did. "Listen." Wind in the needles. An owl, somewhere left. Her own heart, going too fast. And under all of it, another one. Slower. Steadier. Not hers. His. "That's the bond," he said, low. "You feel it?" She nodded, eyes still shut. She didn't trust her voice. "Good. Means you're not dying in twenty-nine days." Her eyes came open. "And if I do?" He didn't look away. "Then I failed." He stepped closer. His hand came up near her throat, near the mark, and hovered there without touching it, like the last inch was a line he wouldn't cross without asking. "You're scared," he said. "Yes." "Of me?" "Of this." She moved her hand between them, him and her and whatever the bond was. "Of not being me anymore." "You're still you," he said. "The gold doesn't change that." "How do you know?" "Because you're still arguing with me." And for one second, standing barefoot in the wet dark with a monster's heartbeat inside her own chest, she almost believed him. Then a twig snapped. Both their heads turned to the trees at once. A figure. Tall. Standing just inside the dark, watching. And the smell of him reached her a half-second later, and it was all wrong. Too much cheap cologne. Too much human. And under it, something she knew in her back teeth. Her blood went to ice. "Wilder," she breathed. "I see him." His voice dropped somewhere low and flat and awful. "Don't move." The figure stepped out into the moonlight. Dark hair. A scar cut through one eyebrow. The scar she'd given him. Three years ago. The night she ran. Dane. He grinned, slow and easy, like they were old friends running into each other at a gas station. "Hey, Maya. You look different." His eyes crawled over her, over the mark. "Did the dog put his mouth on you?" Wilder moved. One second he was beside her. The next he was in front of her, teeth already dropping long, a sound coming out of him that no human throat could make. "Touch her and you're dead." Dane laughed. It didn't reach his eyes, and his eyes stayed on Maya. "She's not yours, Alpha. She's mine. She always comes back. Ask her." He tipped his head. "Come on, Maya. You're leaving with me tonight. Same as always." "No." The word came out of her before she could catch it. Loud. Clear. It surprised her as much as it surprised him. Dane's smile fell off his face. "Excuse me?" "I said no." She stepped out from behind Wilder. Her hands were shaking. Her voice wasn't. "I'm not going anywhere with you. Not tonight. Not ever again." Wilder's eyes flicked to her. Something crossed his face she'd never seen there before. Surprise. Then something warmer, fiercer, that she didn't have a word for. "That's my girl," he said, low. Dane's face twisted ugly. "You think he can keep you? You're human. You're nothing. You're the same scared little—" He lunged. Wilder was faster. What happened after that wasn't a fight so much as an answer. Tearing. A wet snarl. Dane screaming, high and shocked. Maya didn't look away. She'd spent three years running from this man. She was done flinching. When it stopped, Dane was on the ground, curled around his own arm, blood black in the moonlight. Wilder stood over him, chest heaving, eyes lit gold. "Next time," he said, and his voice was almost gentle, which was the most frightening part, "I kill you. Get up. Get out." Dane scrambled up and ran, crashing through the trees, gone. Silence. Just the two of them breathing. Wilder turned to her. There was blood on his hands. His eyes searched her face. "You okay?" She nodded. She couldn't get a word up her throat. He crossed the space between them and cupped her jaw, careful, his thumb brushing the skin under her eye where the gold kept trying to come. "You didn't run," he said, quiet. "You stood." "I'm tired of running." Something shifted behind his eyes, and the gold pulled back, and for a moment he was just a tired man in the dark. "Then don't," he said. "Not from me." He leaned in. She thought, for one insane second she was sure of it, he was going to kiss her. He pressed his forehead to hers instead. And the bond flared, hot and total, and for one breath she felt him. All of it. The rage still cooling in him. The relief, huge and shaking. The fear he'd never say out loud. And under it, quiet, a single word she felt more than heard. Mine. But it didn't sound like a threat this time. It sounded like a promise. "Come on," he said, pulling back before she could deal with any of it. "Inside. Before the pack smells the blood." They walked back in silence. At her door he stopped. "Tomorrow," he said. "Real training." "Okay." "And Maya." He'd already turned to go. "Lock your door. Just in case." She nodded, and stepped inside, and put her fingers to the mark on her throat. It didn't burn. It pulsed. Slow and warm. Like a second heartbeat. Like hers. She almost smiled. And out in the hall, Wilder stopped walking. She felt it through the door before she heard anything. The bond going tight. His slow heartbeat kicking up. She opened the door a crack. He was standing dead still in the middle of the freezing hall, head turned toward the window, toward the black tree line where Dane had run. "Wilder?" "He didn't come alone." Wilder didn't look at her. His voice had gone quiet and wrong again. "Under the cologne. Under the blood." His jaw worked. "There were three others out there in the trees. Standing still. Watching. They let him walk in, and they let him run, and they didn't move the whole time." The warm pulse at Maya's throat went cold. "He wasn't here to take you," Wilder said. "He was here to find you." He finally looked at her, and there was nothing gentle left in his face. "And now he has."The truck was doing sixty when Eli went out of it.That was the part Wilder worked out first, standing on the hard shoulder with the hazards going and the door of the crew cab hanging open and nine miles of black highway behind them."He didn't jump at a stop," he said. "There hasn't been a stop. Not since the yard."Maya stood in the cold with her phone in her hand and both messages on the screen and her mother's face underneath them."Then he's dead on a road somewhere.""No." Wilder crouched, put two fingers on the tarmac inside the door, and smelled them. "He's not dead. He got out slow, off the step, going backwards. Somebody's done that before.""He's eighteen.""He's eighteen and he's been running since he was six." Wilder stood up and wiped his fingers on his jeans. "You keep hearing his age. I'd stop."They found him four miles back, which took eleven minutes and cost Maya about a year.She spent nine of those minutes with her face at the window and her nails in her own palm,
