MasukThe night air of Yogyakarta outside the Swasemesta Conservatory felt sharp against her skin as Michiko stepped out through the side door of the main building. The watch on her wrist read a quarter past eleven. The campus had gone completely quiet, leaving only a row of garden lamps glowing amber, their light reflected across asphalt still slick from the evening's earlier drizzle.
Normally, hours like this were Michi's favorite—a stretch of stillness to settle her frayed nerves after a full day wrestling with classical scores and the weight of everyone's expectations. But tonight, her thoughts were split cleanly in two: half of her still stuck on the sentence Rimba had refused to let go of her head, the other half still turning over how she was supposed to answer Anindya's message, which she hadn't touched since it arrived.
This is the first time I haven't been in a hurry to leave after a rehearsal.
The line kept looping in her head like an old cassette tape caught on a snag. Damn it. Michi shook her head slightly, quickening her pace toward the motorbike parking area where her scooter sat waiting in a dimly lit corner.
"Heading home alone this late, Arunika? Not worried the conservatory ghost is going to snatch you?"
A lazy baritone voice suddenly cut through the quiet of the parking lot, followed by the scrape of a shoe sole against wet gravel.
Michi flinched, spinning around on reflex with her fists already half-raised. Under the dim glow of a parking-lot fluorescent light, Rimba stood leaning against his black sport bike, a full-face helmet held in his left hand, his black bomber jacket looking slightly damp at the shoulders.
Michi lowered her hands, letting out an irritated huff as she tried to steady the breath that had briefly caught in her throat. "You have got to stop doing that—popping up out of nowhere like some kind of ghost! Are you trying to give me a heart attack?"
Rimba chuckled softly, stepping closer at an unhurried pace as he peeled off his leather gloves. "Not trying to give you a heart attack. Just wanted to make sure the dean's beloved model student actually makes it home in one piece."
"Our arrangement's already finished for tonight, Maestro. And my head's pounding, but not because of the bar count—it's because I have to keep dealing with an arrogant guy whose favorite hobby is picking fights with my life," Michi shot back, sharp, even though deep down she knew the real reason was far more complicated than that.
Rimba stopped exactly two steps away from her. His expression shifted, suddenly serious, losing every trace of the usual mischievous smirk that lived on his mouth.
"Hey," Rimba called, quietly. His voice came out noticeably lower than usual, almost swallowed whole by the soft rustle of the night wind.
"What now?" Michi snapped, defensive, though the rigid line of her shoulders had already started to loosen, just slightly.
Rimba took a short breath, then let it out slowly. "About that secret... about your drumming, back at the studio."
Thud. Michi's heart seemed to skip a beat entirely. Every muscle in her body went rigid at once. One threat from Anindya earlier that afternoon hadn't even had time to settle, and now here was Rimba, reopening the same topic all over again.
"Relax," Rimba continued, as though he could read the panic churning behind her eyes. "I have absolutely no intention of leaking your little secret talent to anyone on campus. Not because I'm trying to be some kind of saint... but because I want that secret to stay ours—just between the two of us, down there in the basement studio."
Michi went still. She studied his face closely, searching for a crack, a hidden trap, some lie buried underneath that sentence. But all she found there was plain, unguarded honesty—something she never, in a hundred years, would have expected to come out of Rimba Arya Swara's mouth.
"Why?" Michi finally whispered, her voice weaker now, stripped of every sharp edge she usually kept up as armor. "Why aren't you using it to bring me down?"
Rimba smiled—not the maddening, crooked smirk he usually wore, but something thinner, warmer, entirely sincere. He raised one hand, hesitated for half a second, then reached out and patted the top of Michi's head, gently.
"Because underneath all the nagging and that stiff mask you wear, Arunika... I know that it's only behind that drum kit you can actually breathe easy, without having to pretend to be someone else," Rimba said quietly, his eyes fixed on her, steady. "And for some reason... I like the messy, fully-alive version of you in that studio a whole lot more than the lonely model student standing up on a stage."
The words came out so plainly, so simply, that they crashed straight through the last wall Michi had spent years building around herself. Her throat closed up without warning, some unfamiliar warmth spreading through her chest. In all this time, not a single person—not even her own family—had ever truly seen the exhaustion hiding underneath her perfection, let alone someone who didn't even know yet just how deep the secret she was actually keeping really went.
Before Michi could find her voice to answer, Rimba had already turned, walking back toward his motorbike and pulling on his helmet.
"Go home, it's late," Rimba said from behind his half-open visor, kicking the engine to life until it rumbled softly into the silence of the night. "Tomorrow, two in the afternoon, I'll be waiting in the basement studio. Don't be late, Maestro of Classical Music."
Without waiting for a reply, Rimba twisted the throttle and rode off through the conservatory gates, leaving Michi standing frozen, alone, beneath the dim glow of the streetlight.
