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Locked away in the confines of my room, I found myself curled into a ball, drowning in a sea of self-pity that threatened to consume me.
At 22, my life was nothing short of chaos, and the missing piece of the puzzle was my elusive mate.
While everyone around my age had already found theirs, I lingered in the shadows of my room, venturing out only when necessary.
My wolf, feeble, cast doubt upon my identity. Born to Beta parents, the question of being an omega loomed, though it seemed unlikely.
Only my wolf and I knew the real reason behind our fragile state.
It all began six years ago, an incident that would change the trajectory of my life forever.
The pervasive melancholy wrapped both me and my wolf in a shroud of guilt and despair.
Flashback
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Six years ago "Ella, stop!" I exclaimed at my best friend, who kept taunting me.
We were outdoors in the woods, enjoying a camp-out.
“Oh, come on, we used to play chase all the time,”
she said.
"Yes, but not right now. Let's go roast some marshmallows or head inside the tent,"
I suggested. Brushing me off, she darted away.
"Catch me if you can."
I could sense my wolf emerging as she continued to provoke me.
My 16th birthday was a month prior; I had shifted for the first time, and ever since, I've struggled to control my wolf.
end of flashback ***
A gentle knock on the door signaled my mother's entrance.
"Claire, open up; we need to talk."
Summoning the strength to rise, I unlatched the door, granting her access.
"Your father is home. He's already at the dining table," she revealed.
"I'm not hungry," I lied, feigning disinterest in the prospect of a family dinner.
"Let's have dinner as a family for once. Besides, there's something we need to discuss with you,"
she insisted, coaxing me to follow her to the kitchen.
As we descended the staircase, the rhythmic sway of her wavy black hair captivated my attention cascading down her back.
A familiar echo resonated between us, the ice-cold light blue eyes and shared mannerisms, such as avoiding eye contact when lying and the reflexive toss of our hair when upset.
I immediately noticed something when I entered the dining room.
Seated at the table were Max, my childhood nemesis, along with his family, Luna and Alpha Stiner and his younger siblings.
His presence was magnetic, radiating confidence with a powerful aura.
I glared at him, and he smirked back and shrugged, flexing his shoulders to showcase his well-built physique and sexy dimples.
Yet, despite my annoyance and hatred, I couldn't help but acknowledge his undeniable charm. Mom whispered,
"Sorry, and be nice" in my ear and then sits beside Dad; I sat next to her "Good evening everyone"
I faked smiled, the tension in the air palpable. Clearly, this wasn't our regular family gathering.
The atmosphere crackled with unspoken expectations as both our parents exchanged knowing glances.
"Given that both you and my son are currently without mates," Alpha began, and a sudden realization washed over me.
"Not a chance," I exclaimed, my voice cutting through the tension at the table.
"Sit down, Claire. The kids are right over there."
Dad ordered, and I momentarily forgot that Luna's children, aged 2 and 3, were playing across the room with Nia, the helper I reluctantly obeyed, easing back into my seat.
"My son needs a mate, and you're both mate-less, so I don't see why this is an issue,"
he shrugged, entirely oblivious to the brewing conflict.
Their son had tormented me for years, turning my life into a living hell. Why would I want to be with someone like him?
"Leave her be. Any woman would be fortunate to have me,"
Max scoffed, rising abruptly.
"Besides, she-wolves without a wolf aren't my type."
"And jerks aren't my type"
I retorted, and he stormed out of the dining room, our parents unfazed.
"Are we done here?" I asked, my gaze locked on my mom, on the verge of tears.
She held her head with a guilty expression.
She was well aware of the deep-seated animosity between Max and me, as well as my insecurities about not having a wolf as strong as the daughter of a beta should.
Despite that, she still lied just to get me to attend this dinner.
As I rushed up the stairs to my safe space, the door opened, and suddenly, I found myself slammed against the wall.
"Max!" I tried to scream, but he swiftly placed a finger over my lips.
"Keep quiet omega"
"I'm not an omega"
I hissed, and he smirked mischievously, leaning closer
"Then why don't I smell your wolf?"
It was a question I couldn't answer; the horror of why my wolf isn't present is a secret I plan to take to my grave.
Max's eyes loomed over me, watching my every movement.
I tried to focus on anything else but how handsome he was up close.
I despised the way his presence commanded attention, and my heart rebelled against the realization that, against my will, I found his eyes mesmerizing and his lips alluring.
The facial structure of a movie star, eyes like the sky on a stormy night, and these luscious plump pink lips.
He leans in even closer as if we aren't close enough. The proximity too suffocating, his aura wrapped around me like gloves.
"Why are you breathless?”
He asks knowingly
"You're such a jerk"
I push him away, but he nuzzles me back, his lips merely inches away from mine.
The inner conflict intensified as I fought against the inexplicable pull he seemed to have on me.
Embarrassingly, I closed my eyes and awaited a kiss. Seconds went by and nothing happened, so I opened them. Max erupted in a fit of laughter.
“You think I would ever kiss you, mutt?”
Now do you see why I can't fathom being with my childhood enemy?.
The idea of a romantic connection with Max was abhorrent, and I couldn't picture myself being his mate.
I'd rather face the possibility of a mate-less future than succumb to the irony of being entangled with the one person I'd spent my life avoiding.
