FernOver the next two weeks, I will try my best to bond with Jack’s son as far as I humanly can. It’s difficult. Each time I see him, I just think about Jack being with that girl, and although I know they didn’t cheat or anything like that, it’s really tough.The day that Riley’s mom dies, I stand by Jack as best I can, but honestly, although I will never say it out loud, I am relieved. Not having to see her makes things a little easier for me. Riley is moved into our home immediately and, all of a sudden, I’m a mother.I once again go through the motions and try my best not to show how I’m feeling, but I’m convinced that Riley and Jack can feel it. I have such a huge problem bonding with the baby. It’s not until Isabella finally corners me about it that it all comes to a head.“I can’t explain it. I’ve been trying to hide it, but it’s clear I haven’t been very successful. I just … I know this is going to sound horrible, Isabella, but how do I bond with a baby that isn’t mine?” My eye
FernThe first couple of days I feel like an idiot. I feel as if everything I do is wrong, and I’m convinced I’m going to do the long thing and kill Riley! Then finally, thanks to the guidance of Isabella, the omega and Jack, I start to get it right.I notice the different kinds of cries and I actually love taking time to just sit there and watch him sleep. Riley is slowly spending more time awake and, at first, I wasn’t entirely sure what to do with him then. I also wasn’t really sure what to do with myself when he was asleep.Days soon turn into weeks and before long the forty days are up. I wouldn’t say that I love Riley yet. I won’t say that I feel like his mother, but I have grown incredibly fond of the little ball of smush. Riley is a real fat and happy little guy.He is my little ball of smush and when nobody is around, I love blowing bubbles on his tummy and making him laugh. I love watching him sleep. I just love having him in our home and after forty days are up, I can’t imag
FernThis was not exactly what we planned, but Jack and I couldn’t have been happier. Sometimes life does not give you what you think you want. It gives you what you really need and after our little girl, Esme, is born, it feels as if our family is complete.The first couple of years are stormy as we navigate teething babies and terrible twos. Just as we think it’s safe, they hit puberty and soon after they become terrible teenagers! Riley knows that I’m not his biological momma, but we are both okay with what we are. Mother and son.Neither of us blames the other for anything. We have always just been mother and son. Riley and Esme are siblings and boy do they act like it sometimes. I swear I can get whiplash because of their moods. One day they are so close that you would swear they are twins.The next you have to physically pull them apart before they hurt each other. I’m relieved when Riley shifts on his sixteenth birthday. I never said it out loud, but I was worried there for a l
EsmeMy heart sinks. I didn’t think she would follow me! I was sure they were asleep. My parents were ancient. They always went to bed early, and then I had the run of the house! As I turn in the water, I note my dad and that just breaks my heart while my friends are still trying to scatter.Unfortunately, my parents aren’t the only ones there and as I make my way through the water to the little beach, I note how even Jason is being dragged back. I can’t believe he ran! He left me here to face the music alone.As I get out, I see my friends glaring at me, but what hurts most is the way Jason is glaring at me. I didn’t do this on purpose, but indirectly, I’ve betrayed my friends. My life is ruined all because my mom wouldn’t just let it be. All because she wouldn’t let me just have some fun.“It’s days like these that I wish I gave you more than one name!” She growls as I wrap a towel around me. I can’t look up. I can’t see the disappointment in my dad’s eyes. But worse is that I can’t
EsmeIn the morning, I walk down the passage at school toward my locker and I can feel everyone gossiping about me. I don’t have to hear what they are saying to know that it’s not good. Sadly, I used to be one of them.It’s really not nice to be on the other side of this. I never actually thought about how it has to feel until right now. It’s almost as if the people we were talking about weren’t real people. I sigh as I reach my locker. Opening it, I stuff my books inside and close my eyes for a moment.“Hey, it’s strange to be back here and think we are going to have to spend the entire day here.” Jason stands behind me and I look at him only for a second. I was sure he would never speak to me again.“Listen, I’m really sorry. I didn’t think my parents would make sure an enormous thing about this.” I grab my books for my first class and slam my locker shut before turning to look at him. Jason leans over me and takes a step closer and smiles.“Oh, you are going to pay for that.” His w
EsmeIn the morning, I get up and grab a piece of toast and a sip of juice before I rush out of the house. I normally have breakfast with my parents and almost get to school late, but I just don’t feel like chit-chatting with them at the moment.Besides, I have to get to the library before the first period. I rush into the building and put my stuff down while I search for a specific book. Once I find it, I take a seat and start to make the notes that I need. I put the book down on the reception desk on my way out.I don’t see the foot the moment I walk out, and I go flying again. All around me people are laughing and pointing and all I can think of is if this is the best they have! I get up and grab my things before they get trampled and, without looking back, I rush to get to my locker.“Poor little beta’s girl. She can’t even walk properly.” Jason’s voice echoes down the passage and I roll my eyes. I stuff my things in my locker and slam them shut before glaring at him.“Ah, are you
