AUSTIN
Maddened, saddened by the death of Avalon. She was sweet, tolerant and easy going. I had much doubts that I would ever fall for another. I had no patience to start over, no patience to create a new profound loving bond. I marched to the stables in search for a new lover. Perhaps not a new lover, Avalon was irreplaceable my beautiful horse... I needed a temporary companion just as good as Avalon had been over the years. Frustrated, I could not find the stable boy. Grover had said he had to be somewhere in here, going by the name of Thomas. The unholy stench of manure and filthy straw almost knocked my boots off. I came to a halt when I heard giggling from the back where a negro girl was sat on hay exchanging saliva from the negro stable boy. It gave my skin goosebumps. Absolutely nauseating.
"I'd leave you two to breed on hay like the animals you're but I have no time to entertain wild things..." I said cooly making them jump off each other in an instant. A chuckle escaped my lips, imbecile negroes. The girl immediately turned to look away and buttoned her blouse... but my eyes had managed to observe a small glimpse, of her round bosoms that sat on her chest. It did not do anything to me, perhaps I had seen better. Perhaps I should have been looking but it did not matter. I had seen it all, nothing excited me about the body of a woman. It did not ignite fire that made my manhood stand up and refuse to sit backdown like an awakened stray dog.
"I must apologize Master Austin, I had not expected you to be here earlier..." He said nervously. A tall strong built young man with dark skin let out his hand expectting me to shake it but I did not.
"You'd better be dazed if you think for a second I'd shake your hand. Who know's where it has been?" I stared at the girl, who flushed with embarrassment behind him.
"My apologies." She finally spoke. Her eyes on the ground not looking at me, I paid no attention to her. "I will be leaving..." She added."As you should..." I muttered. "I can not fathom just how low your standards must be to allow a stable boy to take you on hay. It's revolting, I pity you." I immediately chuckled. "No no actually women like you disgust me." I saw how she died a little hearing me say that. My confidence grow much more, as if a fed on her insecurities and embarrassment. Her lover could not defend her as I gave him a death glare.
Try me, just try me. He wouldn't dare, sure he was my height and strong built but there was not much he could do. I fed off their helplessness. She turnt to walk away...
"You dare walk away did I dismiss you?" She looked at me with fury in her eyes, this was exciting. Letting out another laugh, I looked down at her. Showing her just how much of filth she was. "What if I also wanted a little taste of that piece of pie on hay..."
Strong willed, she marched towards me to give me a hot scorching slap. I had not been expecting it.Disappointing if she thought it would upset me, not at all infact it only awakened my little friend down there.
"MERRI!!!" The young man yelled at her. I bit on my lip. My skin still dazed with heat from her assault. So this was the Merri that mother so often spoke of interesting. They had treated her too way that she assumed we were on the same stature.
"He has done nothing but insult me Thomas!" She whispered yelled at her lover.
"You ignore it, I always tell you to ignore it. Jesus Christ, do you want to get us killed by your recklessness?"
Unfortunately I interrupted their squabble by walking over tasting the bits on metallic on the corner of my lips. I had to give it to her, she aimed really good. I'd aim better."Come here..." I told her asking to step forward. She did, her lover stepped back.
"Master Austin, she has quite the temper but we're working on it."
"You're forgiven Thomas." I told him, seeing how relieved he suddenly seemed.As soon as she was close enough to reach, I returned the favor. Giving her a backhanded wallop that she landed on her arse. Thomas was quick to kneel down and check if she was doing alright. "See Merri, I'm a strong patriot of gender equality. It was only right, I return your assault." With that I gave them a smile, walking away.
She stared at me with turbulence, I found it cute. It was really cute that she thought she could assault me and get away with it. My parents had clearly spoiled this orphan rat to the point of her losing her identity.
She was still a negro and would always be a negro. If I kept a wild dog in the house for years, it did not change that it was still a wild dog. Walking away like nothing happened.
