It was April 23rd, one month after the accident. So far, my bruises had somehow healed except for the tiny violet marks still visible. However, I looked a lot better than the last time I looked in the mirror.
It was still summer in the Philippines, which made me puff out a great sigh the moment I realized that I'd be doing nothing while waiting for my parents to send me home to them, to Los Angeles finally, so I could at least have my life back.
Things wouldn't be different, but I'd feel more like myself. I'd be in school with my friends Daisy, Jennifer and Lauren, and I'll find Kyle and ask him directly.
That could be one of the many reasons my parents wanted me to be here so that I couldn't see Kyle and I won't be able to find out what happened.
I chewed on the insides of my cheeks and drifted into my subconscious.
I didn't count out the possibility that Kyle might have been my boyfriend or best friend, something like that, given that there was no other reason why I knew every single detail about him, but if he was, then how come he wasn't there at the hospital?
How come I have yet to receive any messages or calls from him?
And how come my family seemed uneasy when I asked about him?
I also considered that he might be the one with me that night, and something terrible had happened to him, and my family didn't want me to know.
I shivered at the thought and wished I had my shelf of books right now.
It was one of the things I was starting to really miss. Back in LA, in times like this, where I had nothing to do and was seemingly distracted, I would lie in bed, reread one of the books on my shelf, and reread it the next day until I could almost memorize the entire thing.
I'm an avid fan of reading. I loved J.K. Rowling's Harry Potter series, James Patterson's Maximum Ride Series and his other books like Suzanne's letter to Nicholas, Rick Riordan's Percy Jackson series, The Kane Chronicles, Heroes of Olympus, the House of Night series, Blue Bloods and many others I can't name now.
I sighed for the second time when my aunt called my name and refused to get my butt off her black couch in the living room as I flipped the television from one channel to the next.
I had to be grateful for cable, but I rarely watch TV.
I pressed the remote I was holding, returning to the star movies where The Scorpion King was showing.
"Kate, I said get dressed." Aunt Hilda placed her hands on her hips and gave me the 'aunt glare.'
Aunt glare was a common glare that only an aunt could give, mostly a stare matched with a patient glower.
I breathed another sigh and finally dropped my feet on the gray carpet, which surrounded only the center table and the black couch until the television set.
My aunt pulled me then and pushed me up the stairs.
"Get your big butt moving. I have strict orders from your mother to keep you out of this house and get you busy. So hurry up; we'll go shopping."
Shopping. I cringed at the thought.
My mother never brought me to shop with her and Kelsea. I prefer to stay back home or hang out with my friends. I let them buy me clothes and whatnot.
I'm not too fond of malls and too-crowded places. It was one of the things I really couldn't take.
"Aunt Hilda, can't I just sleep all day?" I whined, dragging each step to go up to my room.
"No, young lady, you must see how much you are missing." I sighed.
Those words again.
I wasn't missing anything. With my lost memory, a puzzled head about who Kyle was in my life, and a complete no contact from my friends, I don't see in any way that I was missing anything.
"Okay," I answered, knowing I had no fight against my aunt and mother even when we were miles apart.
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Five shopping bags and one medium size Zagu cookies n' cream flavored later, I was exhausted.
Aunt Hilda was a fashion guru and addicted to clothes. She had already bought two pairs of jeans and a shirt from one shop, but she was yet to be satisfied. I have yet to tour the entire mall, but I was sure I had passed every store here.
I begged my aunt to allow me to sit by the fountain and wait for her while she went shopping. She wasn't scared of losing money, that much I figured out watching how carefree she pinpoints an item and instantly bought it, on cash.
I breathed a sigh of relief as I took the last sip of my drink. I stretched my feet a little and had my eyes wander around.
The atmosphere and the people were no different in LA. Families, friends, couples, and students hang out and enjoy each other's company.
I sighed.
How I wish my family were here.
Then I wondered, if the accident didn't happen, all of this wouldn't have happened.
But really, what happened?
How did I bang my head so hard and land in the hospital, waking up a day after it occurred and remembering nothing of it?
Lastly, Kyle.
He must be the key to all of this. If I could talk to him, reach him, contact him, then I'll have my answers.
I let out another sigh, my eyes turning toward a corner. I blinked, my breath hitching.
I wasn't a firm believer in luck or wishes coming true in an instant. When I was a kid, maybe, but as a grownup, I found out the truth, and it hurt more than a slap on the cheek could, but at least I wasn't being fooled any longer.
Luck is only another term for people who had been given opportunities and were able to grab them just like a coincidence.
Wishes, well, they would only happen if someone makes it happen.
That's how simple I think and how complicated I like to think.
"No way," I murmured, returning to the object of my concern as he stood outside the mall across the road. The persona was looking straight at me, and he was smiling.
In his plain black shirt, denim and black and blue Converse, my heart leapt, a sense of recognition.
Kyle.
