Jake grumbles and sips his dark coffee. Once we arrive at the training grounds, the place is overfilled with she-wolves. It looks like every young she-wolf capable of shifting is here. I give Jake a look and he shakes his head. We hang towards the back, waiting for Alpha Stephen to make his announcement. The she-wolves seem excited while the warriors seem worried. Jake is overly quiet, and I wonder if he knows more than he’s saying. Maybe his attitude this morning was less about the early rise and more about whatever is going on. Alpha finally walks onto a training mat. It’s easy to get a good look at him while he’s standing in front of us. His gray hair is oily and messy, like he’s been yanking on it all night.
Or Luna Monica was yanking on it all night. Vera snickers.
Grow up.
Alpha Stephen’s face has seen better days. The circles under his eyes are several shades darker than normal. His forehead is creased with worry.
“There’s no easy way to say this, so I’m just going to come right out with it,” He pauses. “Multiple she-wolves were just reported missing last night from Lunar Harvest. As you know, that is only 3 hours from here. I gathered you all today to start you on a training regimen. She-wolves have been going missing all over the country.”
Protests break out from the crowd. Alpha Stephen puts his hand up, silencing the annoyed girls instantly. “I understand that this is not how you want to spend your days. However, I would be a terrible Alpha if I knowingly allowed the she-wolves of my pack to remain untrained and unprotected when danger lurks. You will each be paired with a warrior who will be responsible for your training. Beta Luke will let you know who your trainer is and get you set up. This is serious, and I expect everyone to act accordingly.”
Jake keeps his face free of any emotion. Though if I know Jake, I know he’s angry. My face, however, is an open book to the confusion and fear that is pulsating through my veins.
“Amber, you have enough training, so you don’t have to be here if you don’t want to. I could really use Jake’s help with training the younger wolves.” Beta Luke looks through his clipboard. “Actually, you could help us train them, too. Some of these she-wolves are thinking of becoming warriors, but many of them are thinking of more domestic careers. Seeing you out there fighting could give them the hope they need. That they can learn to fight without screwing up their career path.”
“Um, I don’t mind maybe giving them a few tips or even showing up for training to show them. I don’t want to train them though. I don’t think I could do that.”
I know me, and I’m not patient enough to deal with angry teenage girls. I do like his idea of showing them that a woman with a ‘domestic job’ can still whoop some ass.
“That works for me. Start with that group over there and make your way around to all of them.”
“Amber, are you sure you don’t need more training?” Jake asks.
I shoot him a look, snapping his mouth shut instantly. He knows I’m more than capable of handling myself now. We didn’t train four hours a day for the last nine months for nothing. Beta Luke looks between Jake and me, before turning on his heel and dragging Jake away with him. I turn to the groups Luke asked me to drop in on. The first group I watch only solidifies my decision. Most of the young women aren’t paying any attention to the warriors shouting instructions in front of them.
I step onto the mat. “Is it okay if I show them something?”
The warrior nods with an impatient huff.
I look around the field until I see a warrior that will work for my demonstration. “Hey, Melony, could you help me out for a sec?”
“Sure, what are we doing?”
“These girls couldn’t be more disinterested in what’s happening. I thought we could take on these big, strong men to give them motivation.”
“Hell to the yes. I get Brody.” She winks.
I chuckle to myself. That girl is so in love with him, and he’s not even her mate. That doesn’t stop her though, she just can’t help herself. Loneliness creeps up my spine. Sometimes it’s hard to watch everyone else be loved when I know that I have a loveless future ahead.
I clear my throat and head. “All right ladies, listen up. Melony and I are going to show you some things we’ve learned in training. Brody and Duke have been nice enough to volunteer, so pay attention.”