"Thomas, do you have any Percheron breed?" I questioned.
Forcing himself to move away from her, he followed behind me and showed me the multiple horses that they had in the stable. I caught a glimpse of her walking out with the back door. Tears running down her cheeks, she was quick to wipe them. It was really sad some would suggest but not me.That night before I slept, I stroked my manhood to the thought of her. Would she hit me while I gave her a thorough loving? Would she put on a fight? I absolutely adored a good fight. Would she bite her bottom lip out of anger and stare at me like a venomous snake. Would she allow me to place my manhood inbetween her bosoms. I doubt it not that she had a choice anyways but the thought of it brought me to a satisfying climax. The grip on my manhood loosened as I let out my train of kids that have to die in such a shameful manner. Going straight to the linen sheets instead of the warmth of a woman. It did not bother me, soon enough I'd be placing them somewhere warmer. Merrigold was really fascinating, no negro had ever laid a hand on me. It was exciting, now I could have a fair fight of bliss. Soon after I had showed them a good time, they always pretended to not enjoy my thorough shagging... I wanted something different, a good challenge, a hard nut to crack. I was tired of crybabies who could not handle my barbarity. Just how much would it take for her to crack like the rest of them? To fall inlove with the thought of me. As soon as they did, I always left them begging. I'd lose interest. Women, I found them inept besides birthing.
AUSTIN"Mother, before you leave... I need the financial book keeping." I said in a hurry. If things were going to change, I needed to be in control of every aspect. Things around here were about to be modified. I respected the way my parents had always handled it but it was time for a little discipline. The negroes here were far too comfortable compared to the Gallagher's."Merri handles the book keeping.." My mother summoned taking a sip of her tea. I furrowed my eyebrows waiting for her to tell me it was a little banter to ruffle my feathers."I beg your pardon?""Son, Merrigold is remarkably intelligent." My father chipped in.Running my hand through my jet black hair, I bit on my lip very hard not pleased at all. "You taught that rat mathematics? Mother Father, are you mental? No wonder she dare slapped me. What else will you inform me that she dines with us and has a room in the house. Pathetic and very illegal."My mother shook her head whispering to my father as if I was not t
MERRYGOLDWe had promised each other to abstain. To save ourselves until the right moment. Thomas was very understanding, he never rushed me into anything that I did not quite comfortable with. I had always known of Austin Cunningham but with him being eight years older than me, he had already been off to boarding school. On holidays he preferred to visit their umpteen family all over Europe and the West. I suppose I could say, I had never stumbled upon him. For a while, I noted that he was the black sheep. His brother was kind and respectful so was his sisters, like their very religious parents. They treated us fairly as human beings, they gave us a little dignity and Mrs Cunningham loved to occupy herself with bible classes where she discreetly taught us as kids around the ranch how to read, some simple mathematics here and there. She would always whisper that we had to pretend we were reading our bibles and that there was no other activity taking place other than that. Selfless and
MERRYGOLDHe walked about past my front door more than I could count with both my fingers and toes. My room was after all on the other side of the kitchen, I was used to that. Sometimes, I assumed it was to alert me that I should be awake.. after four am, I was always awake. Who could sleep knowing that he was somewhere out there just waiting for me to be vulnerable. Why was he awake at four am? He was always roaming around dropping utensils and this and that anything, stomping his feet whenever he reached past my door. I knew it was him, my heart beat picked up. For a while, he ignored me at which I was glad but still left me anxious. Why would he befriend Thomas but ignore me? Not that I had wanted any sort of friendship or anything with someone as vile, rude and malevolent as him. Looks were truly deceiving beneath it all, beneath that intimidating facade, I assumed he had horns waiting to manifest."I'm cutting off payments." He said nonchalantly lazing back in his father's seat.
