Ciera’s pov
For a moment I would swore that I saw anger and pain in his blue eyes but in an instant, he was his usual self. ‘’It meant nothing, no need to tell him about that’’ he ordered me with his alpha tone. He put his hand at his messy black hair and I knew that’s a thing he does when he feels uncomfortable. Even when he masks his emotions, he is very good at that, I know him from when we were kids, he has some tellings. Unfortunately, not many.
I just said ‘’ok’’ and left with my head down. Tears were threating and I had to be in my room in order to cry myself out. Alpha tones had no use to me. I don’t know why maybe because I will turn to be wolfless. I just agreed not to tell Sebastian because I know how fragile is their relationship right now. I would not be the reason that they are not speaking to each other.
You would ask me why I think I may be wolfless. The thing is I smell different than the other wolves to be. I am probably an abomination as the wolf doctor told the alpha when I came in. They think that one of my parents was human. The thing is that there is no quarantine for children coming from a combination like that, that they will have a wolf.
The odds are against me because the chances are lower for children whose wolf parent is low-ranked. So, if one of my parents was a gamma and my mother was a human I have a 20% chance of having a wolf. The most likely story, they told me, is that one of my parents was a rogue and the other one was human.
So probably I’ll say goodbye to the pack life. If I am indeed wolfless, I’ll have to leave the pack and go leave as any other ordinary human except if I find a mate. But I have three more months to worry about that.
Maybe it would even be better for me. I have nothing keeping me here or making me happy except from Sebastian. I have no other friends, I’ll be a servant and Rachel will order me around even more, if that’s even possibly. Maybe someday she will even be succeeded at killing me. Only the thought of being tormented by her for my entire life it’s unbearable.
Going back to my room, a realization hits me. I kissed Pablo or should I say he kissed me and i returned the kiss? Does it make a difference? What does it mean? For me it was extraordinary. A simple kiss unfolded so many emotions that i had tried so many times to deny. For him it was nothing, just another meaningful kiss.
But where does this leave us? It won't change a thing between me and Pablo. He is not into me and I am not going to be just another girl that he fucked. The real question is how it affects me and Sebastian.
Can i still be with him when i kissed his brother and I liked it? I never felt that way kissing him. I tried to see him different but he is my best friend and it's better for us to stay just friends. He is one of my favorite people, my favorite person, but i just not have romantic feelings about him. I can’t keep leading him on, I have to break up with him.
Ok things are pretty clear I have to break up with Sebastian but keep my kiss to Pablo a secret. I want to tell him, I know that neither the break up nor the kiss would destroy our strong friendship but I know for sure that it will destroy the relationship that he has with his brother. Things are pretty fragile with this two for a year and I don’t want to damage their relationship beyond repair.
Ok my thoughts are all over the place, I need to relax and sleep but I can’t. I can’t stop my self from crying. I am just hugging my pillow like it would give me some kind of reinsurance. I feel like I betrayed my best friend and I am into a guy that I don’t have a chance with.
Enough with all that I have to stop crying and sleep. Tomorrow I’ll have to face Sebastian and broke up with him, so tomorrow will be an even worse day than today.
Sebastian’s pov Ciera almost died when Rachel tried to chocked her. I got the news from Sisi. Apparently, my brother Pablo saved her. Sisi is into me as long as I can remember, I don’t know why she came to tell me. Maybe because she is afraid that she is in trouble like Rachel and she wants to redeem herself. She is not that bad, she’ll never kill someone but stopping Rachel is another thing. She is blindfolded when it comes to her. Maybe I would have liked her if she wasn’t following Rachel and if she wasn’t so much power thirsty. She has long red hair like silk, crystal blue eyes and a sweet smile that you can kill for but I despise every girl that’s after power. Many boys tried to flirt with her but she didn’t encourage them. She supposedly has eyes only for me but I rather say she has eyes for me because of my position. Why not for my brother? That’s easy because he is Rachel’s pray. She isn’t that stupid to go after what Rachel wan
Sebastian’s pov "What happened?" I asked her full of concern and curiosity. I didn't even say good morning first. She looked at the floor, she didn't even look at me in the eyes. "we need to break up." She took my hand before she continued "You are my best friend, i don't want to mess things up with you. I love you so much, you are the most important person to me, i just don't have romantic feelings for you. I am so sorry, i tried." I pushed her chin up with my finger making her look at me ‘’ you decide to broke up with me the day that my brother decides to leaves, that’s a really big coincidence’’. I had seen it coming, her breaking up with me I mean, I knew that she wasn’t in love with me but doing it the same day that my brother decides to go to the training? That’s defiantly not a coincidence. Something must had happened. ‘’does your brother leaving? I had no idea. The break up has to do with my feelings