EsmeMy parents' common sense made absolutely no sense to me at all. I’m grounded and can only go to school and am supposed to come right back home, and then they tell me that I’m skipping school so that I can visit my uncle and discuss my birthday.How on earth do they expect me to follow any rules if they can’t follow the rules themselves?! I have no choice but to meet with my uncle. I follow my parents to his house feeling worse than I did on that night that we were caught.I can feel the eyes on me as we pass pack members. I can’t hear what they are saying, but I can hear them whispering. I nearly laugh out loud when I realize that grown-ups aren’t that different from teenagers. They also gossip like we do.They also bully others like we do. They just call it something different and find creative ways to explain it all away. As we walk into the house, I catch my uncle and aunt’s scents and I wish I didn’t have to be there.We are shown to my uncle’s office and my heart skips a bea
EsmeAll the girls find dresses, but because of my mood, I don’t find one. After my aunt pays, they send everyone else home and my mom and aunt get into our car. We pull out of the parking spot in the small town and I look out of the window at the scenery rushing by.It’s late Friday afternoon, and I’m looking forward to a weekend alone in my doorless room. I plan how I’m going to avoid all the party planning going on at home and only notice that we aren’t going home when we pull onto the freeway.“Where are we going?” I turn my attention to the two women in front of the car, and they look far too amused for my liking.“Your mother and I agreed that none of the dresses in town were fit for a beta female’s eighteenth birthday. We are glad that you didn’t find something you liked because now we can take you to the city to find something special.” My aunt sounds excited and I roll my eyes.I don’t want to tell them that no dress will be able to save my reputation. At least we will be awa
SamI follow the direction of her gaze as she pushes past me. I’m not surprised to find that thin-lipped manager glaring at us, and it’s the final straw. Marching over to where he is standing, I make sure that he can feel my power flow through the air.“Mr. Nash, I intend on asking Jemma out on a date as soon as we’ve booked out tomorrow. I will also make sure that we never have our conferences here again, if you so much as think about firing her.” A soft growl vibrates through me and I note the fear in his eyes.He nods and leaves without a word. I turn to find Jemma, but she is gone. I wanted to take the chance of asking her for a dance, but each time I do see her, she is busy. The last thing I want is for anyone here to be neglected.I’m relieved when the night ends. All I can think about is signing for the bill and then finding Jemma.JemmaI saw them talking right before I walked into the kitchen. My heart is racing. My palms are sweaty and I just need a moment. I rush into the s
SamI don’t like that she looks so nervous. I don’t have time to think about it as the other alphas walk into the conference room. I carefully watch them to make sure none of them react to her scent and I almost breathe a sigh when I see it seems to be just me.“Hey, alpha, are you okay?” Mark hands me my folder and we take our seats.“Nope.” I frown as the meeting gets underway. I have a hard time focusing. I’m concerned about Jemma and the fact that she looked so nervous. It’s clear the hotel management makes sure that their staff don’t get involved with guests, and I guess it makes sense.I just don’t like to see her like that. I have to find a way to speak to her without any of them around. Yes, that’s what I will do. I will speak to her when I’m not a guest. It’s going to be really tough to stay away while we are here, but I have another twenty-four hours, and then I won’t be a guest anymore.JemmaI’m relieved when he doesn’t try to speak to me again. Usually, if I just tell the
Jemma“I hate conferences. Why can’t people just come to the hotel for a holiday?” Mandy complains. She always complains. When there are only holiday guests, she complains because she can’t earn enough to be the one just enjoying the hotel.“Just keep your eyes open. I’m sure one of these guys at the conference will catch your eye.” I wink, hoping it will distract her.“If only! Mr. Nash told me this morning I’m working in the restaurant for the next three days. Apparently, he wasn’t happy with the way I arranged the conference room the last time these guys were here.” Mandy sighs.“Besides, all of them have been here before. There are no new faces.” A sly smile crosses her lips. “Or bodies to look at. Have you seen how their wives dress?!” She rolls her eyes and leaves the kitchen. I grab my tray and pack the water bottles before making my way to the conference room.After giving the room a quick once over, I leave feeling confident that Mr. Nash will be happy. It is the first year t