Melony and I line up across from Brody and Duke. Their faces hold more curiosity than confusion. I nod at Duke, and he lunges for me. I drop, missing his grasp. He trips over his feet and barely stands above me. I swipe his legs out from under him. Once he’s on the ground, Brody takes off towards Melony. Melony gives him a sweet smile before meeting his attack. He hesitates to hurt her; I spy a little love in his eyes, too. Goddess, what is with me today? Melony doesn’t hesitate, clocking him right in the jaw. I look up to see all the girls with their eyes on us. My plan worked, so it looks like I’m not so bad after all.
“If you want to learn how to protect yourself, you have to do the training. Now, Brody and Duke are your teachers, but I will be around if anyone needs me.”
I say thank you to the guys and Melony before jumping off the mat. I ignore Jake’s heated gaze on me as I walk along the field. A nervous burn settles in my stomach as I check on the other groups. My mind keeps wandering to the missing girls. What is going on? Obviously, something or someone is doing this, but why? How? The unanswered question lays heavily on my mind.
The sour beer coats my mouth. I hate beer, but I have to pretend to celebrate with the rest of the guys. The Aurora Flame packhouse has officially been demolished. That means that I get to go home to my new territory. The cold bottle soothes my blistered hands. Blisters that are evidence of the home I just destroyed. My home. Though it didn’t feel like home anymore. Nothing has felt like home lately.Rita pulls out a barstool, sitting next to me. “How are you feeling, Gamma?”“Amazing.” “You shouldn’t lie to a witch who can see the future.”I look at her with suspicion. She has hardly spoken to me over the last year. Why is she talking to me now?“Did you see something that includes me, Rita?”“I did.”“Well? Are you going to tell me?”“You know I can’t. Things change far too quickly. I’m only here with a warning.”I nod, so she knows I’m listening. “Stop defying the Moon Goddess.”What? By the time I look up, Rita is gone. Her barstool sits empty, as if she was never there. What d
Insomnia has infected me lately, so it’s no surprise that I beat the Alpha to his own office. My eyes wander around the room. The office that was once a lemon tribute is now navy. The tired wooden furniture has been replaced by white modern pieces. My fingers brush over his bookcases, landing on a picture.The picture brings tears to my eyes. Her face is there, smiling at me, the way she used to. It was taken the night of Paige and Colin’s ceremony. The night I forced her to reject me. I pay little attention to the other three couples in the photo. I just stare at her.“Nice to see you, Alex.” Colin’s voice startles me, forcing me to pry my eyes from the picture.“Did you miss me?”“Duh. I missed our nights together.”“Really? He’s been back for a few hours and you’re already hitting on him!” Paige smiles at me, giving me a small hug before taking her place on Colin’s lap.“So, I heard the demo went well,” Colin starts.“Yeah. Our old packhouse is no longer standing. What are the plan
“I missed you,” Alex coos. I jump at the sound of his voice. My blue dress flows, tickling my bare toes as I walk to my mate. “I missed you,” I murmur as I wrap my arms around him. Alex squeezes me tightly, like he’s scared to lose me again. My muscles contract as I try to match the strength of his squeeze. A soft melody plays, seemingly from nowhere. Alex sways with me, twirling me around. My back hits a wall. I turn to see Cory standing there. I squeeze Alex’s hand tighter, silently begging for him to pull me back. When he doesn’t, I turn to search his face, but he’s been replaced by a faceless man. I yank my hand away from the stranger. My eyes scan the room. It’s suddenly filled with men from my past. I push myself through the sea of bodies, desperately searching for Alex. The only person I want right now is him. Each man is screaming at me, blaming me for ruining his family. My heartbeat thunders against my chest. When my eyes finally land on my mate, my heart all but stops co
“Did you use the calming technique I taught you?”I nod.The keyboard clacks under her red nails. I watch her, remembering the first time I set foot in her office. Alpha Stephen had told me she could help me, but I hadn’t known he was setting me up with a therapist. I almost left once I realized her title, but something compelled me to stay and I’m glad I did. Dr. Laurel has helped me in so many ways. The keyboard falls silent, urging me to continue.“At first, the pain was so intense, I went for a run. I didn’t stop running until the sun came up. That’s when I felt like I was drowning. I used your technique, and it calmed me enough to get home.”“Why did you feel you were drowning? Was it because of the pain the dream brought or something more?” She asks.“I was drowning in Alex. The memories of our short few days together. The look in his eyes when he rejected me. All of it. I was drowning in love for a man who has nothing but hate for me.”“Amber, you will probably always love him.