Michi reached up and touched the top of her head, right where his hand had been, feeling her heartbeat suddenly go erratic. She dug into her pocket and stared at her phone screen, still showing Anindya's unanswered message. For a moment, she thought about replying that very night, explaining everything before it could spiral into some wild rumor. But her fingers hovered over the keyboard, unable to find any words that felt safe enough to type.
She slid the phone back into her bag, choosing instead to put the problem off until tomorrow. The fortress she had spent so long building, so carefully maintaining, had now cracked from two directions at once—one, because of someone who had started standing too close to be pushed away; the other, because of someone who had started standing too close to be avoided.
One year later.The main auditorium of the Swasemesta Music Conservatory was packed with visitors that night, far exceeding its normal capacity for the Graduating Class Culmination Night—an annual tradition in which the top graduates from each department are given one more chance to perform in front of the public before officially stepping out through their alma mater's gates. Strings of white fairy lights had been draped along the balcony railings for the occasion, and the smell of fresh flowers from the front-row arrangements drifted faintly all the way backstage.Backstage, Michiko Arunika Suryokusumo stood in front of a dressing mirror, wearing a long black gown, elegant yet simple. But unlike every formal performance she'd given over the past four years, this time there was one detail she had never once allowed to appear on an official conservatory stage before: a pair of drumsticks tucked neatly inside a small bag hanging from the side of her dressing chair
Two weeks passed since that night on the porch, and slowly, the rhythm of their life together began finding its shape again.The campaign video never resurfaced. Not because Surya had truly given up—Rimba knew his father well enough to know that a man like that never truly stops, only waits for a more advantageous moment. The last update to reach Rimba's ears was that his father's media team had their hands full managing the agenda ahead of next year's election season, and for the time being, neither Rimba's name nor Michi's was useful enough to bother with. The threat hadn't disappeared. It was only sleeping, waiting for a better time to wake up again.What he knew for certain was that, for the first time in years, he was no longer carrying every anxiety that surfaced from his father's shadow alone. Every time that name crossed his mind, he told Michi about it, sometimes Bayu too, sometimes Kelana over the long phone calls they'd started making a regular habit e
Michi was rearranging some sheet music in her room when the notification sound on her phone rang out—a message from Rimba, brief but different from the empty messages she'd been receiving so often lately, the kind that used to arrive hours late with nothing real inside them.I'm outside your house. Can I come in? I promise, this time I'll tell you everything.She stared at that screen for a long time before finally heading downstairs, opening the front door with a hand that trembled slightly. Rimba stood there, his face tired but his eyes showing something different from the past few weeks—no longer that evasive look, but a seriousness he rarely ever showed.They sat on the front porch, among the potted flowers Akari usually tended, lit by the dim yellow light that evening, the same porch light that had watched over every homecoming and every quiet argument this family had ever had."Chi, I'm sorry," Rimba said, starting with
Maharani's dance studio was still lit even though the hour had grown late, dim lights illuminating the wooden floor her students usually used to practice Pakarena dance in the afternoons. The building was otherwise silent, the kind of silence that only settles into a place built for music and movement once both have gone quiet for the night. Rimba found his mother alone there, sitting cross-legged in the middle of the empty room, staring silently at the large mirror reflecting her own image back at her."Not asleep yet, Ma?" Rimba stepped inside, sitting down on the floor not far from his mother."Hard to sleep with a head this full of thoughts." Maharani turned, smiling thinly at the sight of her eldest son's tired face, far more tired than he usually let show. "You look the same way, Rim. What's wrong?"For a few moments, Rimba simply sat still, staring at his own reflection in the mirror, trying to arrange words that had felt too heavy to say out loud for wee
Michi hadn't spoken much since that night in the studio. She still went to her classes as usual, still smiled in front of her parents, still answered every question at the dinner table the way she always had, but Bayu—who had grown up learning to read his sister since childhood—knew perfectly well that something was wrong behind that thin, forced smile.He didn't ask right away. Bayu wasn't the type to push someone to talk before they were ready, a restraint he'd learned the hard way after his first, clumsy attempt to interrogate Rimba in this same basement months earlier. But this time, he pointed his old habit—following political news, digging through the track records of public figures purely as material for casual class debates—toward one name that had kept appearing on his social media timeline these past few weeks: Surya Pratama.That night, in his room, Bayu sat for hours combing through old news archives, political discussion forums, eve
Ten days passed since that meeting, and the campaign video that had briefly caused an uproar was finally taken down quietly, as though it had never existed at all. For everyone else, the problem felt resolved. For Rimba, that was exactly where his unease truly began.He knew his father wasn't going to stop that easily. And the only solution he could think of to make sure Michi wasn't targeted again was to distance himself—to make the two of them look no longer close enough to be turned into material for any story.He started canceling plans one by one, quietly, without ever framing it as what it actually was. The excuse of "a lot of studio work" became the sentence that left his mouth most often. Replies to messages that used to come quickly now arrived hours later, short, half-hearted. Even in the basement studio, the very place that had once witnessed the beginning of all their secrets, Rimba started showing up alone at odd hours more often, leaving behind mess