MERRYGOLDCuddling to the warmth of my blanket, I said grace thanking God for my life, the people in it and my daily bread. Sleep came easy considering how long of a day it had been. I had this nightmare for days and days on end where I imagined Austin sneaking in and taking advantage of me. In this dream, I fought hard and ran far enough to hide behind big brother and Thomas.In reality... I failed—In reality, his hands swooped over my body in the dark. His breath behind my back watching me sleep. His eyes heavy with lust. Assuming it was another nightmare, I woke up breathing and sweating heavily after feeling his presence beside me... touching and caressing me. His tongue made contact with my neck, I felt my body shut down from fear. I couldn't voice my thoughts or scream. Where was the this confidence that I always had? Where had it gone? Where was my determination to fight back? Where had my daring courage to kick him in the nuts go? Where was my boldness to scream, to run, to—
I had no interest in her whatsoever till Thomas, revealed that even he had not touched her. The competitor or rather antagonist in me wanted, needed, suddenly craved to be the first. Merrigold was not all that appealing, I had sexually been with negroes who were much better looking over the past years. She was as thin as a stick, her lack of breasts weren't all that appealing either. She could have been flat chested for the hell of it but goodness... the meander of every hip and curve, although petite her backside moved me a little. Her structure could have been sculpture by the God's, it made up for her lemon sized breasts. I had assumed if she ate the right amount of food she would not be as thin as she is. She had the privilege of staying in the house and working in the house but she looked starved her collar bone scared me, almost screamed fragile. It was only recently that I realized, she gave her every share of food served in the house to her brother or Thomas or the niec
I have not had a date in about a century, are you sure I look quite alright... Mrs. Brown." I asked one of our oldest housekeepers, she had been there when I was born, when I went off to boarding school, upon my return. She had always been there.I could not recall a moment in my life where she had not been present. I had respect for my mother and Mrs. Brown. They were very close to my heart. Mrs. Brown gave me a soft smile... "You look handsome as always Master Austin.""What happened to calling me your dear Austin?" I teased."You're a grown man now.""I still want to be called 'my dear Austin'..." I gave her a pout."Ohhh I know that pout, caused me grief when you were a little boy. You were a big crier, such a big baby." She chuckled reminiscing.I appreciated my mother but I knew all too well that all she did was give birth and hand the child to Mrs. Brown to take care of. My mother had her good night's sleep while Mrs. Brown did all her motherly duties. My mother could not r
In he entered the kitchen with his Remington hunting rifle, he held it so close like an expert. A giggle followed behind him, I could not help but feel some sort of annoyance as I continued to cut the green peppers and onion."I could have sworn you were a professional.." She said softly followed by a giggle. Her voice reminded me that of a child, a little girl.Anything Austin did, she was wildly impressed. She held onto his arm as she continued to serenade him with compliments. With the hatred I felt for him, I'd never take pride in complimenting him. I saw him as a vulture, a hyena that preys on the helpless and already dead."My best mates father Joshua Gallagher used to take us hunting as kids. I could have done a better job honestly...""Those helpless birds were lucky then." She smiled dreamily watching him."I would not have wanted to look murderous with a stunning lady in my presence.."With a pink tint on her cheeks. "You look rather handsome and invincible in such a sta
"I told you, he was as friendly as could be..." Thomas said taking a spoonful of his food.For the first time, I felt the urge to roll my eyes at him.For someone whom I had been missing so much, I only felt nothing but annoyance.Would they still think Austin was a saint if I told them about all his deeds... how he had sneaked in and invaded every bit of privacy till I could practically breathe the same air as him. For something meant to disgust me, how scared and fearful I had been...I found myself wishing I had given in. I found myself, waiting for him to budge through the door and start a squabble with me for what so ever reason that it would land him in between my thighs.I gulped down a feeling of guilt when I looked at Thomas who could not stop letting me know about horse facts that I had no interest in knowing.He looked at me adoringly and assured me he missed me so much.I missed him as well..."Merri?" My brother called, I diverted my attention to him.It was as if I exp