Sisi’s pov When I came in the packhouse I immediately felt my mate. My wolf tiara was going crazy inside my mind as we said mate. But our happiness for finding our mate didn’t last long. His girlfriend was holding his arm and I lost control. All I could see was red. My wolf took control and we both wanted the same thing, to kill the one who dared to take our mate away. Ciera was always holding his heart. I am sure that he is going to reject me in order to be with her. I was always into him, worshiping the ground that he walked. I was always intriguer by his cent. I was getting lost on his blue eyes same color as his brother but totally different to me. One look and I was feeling shivers and when he smiled, even when we were kids and he didn’t have all of his teeth, it made me feel butterflies. I was always completely in love with him and he was always ignoring me. Even when other boys were noticing me I had eyes only for him. I was even wanderi
Sebastian’s povI was thinking of rejecting her while he was changing into my t-shirt and the same time I was fighting myself from turning around and take a look. She must had already change because it took her a while. I could even smell our scents together meaning that she already wore my shirt. A possessive feeling got me while smelling our mixed scents, they meant to be mixed.I decided to ask her if she was ready but I didn’t really want to have a conversation right now before I even got my thoughts together. I wanted some time to think about us, about what I wanted and our options. Too bad that she was here now and we had to talk ‘’is everything good? Can I turn around?’’‘’yeah’’ she replied and I just turned around seeing mixed feelings in her eyes. It was the first time that I was paying attention at her eyes trying to look deep in her thoughts. I could even see love in her eyes. Was it because
Ciera’s povSince we broke up with Sebastian he was giving me hard time by ignoring me but I knew that he would come around. As soon as we got or the right foot again his mate tried to kill me. I can understand why, wolves are very possessive of their mates. Seeing someone holding his arm it must had triggered her. I don’t think she knew that we are friends. I hope that they come to an understanding and I will finally meet her in human form.As soon as they got upstairs Rachel came to me. She was wearing a nice red wine, long dress and she had her black hair up in a without imperfections ban. She had red lips and she seemed very glamorous but her eyes sowed all her hatred. ‘’How does it feel now that your boyfriend found his mate?’’ her voice was pure venom.‘’I am happy that my best friend found his mate and I am looking forward to meet her. Now if you excuse me I am on serving duty tonight.’’ I
A week afterSebastian’s povSisi is ignoring me for a week now, after we slept together and I got up to see why Ciera left. My wolf is winning at my head missing his mate but she asked me for space. Her exact words were ‘’she will always come first for you, I don’t want to keep running after you while you are chasing her. I think it would be better to reject each other in order for me to avoid further disappointment’’.I was trying to convince her that Ciera is only my friend now but both of us weren’t sure about the mating bond anyway. She asked me for space and time and I gave her that because it was what I need too in order to think straight about the most important decision of my life.One week had passed without us talking or seeing each other and today I was going to her house to see her. Me and my wolf we were missing her terrible. Damn it mating bond. I wasn’t sure about what I wanted but I decided
Pavlo’s pov"Hey, can i speak to the king?" He laughed like i said something funny. "The king doesn't speak with anyone without a reason’’ he said arrogantly like I was no one . "Can i at least speak with beta Harry?" I knew that beta Harry wasn't there but maybe that way i would get some information about his whereabouts."Beta isn't even here, he is out searching for his mate with king's approval" he said like everyone knew about that and maybe indeed everyone knew or at least everyone who is interested on gossip."Did he found her?" i tried to seem like i was interested on the gossip but i was really interested about their location. "Do you see him here? That means that he didn't" that guard wasn't friendly and he was irritating both me and my wolf. But even i knew not to mess with the king's guard. "Ok thanks mate" i tried to sound friendly.What was really happening? If Ciera was his mate why they didn't get back? If they were
Ciera’s pov‘’How far way is the royal territory?’’ I asked him trying to break the silence between us in the car. ‘’We are not going there’’ he told me as it was nothing. ‘’where are we going than?’’ I was staring to get afraid, I was in a car with a stranger without knowing our destination. Can it get worse than that?‘’We are going to another pack until you are ready’’ he said looking at me this time like studying me. ‘’Ready for what?’’ now I was less frighten and more curious. ‘’Look I know that you have many questions and I would have been waited until we arrive to tell you but I can smell your fear. Let me tell you a story, ok?’’ he is eyes looked genuine, I could see that he meant no harm to me. ‘’um, ok’’ I agreed to hear the story but I didn’t know how it would be related to me or h