I run my fingers on the scars over my ribs. The large pink marks serve as a reminder of one of the worst nights of my life. A loud knock on my door pulls me from my thoughts. I open it to find a sleepy Colin standing there. “Alpha Stephen called; a she-wolf went missing.” My face must look terrified because the sleep falls from Colin’s eyes. “It’s not Amber. I asked to make sure she’s safe. He said she’s with his lead warrior.” My fear turns to jealousy. Who the hell is this warrior? Why is he with her? What are they doing? Why do you care what Amber is doing? Zeke scoffs. Because I do, I’m her mate. You were her mate. You rejected her, remember? You have no right to be jealous. Not after what you did. I know he’s right, but I can’t help it. The thought of Amber being with another is enough to make my blood boil. I wonder how she feels when she thinks of me with someone else. Probably nothing. If she’s anything like me, she hates you. “Alex, pay attention,” Colin says. I l
Zeke’s howls scare birds out of the quiet trees. He runs, trying to outrun the pain of losing her. When I rejected Amber, I really thought I’d be better off. I thought we both would. What a stupid thought that was. I never imagined that my life would be even worse. But it is.Zeke’s energy depletes after his third hour in the forest. His fur sinks back into my skin. I pull my shorts on, slinking against a tree. My mind is as scrambled as the eggs served in the dining hall. Nothing makes sense anymore. I lay my head in my hands and try to figure out just how I’m going to move on. Or if I even can. I have to find a way, or Colin will never trust me again.The sound of leaves crunching snaps my head up. I squint my eyes in the sound's direction. A bitter scent wafts around me. My blood pumps loudly in my veins. I’m on edge. The threat of vampires will do that to a wolf. The sound hits my ears again. I jump up as a figure moves into my sight line. A breath of air escapes me as I recognize
“You should come out with us tonight!” Kayla yells over the loud laughs from the pups in our class.“No. You know how I feel about all that.”“Come on! You’ve been here for a year. Let yourself live a little. You don’t have to sleep with someone to have fun!”I know she’s right. It’s silly to keep myself isolated out of fear of falling into someone’s bed. I should trust myself and my growth. I’m just not sure that’s a risk I’m willing to take. But I heard Alpha Stephen called my old pack for help and I’m not sure who will show up. It might be better to make myself scarce while they’re here.“Please,” Kayla whines. “It’s my birthday!”“Are we even allowed to leave the territory? That girl is still missing.” “We’re only going to the bar that Alpha owns on the edge of the territory. We’ll be safe!”“Ugh, fine. I’ll go but only because it’s your birthday,” I agree, hoping I won’t regret it later.“YAY! Pick you up at 8.”I roll my eyes in response and continue to get the pups ready to go
“Lyle.” “How are you, babe? I haven’t seen you since your sixteenth birthday.” He squats down to meet my eyes. An icy hand reaches out and tucks a stray hair behind my ear. His touch sends a frightened chill glide down my spine. “I’m good. I have to go. My friends are waiting for me.” I push against the wall to stand, my legs still wobbly from the panic. “Where are you staying? I’m in town for tonight. We could spend it together.” “Um, no thanks.” I shrug his hand from wrist and start to walk away. A second passes before his rigid body slams into me, keeping me away from the door. “Why not, pretty wolf? Did you not have fun the last time we were together?” I bristle at his words. “No. I didn’t.” “You shouldn’t tell lies.” “I’m not lying.” He steps closer to me. “I’ll let you walk away tonight, but only because I want you to beg to come with me. But I promise you, I will finish what I started.” His eyes narrow into slits, making his threat feel even more real. I want to scre