ALEJANDRA.School is just as bad as I thought it would be.Well, thatโs not exactly true. Some part of me thought it would be worse. I thought maybe people would call me names or that they would be mean to me, but that isnโt the case. I shouldโve known better, though. The guys would never allow that.No, instead, theyโre all just staring at me. Theyโre not talking. Theyโre justโฆ looking. And because of it, I feel very anxious.The weather is a little cool today, which is not normal for early September. Even the wind is blowing, making me think a storm must be blowing in. For some reason, the weather makes me even more anxious, like something big is about to happen.Forrest, who is standing closest to me as we walk to the dining hall for lunch, squeezes my hand. My guys form a circle around me. After what happened with that Daniel guy, the guys want to make sure nobody else gets close enough to accidentally touch me.Part of me thinks itโs sweet that the guys want to protect me.
ALEJANDRA.After everything that happened today, I still am excited for tonight. I take the time to change out of my school clothes and put on a pretty dress. I even curl my hair.I want to look pretty tonight.Tonight is my first date. And okayโฆ maybe weโre on an island and canโt actually do normal date things, but I donโt care. I still consider this a date and Iโm going to enjoy every second of it.I feel like I should be nervous, but Iโm not. Yeah, itโs my first date, but my first date is with somebody I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Iโm already comfortable around Phoenix. And the thought of him kissing me at the end of the night gives me butterflies in my stomach. Iโm excited. I hope he kisses me. If he doesnโt, maybe Iโll be bold enough to kiss him.I push those thoughts away, knowing the guys could be listening to my thoughts right now. I like to think they arenโt always listening, but you never know.I really have to learn how to block them.There is a knoc
ALEJANDRA.Itโs time to stop avoiding Margot Westwood. I mean, sheโs my aunt.My mom never wanted to give me away. Neither did my aunt. But it was my motherโs dying wish for me to be put somewhere I would be safe. The sacrifices that both my mom and my aunt madeโฆ I can never repay those.I want to have a relationship with my aunt. At first, I didnโt think I would because I was so overwhelmed. But itโs because of my aunt that I have the family I do. She put me with the most amazing Mom and Dad. And because of her I have the worldโs best siblings. The least I can do it talk to her and try to get some answers. I can talk to her and try to build a relationship with her. I think itโs what my mom would want. I mean, certainly they knew I would end up here eventually, right? Someday I would figure out that Iโm not human. Maybe it wouldnโt be until I was in my forties and still looked like somebody in my early twenties. Or maybe I wouldโve figured it out on my own especially since Iโve sta
ALEJANDRA.Forrest is quiet as we head back to the house. In fact, he hasnโt even looked at me since we left Margotโs office. I think heโs a little mad that I asked Margot to teach me how to block my thoughts.Blocking my thoughts is surprisingly easy and yet complicated at the same time. I think itโs easier for the guys because theyโve known their whole lives how to block their thoughts. Itโs muscle memory for them. For me, I have to actually think about physically blocking my thoughts.Imagine a wall, Margot had told me.A wall?Thatโs easy.The hard part is keeping the wall up. The second Iโm distracted the wall moves. I donโt know if thatโs normal, but itโs what happens to me.As soon as we get back to the house, Forrest heads upstairs to his room. I watch his retreating form, wondering if I should say something to him.โWhatโs wrong with Forrest?โ I ask Desmond, who is standing closest to me.Desmond simply shrugs.Boys.I sigh and decide to just ask him myself. I walk
DESMOND.I can smell Alejandraโs desire.We all can.Itโs all I can do to sit on the couch and not force myself to go upstairs and get involved in whatever Alejandra and Forrest are doing.Kissing.Theyโre just kissing.But Alejandra wants more.Everything inside of me screams that I should be jealous about what is happening upstairs, but Iโm not. Even my wolf is calm. Heโs fine with whatโs happening.This is new for all of us. Sharing a mate isnโt what any of us expected. Still, I donโt regret this. In fact, I like that I share a mate. I like that there are three other guys here to protect her aside from me. And the fact that Iโm sharing a mate with my three best friends is the best part.โHow did they go from fighting to that?โ Puma asks as he sits on the couch beside me. He looks amused. โDo you think Alejandra would be up for me joining?โI laugh, shaking my head. โTheyโre not completing their mate bond.โโI know. I still want to join.โPuma and I are the only ones who
ALEJANDRA.I love the feeling of waking up on Saturday morning and knowing that I donโt have to go to school. I know I shouldnโt feel this way about Shifter Academyโthe school is important to the guys. I should learn to like it. But right now, Iโm having a very hard time, so Iโm glad that itโs Saturday and I donโt have to worry about going there today.I need to talk to Puma. After what happened last night, I feel kind of bad. Even though it was his turn to stay in my room, he didnโt come in. Phoenix and Desmond stayed with me and both are still asleep next to me. I carefully climb out of bed. Usually I wake them, but I manage to get up successfully. I grab a dress from my closet and go to my bathroom to take a shower and get ready for the day.I have no idea what weโre doing today, but Iโm hoping we will go to the beach at some point. Back home, Zaire, Katherine, and I went to the beach every single weekend. Not just to hang out, sometimes weโd go there and do our homework. Someth
