LOGINThis book is officially over. I can't believe I finished it. There were times I wanted to give up. Times I did at some point, but for some reason, I always found the energy to push through. I want to thank everyone who gave this book a chance. Without you, this book wouldn't be as successful as it
“Nikolai, I- ouch” She takes a step towards me and then stops, her face twisting into a grimace. I'm at her side in an instant, my hands around her shoulder, steadying her, “What's wrong?” I ask, my gaze scanning her carefully. My eyes land on the thin ragged line on her knee. The edges are raw, a
To be honest I wouldn't blame her if she did. She’d just seen me torture information out of a man. A man who deserves every bit of pain I dished out to him and more but still. Ava wasn’t used to this. She wasn’t used to seeing other people suffer. I was. I thought I could shield her from the darknes
Nikolai There's a solid second that follows after I see her, where the two of us just stare at each other, neither one of us willing to break contact first. Fuck. She wasn't supposed to be here. How the hell did she even find this place? "Ava, wait," Her eyes widened, a flicker of panic cross
I don’t. My pulse dips, and my heart rate spikes. The passageway is dark and the light seeping in from the library barely serves as an adequate lighting source. I whip out my phone and turn on the flashlight, barely containing the scream that threatens to erupt from my throat, when I see a roach s
The drawing is far from perfect, but it's perfect enough to make Kira smile, and that's enough for me. “Do you think Papa will like it?” I smile softly, brushing a strand of her dark hair away from her face. "I think your papa will love it.” Kira's smile brightens even more. The door to the
Nikolai is big, every part of him, and I have to part my legs to accommodate his size as he trails a path of kisses down my neck, open-mouthed and wet. "I like kissing you", he pants against my skin, the words a breathy confession. "I don't ever want to stop." So don't. I bite down on my bottom l
Memories of the countless nights I spent locked up with my mother's lifeless body by my side each time my father saw my rebellion as a threat claw at my mind, threatening to resurface, but I bury it deep, locking it in the furthest corner of my mind where it cannot escape. The first few times my fa
I poke my tongue to the side of my cheek. How adequate. My gaze drifts over the glass case set into the far wall, where watches and cufflinks glint under the soft lighting of the closet. My feet move on their own accord until I'm standing in front of the case, and I gawk because there are no othe
Ava's hand slips from my shoulder, guiding down to my chest, right above the spot where my heart is. "Thank you for trusting me enough with your secrets" She murmurs, pressing her face into my chest. I tighten my hold around her waist, pulling her closer as the music picks up. "Thank you for liste







