Looking out the window for what seemed like the tenth time. As Austin tried to keep calm and sit down he could not keep his foot steady as it tapped on with frustration. Harriet had went to a church convention... whenever she was present she would not let him breath. She wanted and needed for him to always be with her. She seemed needy for his attention and it ticked Austin off. He constantly told himself that he needed a woman to keep him in check. The beast in him could easily unravel and he needed to be calm. He needed to have something going on for him especially with Harriet. Alone, he would go mad. As much as she was aggravating, she kept him in check from going to see Merrigold.Deciding to take a walk around the plantation something he never did. Although he'd never admit it, he hoped he would see her even if it was from afar. Just to know that she was doing alright and that she had settled in well. His mind kept replaying scenes from when they were together and alone. How had
He blinked awake in the dark, alone... afraid. He had dreamt of her yet again, it had been years since he thought of her. He could not distinguish if he loved or hated her. She had played a big part in his life, she built him up just as she destroyed him. Austin thought of her, his mother's announcement had not set well with him. Why did his brother feel the need to return after all these years? He felt nothing but anger for his parents for allowing them back into their lives... Austin felt hurt, destroyed. Simultaneously he felt some sort of excitement and mischief.—* Flashback *"Austin sweetheart?" His sixty-four year old mother stood up to give him a hug. He had not visited them in so long. His father held onto his cup of tea, nonetheless he was happy Austin had arrived announced. Austin looked at his mother, she looked fragile and sweet, like she had always been. He wondered why did the 'nice gene' pass him by. After roughly manhandling Merrigold, he had to leave. He could not
Boarding school, Austin attended boarding school far from home in a different city. It was still very much close to his brother's new home. Thirteen year old Austin had recently started secondary, he felt proud for having been accepted into the prestigious school that Joshua Gallagher had told him about. He had been told that all the Gallagher brothers went there and that William would as well. A prestigious all boys boarding school in the outskirts east England. Austin did not wish to be separated from his bestfriend, he made sure he convinced his parents to take him there although they never approved of the Gallagher's. They found Joshua Gallagher's opinion invalid but still opened up to the idea to make their son happy.With the boarding school being close to the new home his brother had recently bought with his wife. Austin would visit often on weekends or whenever his trunk had been finished off all the snacks. He would go with William at times, have dinner there, run back to the
I got a tad bit comfortable, a regret I'd always have for the rest of my miserable days. I blame myself for getting comfortable, for thinking Austin would treat me any better than an animal. For thinking maybe just maybe he liked me? He wanted me? Maybe I had the upper hand. Austin was bonkers... even worse than I had assumed. When he said he'd have me whenever he wanted to he was right. I hated everyone, I did not want to see anybody. His cologne repulsed me, I could smell it all over my body. I closed my eyes trying to blink these tears away. Tried to imagine a few months back when I was somewhat happy without knowing his existence, when my life was simple. I had always said I was strong, I would do this that in a certain situation but here I was disappointed with myself for letting it overrule me. When the situation came to life, I was powerless close to useless. He looked like someone I couldn't recognize, not that I knew him. Perhaps I never knew Austin, I thought I did but I had
"Uh... Faith... thank you!" Austin said softly, he never said thank you. It was clear he was itching for something. Faith was afraid, after what happened to Merrigold everyone else feared Austin much more. They knew what he was capable of and wanted to remain in his good books no matter what. It was all talk, Merrigold's experience had been everyone's talk and gossip."...have you seen Merrigold?""Uh no sir, I believe she does not want to see anyone as I've been told. I wanted to visit but that was all they informed me of."Austin only nodded taking a sip of his coffee. As much as he pretended to seem cooly calm and collected. Inside, he felt it. The guilt and regret, not knowing what had gotten into him. Something he had discovered in this time frame was. Merrigold meant more to him than he'd like to admit, she had made him feel multiple things none of them love. It was the first time he forgot about Stella whenever he was intimate with Merrigold. For that reason, when Stella has tr
"Do you want to maybe take a walk...?"I shook my head."Just to get some fresh air and stretch your legs."With my somber face pressed against my pillow, I shook my head."Anything you want maybe? I can surely get it for you. Even if it means Faith has to steal from the main house... the fancy white people stuff." My sister in-law joked. I only turned to look the other side."You can talk to me about anything, Merri. Anything what so ever. I know this isn't easy and it won't be easy but I'm here for you. We love you, Thomas and James love you and they will be back soon. Everything will be alright.""I-I'm f-fine." I told her, clearing my throat as I had not spoken in a while. It felt odd, my throat hurt. My tears had dried up, my lips were dry. I licked them feeling the rough patch that had mounted on from my lack of care. My nose was oily, my eyes were dull and gloomy."Oh good lord Merri you spoke, I'm so glad. I was beginning to worry. Do you want me to undo these cornrows and mak
"You're a despicable human being!" Thomas spat in Austin's face. With his hands tied behind his back, Austin could have easily taken advantage of the situation but he wouldn't stoop that low. Austin was well aware that they were already buttered up as it is. He had came to inspect at the local police station if they really deserved to be set free or not. James was a good person no matter what! Austin liked him, regardless of the little damage he had done to Austin's face. As for Thomas, Austin loathed him. He hated him so much for having what he could never have... Merrigold's heart, Merrigold's purity, Merrigold's trust. Thomas has it all. Austin wished he could leave Thomas and allow them to set James free. Austin wished Thomas death as he took his handkerchief to wipe Thomas disgusting saliva. Austin wished Thomas death, he was so overprotective of Merrigold, he did not want her with any other man. He knew it would never be him. Merrigold would never want him, not after the damage h
Accepting her fate. Merrigold packed the little that she had as Grover stood by the door. Miriam and James begged her not to leave but she told them she had to. She smiled widely and told them she had healed and was ready to continue with work and her life. With knowing what Austin was capable of, she did not delay. Blaming herself for every misfortune her brother and Thomas has went through, she decided it was only right to give them a break and for her to deal with her fate. Thomas had told her that he would always love her but he needed space to think and properly feel out all the hurt. He could not keep it all bottled up, her face reminded him of her betrayal. Merri was afraid, if anyone had to suffer... it had to be her. She knew if she did not go, he would only look for a way to hurt those close to her. She did not want to play any games like before, or entertain anything. She simply wanted to give the people she called family, their peace. Merri felt as though she had been a bur