SamOur pack’s history is filled with love stories and war. It is filled with betrayal and reconciliation. So much has happened that I sometimes feel as if my own love story won’t be enough. It won’t be as impressive. Thankfully, I don’t have much time to think about it.Becoming alpha isn’t easy. Taking over isn’t easy. Finding a mate is the toughest part of it all. Every mother keeps looking at me as if expecting me to pick her daughter and every daughter is looking at me as if I’m a piece of meat she has to devour.All I can see are black widow spiders who want to catch me, mate with me and then kill me! What was supposed to be an exciting time very quickly turned into me trying to hide from literally everyone. Whenever one of those mothers tries to speak to me, I have something urgent to take care of.Finally, the time comes for the alpha conference, and I can escape for a couple of days. After years of war, there seems to be far too many rogues and rogue attacks and a lot of the
Noah“If you are watching this, I’m no longer with you.” Tears fill her eyes and it breaks my heart. “I told you so!” She laughs while pointing her index finger at the camera. “I’m sorry for leaving you so soon, my love. If I could have it any other way, I would never have chosen this.” She sighs deeply before wiping away her tears.A huge smile forms on her face and I wonder when she recorded this. She is heavily pregnant in the video and all I can think is that she did it in the days before she gave birth to Sam. She is sitting in the nursery from the looks of the background.Sam sits down on the edge of my table and I realize it’s the first time he has seen her like this. Sam has only ever seen pictures of Summer.“My beautiful baby boy, please know that you were made in love. That I wanted you more than anything I’ve ever wanted. Please be kind to each other. Support each other. Take care of each other.” She looks up and over the camera and nods at someone.“I have to go now.” Her
SummerI love being in love. I’m still shocked that Noah is my destiny, but I’m grateful. Although he makes it clear that I’m his, whenever a young male gets too close, he is always kind and loving towards me. It’s the perfect balance of a protector and lover rolled into one very handsome package.Noah and I decide early on that we want to spend some time alone together before we start a family. It’s not the most popular decision, and we keep it to ourselves, so there won’t be backlash from anyone in the pack.Life as a Luna is interesting, and I find myself sounding like my mother far too often, but I love my new life. I find that I’m more of a nurturer than I thought I would be, and I love taking care of things for our people.Two years after our mating ceremony, we announce that I’m pregnant, and I can’t help but laugh when I hear the mumbles that people were beginning to think I was a dud or something. They clearly believed that I couldn’t have children, and our announcement is a
SummerIn the morning, I can’t get our first kiss out of my mind. There were many more after it, but nothing compares to that first one. We say goodbye to my parents after making arrangements for them to come to our house.Over the next couple of days, my days are filled with everything we had to arrange. I found the perfect dress, and to me that was just the best thing ever. The day of our mating ceremony arrived, and I was just bubbling.I thought my life was going to start when I graduated, but here I was thinking again, that this is the moment my life will finally start. After an entire day of preparation, I finally got dressed and my dad walked me down the aisle.As I saw Noah waiting for me at the end, I almost sobbed with happiness and I had to fight back the tears that were threatening to fall. I still can’t believe that my destined mate is scrawny Noah. It’s become our little joke, and I just love that he isn’t fazed by it.He isn’t scrawny Noah anymore. He sure as hell isn’t
SummerWhen I’m woken by the smell of coffee, I’m stunned. I have never slept that well before. I feel a little confused at first about where I am, but it doesn’t take more than a second to remember. I wonder if Noah slept beside me the entire time.“Thanks.” I smile as he hands me the mug and I take a long sip, enjoying the aroma. “What time is it?” I frown, suddenly worried that I might have wasted too much time and won’t get to my homework before dinner.“We only slept for an hour. You still have a lot of time.” Noah pulls my books out of my bag and places them on the table, making me laugh. I get up and am relieved that I didn’t sleep for hours. While I dig into my homework, he is lying on my bed studying the ceiling.“Aren’t you bored? Don’t you have work to do or something?” I turn to study him and he grins.“Nope and nope. Dad is in charge.” He sits up and smiles at me, sending a shiver of delight up the back of my spine. Honestly, I love being in love. I know it’s fast and all
SummerWhen I calm down, I feel even sillier than I did earlier in the clearing. It’s as if some switch inside of me had suddenly flipped, and I could see things differently than I did before. I sit beside Noah once I’m calm, and I take a deep breath while they all look at me.“I want to accept Noah as my mate. I just want to finish school first, if that’s okay. It would be a waste if I have come all this way and don’t finish.” I nod feeling a lot more confident about my decision.“While we were talking in the clearing, Summer seemed to have this need to discuss things with you first. Now I understand why.” Noah smiles and takes my hand. I blush when he kisses the inside of my palm and when I look at my parents, they also seem happy with my decision.I never really thought of how my parents would react when I finally found my mate. Honestly, I was too busy thinking about myself. We all sit around and talk for a little while and when my phone rings, I’m a little surprised to see that i