Natasha's POV
The rays of sun cursing through the windows and hitting my face woke me up.
I rubbed my eyes as I opened them.
It's already morning and the sun already set high. I also turned back into my normal form. I turned back into being a human again after turning into a werewolf last night because Valerian Fenrir provoked me.
I sighed as I got up from my bed. The ring that mom gave me is on my bedside table so I quickly grabbed it and put it back on. I can't lose it because it's one of the important things that I have right now. We turn into a werewolf every full moon and we have no control over it unless it's just an ordinary night so I really need this ring because I can't turn into a werewolf especially because I'm in the city. I'm just lucky no one saw me last night.
My gaze fell on the door when I remembered something.
I didn't kill Valerian Fenrir. . .
My father will be so disappointed with me.
Sh*t. No. . .
But, why did my father hide the truth from me? Why didn't he inform me that Valerian Fenrir is a vampire?
A f*cking vampire!
I'm not only surprised by the fact that he is a vampire. I'm surprised by how strong he is. His strength is something. I spent my whole life learning how to fight and I didn't even get the chance to lay a hand on Valerian Fenrir. I thought I'm strong enough and ready but I was wrong. I can't even move when he was holding me. If I didn't manage to escape last night, I'll be the one ending up dead and not him. I can easily take him out if he's just a normal person-- a human, like I thought but he's not.
"What should I do now?" I whispered to myself. "I can't go home."
"Hello, there."
I jerked up on my spot when I suddenly heard someone speak in the corner of my room.
My heart pounded inside my chest upon seeing Valerian Fenrir comfortably sitting in the corner with his legs crossed.
I automatically looked for my dagger but I remembered that he have it.
F*ck.
Is this the time when I will die? I know Valerian can just easily snap my neck if he wants to considering how strong he is compared to me. If I can fight him, it's still doesn't guarantee my life. I don't want to die!
I know nothing much about vampires since I haven't met one in my whole life until last night and we don't talk about their kind in our pack but I'm sure Valerian Fenrir isn't no ordinary vampire. I saw how he is last night.
He is something.
"What are you doing here?" I asked as my fingertips touched the bite mark he left on my neck.
I flinched.
It hurts.
It hurts so much. F*ck.
Valerian didn't answer my question.
I gathered all the courage I have in me as and looked at his eyes.
Our gaze met.
I tilted my head as I try to read his mind but I got nothing. I can't get through his mind. No matter what I do, I just can't.
"It's frustrating, I know," he stated. "I can't do it with you too."
Valerian continued looking at me and I have to avoid his gaze because his eyes are piercing and I can't handle it.
"So tell me why. Why can't I get inside your mind, Natasha?" he added.
I swallowed hard. "I don't know."
"Stop!" I exclaimed when all of the sudden he was already in front of me holding my neck.
"L-let me go," I stuttered.
"Why do you want to kill me?" he questioned.
I gulped once again as my hand traveled to my fingers gripping my ring tightly. I can fight him better if I turn into a werewolf. But since I'm still wearing my ring, it will prevent me from turning into one. The power of the ring does not only helps me to not turn into my form during the full moon. As long as I'm wearing the ring, I can't be a werewolf even if I want to anytime.
"Why do you want to kill me?!" His voice thundered in my whole room making my knees wobble.
"I- I don't know," I answered truthfully because I really have no idea why I need to kill him. Aside from it being an order from my father, I have no other reason.
I spent years carrying the baggage of killing someone whom I thought was a human. A horrible human. But, I don't have any personal reason. It's just an order from my father and I couldn't go against him no matter what I do.
"N-no," I cried out when I felt his hot breath in my neck.
I gathered all my strength and tried to push him away but he didn't budge even just a little.
I repeatedly cursed inside my mind when I realized that I can't turn into a werewolf. It's broad daylight and there are so many people outside. I can't be seen. If Valerian failed to kill me- I'll get killed by the city people if they see me in my form.
F*ck.
"N-no please!" I pleaded when I felt his sharp fangs graze in my neck again.
"Your smell. Hmm, the smell of your blood." I heard him whisper.
Just when I thought he'd bite me again, he didn't. Valerian Fenrir just sniffed my neck.
"I don't understand," he stated.
"A-are you going to kill me?" I asked trying so hard to not break my voice but failed.
"Yes. You're already a corpse if only you didn't manage to escape from me last night," he answered.
Sh*t.
"Are you going to kill me now?" I questioned once again. I didn't even know why I'm asking but if this will be my last day, I want to know.
"I will," he replied making my heart clench.
"After I have my answers," Valerian added and let me go. In just a blink, he's already sitting back in the corner again.
I heaved a deep sigh of relief.
He finally let go of me and didn't do anything to me.
"Tell me, wolf girl." He rested his chin in his hand as he cross his legs again. "Where did you come from? It's been a while since my last encounter with a werewolf."