"Kate!" My Aunt's voice made me lose my concentration. For a minute, I was tempted to ignore her and run towards Kyle, but in those few seconds, I felt my hands being gripped and shaken gently. "Katherine! Are you okay?" Aunt Hilda's hands were all over my face all of a sudden, and I tried to focus on what she was saying. I risked tearing my gaze away to face my Aunt, quickly making an effort to look back as fast as I could. I was desperately hoping my eyes were only deceiving me. He couldn't be here, let alone know I was here too. However, a part of me somehow clung to the hope that it wasn't merely a speck of my imagination. Unfortunately, he was no longer there. My chest suddenly felt tight, my frustration turning into confusion. I forced my eyes shut, willing my mind to come back to the present. "Kate." I reopened my eyes and gave my full attention towards Aunt Hilda. Worry was creased in between her forehead. On impulse, I glanced at the same spot where I thought I s
'Meet me in that same place tomorrow, 11 pm sharp.' I repeated his exact words over and over again. That brief moment overwhelmed me so much that I pressed end before either of us could say anythng more. Thus, I received that text right after. I wasn't able to sleep at all. I was jumpy the following day that I agreed to whatever my Aunt wanted me to do. She probably regretted bringing me to the mall; we stayed indoors today and had people come over. They were Allen's friends. Her goal was to get me to meet a few peers and keep me busy. At 11 am, I rode along the jokes and games that Allen and his friends had thought of. There was Steve, Tristan and Rain for his mates, and there was Chenny, Jessica and Rachel for the girls who were their girlfriends. Allen just broke up with his' for reasons he won't share with me, so he was still moving on. By 4 in the afternoon, I was forced to wear a two-piece swimsuit and chill with the crew by the pool in my Aunt's backyard. It was
The wind was hyper and wild tonight as I approached our meeting place, where I saw Kyle a day ago. It took a lot of effort to stop myself from appearing too eager, which I really was, but I didn't want to give that impression. I already felt embarrassed enough. There was no need to give him more bullets. Upon stepping on the last step of the stairs, I reminded myself to breathe as I saw Kyle, from afar, leaning on the movie pictures, wearing faded denim, still the same sneakers and a white shirt with his favorite black leather jacket. He met my stare halfway and gave me that heart-stopping smile. "You made it," He uttered. His voice rang like a melody in my ears. I gulped and nodded like this was a regular thing we often did together. He leapt away from where he was leaning and hugged me tightly. I didn't know how to react. My heart thundered inside my chest, and my brain short-circuited. Kyle buried his face in my hair. I felt nervous, but inhaling his scent didn't feel
"Kate, Kate honey, what are you doing on the couch?" I blinked, unable to process what Aunt Hilda had just said. I found my Aunt's face hovering above me, once again that worried expression plastered on it. Couch? What was I doing on the couch? Pieces of what transpired the night before came to mind. "Um," I started, still disoriented. My eyes caught the television set and uttered the first thing that came to mind. "I uh watched movies." I lied, then stared at the television safely unplugged and not running. My Aunt stared at me, brow raised. I cleared my throat. "Then I got too lazy to get to my room, so I decided to sleep here." I shrugged and stared down at myself. Eff, who am I fooling? I was wearing a full going-out attire except for my sneakers which had been taken off and placed on the carpet. "Hmm," Aunt Hilda eyed me, smelling the little white lie. I bit my lower lip. "Sorry," I said, sounding really guilty. Aunt Hilda shook her head at me and smiled brightly.
Calling my sister was a big mistake. My hands trembled, and I felt like the world was spinning beneath my feet. The muscles holding my legs steady turned to jelly. Tears streamed down my face before I could fully process what that meant. My chest felt tight, and as I fell to the floor, I hugged my knees, sobbing bitterly. The truth was a hard slap to the face. Time made no difference right now. However, I couldn't make any noise and wake Aunt Hilda. Explaining what was going on and why I was crying could lead to me spilling the truth. The last thing I needed was to complicate the matters at hand. But should I really think about that right now? I just learned that Kyle, my Kyle, gave his life to save mine. And yet, he was here. That was the part that I couldn't grasp. Wiping the tears angrily, I took a moment to consider what to do. I wasn't sure what the next steps were. In my mind, all I wanted was to hug Kyle and forget I even called my sister. That would be easier to
PART 2 Death is a fortuitous event, unstoppable and cannot be undone. What death had taken, it could never be returned. But what if you were given a second chance to live? A second life with no restriction except for one: You can never go back to how your life had been. Would this second chance to live be worth living? — KYLE Some people would need a gun pointed right into their skull or a death threat before lying to someone they love. But me? All I needed was my fear and selfishness in order to justify what I did to Kate. Well, truth be told, I wasn't even supposed to see her. I wasn't even allowed to talk to her. Hell, I should have remained dead in her knowledge. But I defied all those restrictions. And for what? The answer was quite obvious. I needed Kate. I needed her more than I did when everything was normal. I scoffed. Normal. I don't think I would be able to feel that way ever again. From the moment I opened my eyes and realized that I was not allowed to retur
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