ALEJANDRA.Alpha Romano went home last night, which Iโm glad for. I justโฆ I feel like Iโm a disappointment to him and to the entire pack. Iโm the future lunaโฆ the future queenโฆ whatever I amโฆ but Iโm not strong. I canโt even use whatever powers I have if I need them. They just come randomly and I know heโs disappointed in me, how can he not be? Iโm sure he hates that his son is stuck with such a dud of a mate.I make sure to keep my wall up while I think those kind of things. The last thing I want is for Forrest to know how I feel. I know he hates it when I block my thoughts, but how can I tell him how I feel?Gahโฆ Iโm so lame. I should have more confidence in myself.โYou should.โ Forrest rolls over and looks at me.My heart races because he scared me.โHow much of that did you hear?โ I ask.โEverything.โ He sighs, shaking his head. โYou know, when weโre touching, your block thing doesnโt work. Just like I canโt block you out when weโre touching.โโYeah, but your thoughts are
ALEJANDRA.I went to the pack doctor and I was so glad she was female.The doctorโฆ she didnโt seem at all worried about the fact that I felt super awkward. She just did her job and actually made me feel comfortable. She even made Hannah wait outside during the exam, which I was grateful for.After everything is over, the doctor gives me a shot that will stop me from getting pregnant for the next four weeks, but itโs very important to come every four weeks. Apparently shifters burn off birth control faster than a human, which is a little frightening.Even though I know Iโm not ready to complete my mate bond with the guys just yet, I still want to be prepared when the time comes. If Iโm being honest, I donโt think Iโll want to wait too much longer. My guys are too important to me and I canโt deny the love I feel for them.When Hannah drops me off at home a few hours after we left that morning, she doesnโt come in. I suspect she wants to give me time to talk to the guys. Itโs probab
ALEJANDRA. Over Christmas break, I told my family the truthโthat I am a fairy. I told them them that they were glamoured to think Iโm their daughter. And that I have four mates. My family didnโt believe me, which I expected. I mean, I had the exact same reaction when Forrest told me he was a wolf shifter. Soโฆ I did the only thing I knew I could do to prove it. I had Phoenix shift into a wolf. Donโt worryโฆ I made him go to the bathroom before shifting back. After that, my parents had a lot of questions, as did the rest of my siblings. And so, I literally spent the whole day telling them everything. And even though itโs technically against the law, I am the queen. Iโm allowed to break the law. Plus, Alpha Romano gave me permission. I wasnโt sure what to expect after that, but my family seemed to accept everything. I mean, they had a lot of questions about the whole โhaving four matesโ thing, but they didnโt freak out and they listened when I explained it to them. Itโs more than I co
ALEJANDRA. Everything is too bright and too loud. Iโm about to yell at Katherine and tell her to shut off her alarm when I realizeโฆ itโs not an alarm. Iโm not in Jacksonville. I open my eyes and shut them immediately. The fluorescent lights are bright. My head hurts, my back hurts, my chest hurtsโฆ What happened to me? โAlejandra.โ I hear somebody say my voice softly. I open my eyes again, slower this time. Four pairs of eyes are looking down at me. I try to sit up, but a hand reaches out to hold me down. โJust lie down.โ I lie back against my pillow, but only because my chest hurts so bad. โWhat happened to me?โ I ask, rubbing the spot on my chest. โThomas Freeman stabbed you in the back with a silver knife. He actually stabbed your heart.โ Forrest clears his throat. โHe didnโt know that youโre immune to silver.โ โIf he stabbed me in the heart, how am I not dead?โ Because whether Iโm immune to silver or not, getting stabbed in the heart seems like a sure way to die. โI don
ALEJANDRA. I am so nervous on Monday morning. My heart is racing and my hands are shaking. All of the guys wanted to stay with me last night, so we ended up making this huge pallet on the floor and sleeping there. It was kind of cool waking up surrounded by my mates. I realize I want this every morning. Weโre going to have to find a bigger bed to make this happen because a king size bed isnโt cutting it. I think the reason Iโm so scared is I donโt know how things are going to go today. What if Tiffany and the others change their mind? What if they decide to go ahead and side with Robert Westwoodโthatโs a scary thought. But what if they donโt and Robert follows through on his promise? What if Robert is able to have Tiffanyโs children murdered. The thought hurts my chest. He has to be stopped. I donโt care if heโs my biological grandfather or not. His terrorizing days are over after this. He is going to answer for his crimes. Today when I get dressed, I donโt care so much about loo