I fell silent because of what he said.
I can't tell him anything about me or the pack because they'll be in danger.
Valerian Fenrir is dangerous. Everything that happened last night and what's happening right now should be enough for me to know that.
I drew a breath as I think of a story to tell him.
"I got cast out of my pack for a sin I committed. I'm alone, wandering." I looked at him with a serious expression on.
He can't read my mind. He said it and I saw how he clenched his jaw and his forehead is creased every time he tries to read my mind but fail.
If I tell him this, he wouldn't know whether I'm lying or not.
"I wonder what that sin is." He looked at me with his piercing eyes and I have to endure his stares.
I can't avoid his gaze otherwise he'd be suspicious as to why I couldn't look at him while I'm telling him my story.
"And the reason why you wanted to kill me?" he questioned once again.
"As I've said, I've known you for a while now but you never noticed me. I don't like the way you treat women. I despise you because of it and you don't deserve to live," I answered.
I don't know his treatment of women but the scene I saw last night is enough to tell me what he is towards them. He's nothing but a disgusting bastard.
Valerian chuckled. His voice is dangling with amusement. "You have said you've been 'admiring me from afar'. Why is it that you changed your words, Natasha?"
I didn't answer.
None of what I've said is true.
I will never admire Valerian Fenrir.
I'm maybe upset by my father for not telling me that Valerian is a vampire but I still remember everything that he said to me about Valerian F*cking Fenrir. He's brutal and heartless and I despise people like him.
"W-what are you doing?" I asked stuttering when all of the sudden he's in front of me again holding my neck.
F*ck.
My neck hurts from his bite and it hurts more because of the times he choked me. I'm sure as hell his handprints and bruises are all over my neck.
"What did you put in your blood?" he asked.
His voice turned out cold and serious and it makes me nervous.
"What?" I asked creasing my forehead.
Gosh. I wish this devil will let go of me because it's hard to speak when he's literally holding my throat and slightly restricting my airflow.
I coughed and coughed and coughed hoping for him to let go of me.
Valerian's gaze is focused on me and just watching me as I cough repeatedly but he didn't disappoint me because he finally let go of my throat.
I took a deep breath as I stopped coughing. "I don't know what you're talking about," I told him.
Valerian raised his palm and leveled it in my mouth.
"What are you doing?" I asked as I creased my forehead at him.
"Bite me," he ordered.
I furrowed my eyebrows. "What?"
"I shouldn't tell you twice."
I continued furrowing my eyebrows at him. I'm so confused right now.
Why the hell would he want me to bite him? And I'm not like him. I don't feed on people's blood. We, werewolves have a normal diet like humans. We maybe eat raw meat but that's just it. We don't drink blood.
"Either you bite me or I'll do it and end your life," he threatened.
Sh*t.
Left with no choice, I held his hand and bit him.
"Deeper, Natasha," he commanded. "Taste my blood."
And, I did.
I tasted his blood while we stares into each other's eyes.
Natasha's POVI woke up in the middle of the night thirsty.So thirsty.I quickly got up from my bed and went to the small kitchen of the apartment I'm renting and opened the refrigerator to get water.I didn't bother grabbing a glass from the cupboard anymore and just directly drink from the bottle.I had a hard time catching my breath after finishing all the water in the big bottle.The water is so cold and refreshing but I don't understand why I'm still thirsty.Beads of sweat started to form in my forehead and neck."Ugh, f*ck!" I groaned as I deeply closed my eyes.Now, I'm not only thirsty- I'm so hungry. So hungry and thirsty like as if I was deprived of food and water for months.What is happening to me?I peaked at the window to see the moon but it's not a full moon tonight. I also don't feel the urge to turn into a werewolf.I don't understand what is happening.My stomach is not growling and it doesn't hurt but I am so hungry.And now my throat feels like it's as dry as the
Natasha's POVThe feeling of a hot breath touched the skin in my neck woke me up from my sleep. I opened my eyes and I flinched when I saw Valerian leaning on me with his eyes staring deep into my soul."W-what are you doing?" I stuttered as I moved away from him.I don't want to be scared of him or even show signs of weakness but the way he's staring at me makes my knees wobble. He makes me nervous and I don't know if it's because of his aura or the way he looks at me or both. He's just really intimidating.I just woke up and yet he managed to make my heartbeat erratic.Everything about him screams danger in an unexplainable way."Are you hungry?" he asked as he stood up straight and put his hand inside his pocket.I studied him and noticed that he was wearing formal office attire except his coat.I shook my head.I don't know what time is it already but I can see the rays of the sun shining through the window. And surprisingly, I'm not hungry. I don't feel any hunger or thirst-- the