They left at four in the morning because Sloane said leaving in daylight was for people with permission, and Cascade didn't have any to give.The truck was Kade's, which was the first argument. Kade wanted to drive it, which was the second, and he lost that one in about nine seconds because he still couldn't lift his left arm above his ribs and everybody in the yard had watched him try."Then take it," he said, and threw the keys underhand at Wilder, and turned away too fast. "It pulls left past sixty. Tank's full. There's a jack under the back seat and it's the wrong one for those wheels, so don't get a flat." A pause. "Don't let the kid drive.""I can drive," Eli said."You're eighteen and you've been in a concrete box since June. You can sit in the back and eat crisps."Eli sat in the back and ate crisps. Maya watched him get through two bags before they'd left the property and decided not to say anything about it, ever.Maya said her goodbyes in the wrong order and she'd think abou
Nobody slept.They came back to the pack house at noon and by four in the afternoon there were eleven people around a kitchen table that seated eight, with a road atlas open in the middle of it because nobody's phone worked out here properly and Kade said maps don't lie about distance.Maya had said Crane's message out loud twice. She wasn't going to say it a third time."The fourteenth of June," Sloane said. "Say that part again.""That's the date Crane gave the kid.""And what happened on the fourteenth of June?""Nothing." Maya looked at the atlas without seeing it. "I worked a double. Mr. Damien's granddaughter came in and I gave her a milkshake on the house and got told off for it.""So how does a woman somewhere out east, we don't even know which state, hear that a waitress in Portland is alive on that exact Tuesday.""She doesn't," Wilder said. "Somebody tells her."The table went quiet."Crane told her," Sloane said slowly. "That's what he's saying. He's not bragging that he fo
There were five blankets by the trucks.Kade found it. He'd been counting heads all morning because that was the only job left he could do one-handed, and he came back across the yard with his face doing something Maya didn't like."Boss," he said. Then, to Sloane, correcting himself, and neither of them enjoyed it. "Alpha. We're one short.""Which one.""The kid."Maya was already moving.Second from the end. The boy who'd stood up too fast when her shadow crossed the glass, mouth working, no sound getting through. She'd put him in her head like a shopping list in a corridor two days ago and she'd carried him up four flights of stairs herself.His blanket was folded. That was the thing that got her. Not dropped, not kicked off in a panic.Folded, and squared up, and left on the wheel arch.You don't fold a blanket in a panic. You fold a blanket when you've decided something and you've got time."Eli," Ilsa said.She was propped against the same truck, grey and wrung out, but her eyes
"Don't."Sloane said it before Maya had opened her mouth, which was either very good instincts or the bond talking through the whole yard, and Maya turned around and looked at her."Don't what.""Whatever you're about to do." Sloane had her hand pressed flat to her side and blood coming through it again, and she'd been on her feet for eleven hours. "I can see it on you. You've got the same face he had in your kitchen right before he put his teeth in your throat.""That's a hell of a thing to say to me.""I've got a hole in me and I've been standing up for eleven hours. I've run out of the polite ones.""It's a hell of a thing to watch twice."Maya looked past her, at the pallets, at the twenty-nine coats, at the old men and women getting slowly up off them because the business was concluded and there was nothing left but the drive home."They just voted on me," Maya said. "Again. That's twice now. Fifteen to fourteen in a room I wasn't allowed in, and nineteen to ten in a field where
Twenty-nine elders came.They took the mill yard like a weather front, out of six cars and a van, old men and old women in coats that didn't match, and every one of them stopped dead the second they got close enough to smell what was standing in the grass.Maya watched it happen twenty-nine times. The walk breaking. The head coming down. That fractional stagger, like a person stepping off a kerb they hadn't seen.Two of them made it all the way. The rest didn't.One old man stopped forty feet out, put a hand on the bonnet of a car, and stayed there for the rest of the morning. Nobody helped him. Nobody mentioned it."Stop it," Wilder said, low, beside her."I'm not doing anything.""I know." He put his hand flat between her shoulder blades, and she felt the pack-sense in her settle a half-step, the way water settles when you take your hand out of it. "That's the problem."They set up in the yard because nobody wanted to go back down those stairs. Somebody dragged pallets over for the