“I thought you were in bed”Max asks in shock, as I pinned him to the wall the moment he entered through the door. “Quit talking”I smashed my lips out of his demandingly.He tried to touch my hair, so I secured his hands above his head. “Woah”“Let’s go home”“Why?”He teases, knowing full well how horny I am. The scent of my arousal in the Air. Within a mile second, the roles were reversed and I’m the one pinned. “You want me, is that it?”“Yes Alpha”“How badly”He smirks, using my hand. I brought it to my soaking pussy, and he growls Then lips, a finger inside me, followed by another. “Max, ah fuck, someone could see us”We’re literally in the living room. “They’re sleeping, relax baby”He continued to fuck me until I came into his fingers. Fixing myself up, Max throws me over his shoulder.“What are you doing ?”I giggled “Be quiet Babe”He slaps my bum playfully, then closes the door before taking me to the river near his parents’ house. Max takes me down, turns to lo
“Max, why don’t you go downstairs and sleep on the couch?”I groan as horniness continues to drive me crazy.The scent of my arousal filled the room.The jerk only smirked knowingly. “It’s best to give in now because you will, eventually”Rolling my eyes, I grab a sheet and a pillow. “Stay, I’ll go, besides I can’t sleep”He confesses, his voice going an octave lower The mate bond acted on its own and I’m cuddling Max.My mate latches on to me and I felt bad for never trying to help him with his obvious grief. “So you wanna talk about it?”“No, I want to fuck you”“Max I’m being serious’I exclaimed, though my pussy throbbed at the thought of that. “So am I’“please, Mr Steiner wants us to be happy talking about it is the fastest way to heal”He ignored the statement and pulled me closer, pecking at my shoulders. “Don’t torture yourself Clarissa, I can smell your arousal”Being this close and him doing that only ignited my horniness, and I growled.Horniness, hate and the need
“Can Nia ride you like this?”I moan, and he groans “Oh fuck, no”That’s what I thought. See before max, I’d never had sex Rightful so, all genders are to remain a virgin until mateAnd even now I’m inexperienced But after cheating with Nia, I’ll give him pleasure so good, he won’t have to think twice about touching another woman who’s not me. “Luna, Alpha”Jason’s mind-links frightening us “What?”Max growls, annoyed l Who the heck min-links someone when they’re in the middle of having sex?“You two might wanna keep it down, you’re waking everyone up”Shit, our parents, everyone’s still here “We’ll be quiet”Max hisses as I rub his nipples through my thumb. “or take a break. You guys been at it for hours now”The link closed, and we wrapped up.Plopping myself down on the mattress, I rolled to the other side, only to be pulled closer. Might as well enjoy the warmth “Did you mean it?”He asks out of nowhere “Huh”I looked at him, confused, but he remained silent. “Mean what
He pulls me up, but I’m not going back in there. I just lost dad. I can’t lose my mate too She was about to reject me, had mom not showed up.“Go on”“Not without you, so be a man and face your fares. I’m here by your side.”He says and embraces me in an emotional hug. The only man beside my dad, I’d ever let see me cry.“I’m glad you’re here”“Me too Brother”We went back inside and found everyone there. Equally devastatedClarissa stood there broken than the time I saw her in the woods, drenched in blood.The bond urges me to go comfort my mate. However, I’m a cheater and part of the reason. Mommy, where’s dada?”Asked my little brother Malvin, sitting at the edge of the stairs.“He’s busy”Mom tells him“You sway that all the time”Sophia, my sister, responded Claire and I’s mom took them back to bed, while her dad went to get us all drinks. “Make mine stronger ”She yell’d“This isn’t the only heartbreak on dealing with”Hearing that made my heart sink, and I couldn’t brin
Outside the door was Jason and Kylie. We all made our way over to the Steiners. Sitting on the couch was an almost unrecognisable man, had it not been for his ever so welcoming smile. Rushing over with tears in my eyes, I hugged him. “Sweet Claire” He says in a shaky, yet loving voice. “We’re right here” Max comes over and joins in on the hug. “uh, I love you two to pieces” He held us tight. When we pulled away, his mother calls us over to talk “He got worse shortly after you guys mated, there isn’t much time left” “And you’re just now telling me this?” Max hiss. “Your father was the one who said not to. He never wanted to worry you guys” That’s Mr Steiner, for sure, the happiness of his family above all. “You still should’ve fucking told me” “Don’t talk to your mother like that” She slaps him and he huffs but goes over to his father. I wish I could slap him too. “No, No” Max screams, capturing everyone’s attention. All of us ran over to see what it wa
My schedule was completely free today and initially I planned to visit my parents whom I haven’t seen in a while. Then PHG came to mind. It’s also been some time Max then suggested I go to both. PHG first since it starts in a few. And then their place after. I’m wearing a simple blue dress and some flip-flops, my hair done in a high ponytail as I left the house. Feels good to have a schedule free day. It is all thanks to Kylie, though. She’s been very helpful. Her mysterious, yet funny and straightforward personality blends well with me. Making it easy to be around and work together. I haven’t opened up to a friend or really had any since EllaSo this is amazing Upon entering PHG, I glimpsed Nia. Boiling with annoyance, my wolf growled. What’s wrong with this girl?, yesterday I wore a 3.5 inch heels and Maxi dress, Today she shows up in one too, a similar attire to mine and worseHer hair is now dyed dusty blond with golden highlights and curtain bangs Complete opposite