Natasha's POVI heard several knocks on the door before it opened.Elyse entered the room, which made me crease my forehead.What is she doing here?I mean, wasn't she mad at me? She was glaring at me and all earlier, and I have no idea why.Well, it's because I choked her-- I got to give her that. But she provoked me! She wanted to kill me, and I wouldn't just stand there and wait for her to do it. She wants to end my life because she's threatened that I am in their territory-- her brother's lair, and I got to protect myself, but I got out of control. And if it wasn't for the arrival of Valerian- I don't want to think about the possible things that I might do to her.I watched Elyse as she sat on the seat in the corner of the room.I wonder what she and Valerian talked about when they left the room.Not to be nosy or anything but was it about me?"I'm sorry for what happened," she apologized.I automatically looked at her.She's sorry? For what? I was the one who did something to her
Natasha's POVMy breathing becomes heavier as the seconds goes by; It came to the point where taking a breath is becoming hard for me, and it hurts already."Valerian," I whispered as I deeply shut my eyes and clung to my chest.I repeatedly cursed under my breath. "Valerian, fuck. Where are you?!"I tried to stand up from the bed, but my knees were just weak right now, and I failed to."I am so going to kill you." I gritted my teeth.A groan escaped from my mouth as I caressed my stomach. It's burning. My stomach is burning from so much hunger and pain I'm feeling right now. Even if I try to eat meat or whatever there is, it won't quench my desire because only Valerian could do that for me. I know.I swore that I didn't want to feel this anymore, but here I am in this situation again.I haven't seen Valerian for two days now, and I have no idea where he is. Now, I can't help but think that he is punishing me for what happened the other day.Did I hurt his ego for what I did?Shame. I
Natasha's POV"I didn't know you drive," I commented as I stared at Valerian's strong arm and hand gripping the steering wheel.I roamed my eyes inside his car.I just know this is one hell of an expensive car by the looks of it.It looks so classy and beautiful, although I can't see everything since I'm in the shotgun seat with a seatbelt on, and the moves I can make are limited."Why won't you just use your speed to go to places that you want? Gasoline is expensive," I remarked.Valerian just remained silent, and his eyes stayed focused on the road with his forehead slightly creased.Why is he so serious?Instead of bugging him, I just closed my mouth and remained seated neatly in my seat.He let me out, and if I did something that might piss him off, he would change his mind, and worse, he would do something terrible to me. It's true that he needs me too, but it's Valerian Fenrir that we're talking about here. He's vicious and cannot be trusted.I should always be careful.My eyes
Natasha's POVAfter running in circles for a couple of minutes, I finally found the exit of Valerian's company. And I was right; the building is so big that my feet started to hurt already from all the walking and running that I did.Now that I'm finally outside, with all the noise of cars in the street and people walking on the sidewalk, I don't know where to go.I'm new here in the city, and I didn't get a chance to explore, so now, I'm as lost as a newborn child."Hi, can I ask?" I approached a woman walking in front of me, and she stopped in her tracks, nodding at me."Where do you think I can find--" I trailed off, unable to finish what was I'm saying, when I realized that I shouldn't talk to people because Valerian might use it to find me so quickly if I interacted with humans. I have to be careful."Never mind, I got it." I smiled at her before I turned my back on her.I'm in downtown right now, and I know it should be easy to find what I am looking for here.I started walking,
Natasha's POVI woke up earlier today just like what I planned to do.I'm used to waking up in the wee hours so this is not a problem for me.With extra caution, I went out of my room and went downstairs.From what I know, vampires don't sleep but I hope Valerian is in his room right now so I could freely do what I need to do.The whole house is so quiet when I walked across the living room to the kitchen. It's so cold and peaceful but it's almost eerie. All the old paintings hanging on the wall are pretty but the view of it is adding to the spooky ambiance, but I'm more scared by the fact that I live with a vampire. A dangerous one.The moment I was inside the kitchen, I quickly started doing what I need to do. I opened the cupboards and grabbed everything I will need in cooking. Every pot, ingredients, and spice.I carefully started cutting ingredients as I enjoy the peacefulness in Valerian's kitchen.Having to experience this kind of feeling after everything that happened is such
Natasha's POV"Tell me, Natasha." I took a step back scared of Valerian coming close to me.Our eyes met.His eyes are as sharp as a dagger and it's enough to make me tremble in my spot."Why do you want to kill me so bad?" he asked.His voice came out cold and bitter like as if he just got betrayed.Like as if I just betrayed him. . .I swallowed hard.I was already so scared but hearing the way he talks right now, I'm more than terrified."D-don't come near me." I managed to voice out my thoughts with a shaking voice.But saying those words have no use. It was just like a cue for Valerian to come closer."N-no," I stuttered as my palms touched his chest to stop him from coming closer.I know he's going to choke me again and I don't want that. I don't want to feel that anymore. Feeling helpless is the least of things I want right now."P-please," I begged.I am so dumb. I know he's a powerful vampire and yet I let my stupidity get over me.I should've thought this through. I should'v