ALEJANDRA. The urgency in Forrestโs voice makes my heart race fast and hard. And even though weโre in the middle of helping everybody get settled, we leave the castle to talk to Alpha Romano. I push out Forrestโs thoughts, not wanting to force myself to know whatโs going on. If Forrest wanted to tell me whatโs happening, he would. I get the feeling this is something I need to hear for myself anyway. We walk out the front of Shifter Academy and get into the car we drove over. The parking lot is still just as empty as when we arrived this morning. I donโt know why it surprises me. I guess I expected the parking lot to be full, but how would they even get the cars here? Also, the fae canโt drive. So that was just a silly thing to think. We drive to where Alpha Romano is staying and Iโm surprised when we walk inside and see one of the wolves from the council there. Sheโs actually one of the wolves on the side that is firmly against the fae. Iโm hoping she is here to tell me sheโs chang
ALEJANDRA. On Sunday morning, the fae start arriving. When they arrive, we have to make room where we canโsome of them stay in the castles. We try to make sure families have homes that are empty on the island. Itโll be a little pack when everything is said and done, but we do what we can. Iโm glad nobody seems too upset about having to share their space. Everybody is super welcoming to the fae. A lot more welcome than they were to me when I first came, but now that Iโm here, I canโt even blame them for being wary of me. I probably would have too. Iโm so glad I know that Iโm a fae. And Iโm glad that everybody else knows too. There is no hateโฆ well, aside from the council members and the panthers. But the council is nowhere to be seen at the moment and the panthers are hiding in their dorm rooms, which is preferred. I love seeing the castle full of fae. Itโs actually incredible. Roshan gathers everybody for a meeting once they get settledโwe definitely have a lot of things to catch
ALEJANDRA.After we leave Roshanโs place, the guys and I go back home, but they tell me to put on a bathing suit when we go inside. I start to argue, but I can tell by the looks on their faces that they mean business. So I go to my room and put on my bikini and throw on a coverup before heading downstairs. My guys are waiting for me. Today has been a rough day. Scratch that, itโs been a rough week. Maybe going out and getting a little sun is exactly what I need. Zaire, Katherine, and I used to go to the beach nearly every single day. Even in January and February, when it was too cold to be in the water. Though, I have seen a few tourists around that time of year swimming because it is very warm in Florida compared to whatever mid-western town theyโre from. Something about the sound of the waves, the feel of the sun, and the smell of salt water is comforting. Maybe because it reminds me of home. And I miss home. I miss my family more than anything. But I canโt go see them right now
ALEJANDRA. On Saturday morning, I plan to meet with Roshan and the other fae to let them know how everything went with the council. Iโm a little bit nervous to tell them. I just hope they donโt get discouraged from the news, but how could they not? Still, I promise myself not to let it show how bothered I am by the news. I want to help keep their spirits up about it. And the truth is, we donโt know what is going to happen. The council could come back and say that theyโve decided to side with the fae. That is my hope. If notโฆ well, I donโt even want to think about that unless it happens. Roshan is staying in his own place. He has two wolf shifters that live close byโother teachers. So I know heโs safe over here. For now. We all meet at his house to discuss things and Iโm a little bit anxious. โEverything will be fine.โ Desmond squeezes my hand as we approach the front door. I know I always give my mates a hard time about listening to my thoughts, but most of the time I like it. T
ALEJANDRA. Itโs weird seeing Alpha Romano in the house, but I suppose this is the only place we really have privacy. Now that Iโm fully seeing him, he looks tired. Exhausted, really. I can tell all of this is weighing heavily on him. And what heโs willing to sacrificeโitโs a lot. I canโt believe heโs willing to give up his entire life for me. Wellโฆ itโs not just for me. Itโs also for Forrest, his son, and all the fae. I keep saying itโs bigger than me because thatโs the truth. Iโm just the queen who canโt stand the injustice my people have suffered. They need somebody who is willing to fight for them, and that is me. I know the cost and I am willing to pay. Alpha Romano paces in the living room. Forrest is sitting on the side of the coffee table, hunched forward. Phoenix, Puma, and I are sitting on the couch, with me between them, and Desmond is sitting on the arm of the couch, by Phoenix. โEvery single shifter, aside from the panthers, has decided to side with the fae.โ Alpha Ro
ALEJANDRA. Today, my hair and makeup are on point. I even tried on twenty different outfits before I settled on a simple black dress. I put on a blazer, thinking it helps me look more โmature.โ I hope it does. When I walk into the council today, I donโt want them to see a seventeen-year-old girl. I want them to see a fairy queen. I want them to take me seriously and I want to fight for my people. The door to my room opens and Puma sticks his head inside. โDo I look fierce?โ I ask, doing a spin for him. Since I basically just gave Puma permission to check me out, he does. He slowly scans my body and there is fire in his eyes when he finally makes eye contact. โYou look really hot.โ โI donโt want to look hot. I want to look professional.โ I look at my four-inch heels. I thought the added height would help me look more intimidating. โMaybe I should wear flats.โ โIt doesnโt make a different if you wear heels or flats. Youโre still short.โ I stick my tongue out at him, taking off m