Extra Info About The Last Chapter

About The Songs

Hello!

This is a note about the songs that Alec heard from Andrea.

I wanted to put the lyrics so you could feel what Alec felt when he heard those words and really felt them in her voice, felt the pain, the agony, and her emotional struggles. He also felt how much she longs for love, warmth, and safety in other songs too.

Putting them within the chapter would have made the chapter cost more just for reading song lyrics and that’s why I decided to put them within an author’s note.

If you are really interested to read the words that touched Alec’s heart and made him hate her a little less, carry on reading and tell me what you think of them.

Here are the songs:

The first song she sang; the one she prepared for her audition, is called go easy on me by Adele.

There ain’t no gold in this river

That I’ve been washin’ my hands in forever

I know there is hope in these waters

But I can’t bring myself to swim

When I am drowning in this silence

Baby, let me in

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

Didn’t get the chance to

Feel the world around me

I had no time to choose

What I chose to do

So go easy on me

There ain’t no room for things to change

When we are both so deeply stuck in our ways

You can’t deny how hard I’ve tried

I changed who I was to put you both first

But now I give up

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

Didn’t get the chance to

Feel the world around me

Had no time to choose

What I chose to do

So go easy on me

I had good intentions

And the highest hopes

But I know right now

It probably doesn’t even show

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

I didn’t get the chance to

Feel the world around me

I had no time to choose

What I chose to do

So go easy on me

**

The following songs made his heart ache for her and showed how much she is hurting and struggling to stay strong:

-Hurts like hell by Fleurie

How can I say this without breaking

How can I say this without taking over

How can I put it down into words

When it's almost too much for my soul alone

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

Yeah it hurts like hell

I don't want them to know the secrets

I don't want them to know the way I loved you

I don't think they'd understand it, no

I don't think they would accept me, no

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

Yeah it hurts like hell

Dreams fight with machines

Inside my head like adversaries

Come wrestle me free

Clean from the war

Your heart fits like a key

Into the lock on the wall

I turn it over, I turn it over

But I can't escape

I turn it over, I turn it over

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

-Cut by Plumb

I’m not a stranger

No, I am yours

With crippled anger

And tears that still drip sore

A fragile flame aged

With misery

And when our eyes meet

I know you’ll see

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I’m tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when

I am cut

I may seem crazy

Or painfully shy

And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden

If you would just look me in the eye

I feel alone here and cold here

Though I don’t want to die

But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I’m tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when

I am cut

Pain

I am not alone

I am not alone

I’m not a stranger

No, I am yours

With crippled anger

And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I’m tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I found it when

I was cut

-Arcade by Duncan Laurence

A broken heart is all that’s left

I’m still fixing all the cracks

Lost a couple of pieces when

I carried it, carried it, carried it home

I’m afraid of all I am

My mind feels like a foreign land

Silence ringing inside my head

Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home

I’ve spent all of the love I saved

We were always a losing game

Small-town boy in a big arcade

I got addicted to a losing game

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

All I know, all I know

Loving you is a losing game

Do you love me, love me not?

Peeling pieces from my heart

And my rose-colored lens is gone

Still I carry, I carry, I carry on

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

All I know, all I know

Loving you is a losing game

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

All I know, all I know

Loving you is a losing game

I don’t need your games, game over

Get me off this rollercoaster

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

All I know, all I know

Loving you is a losing game

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

All I know, all I know

Loving you is a losing game

**

This song is what Alec hoped she was singing for him and wished she would someday really sing it and mean it to him despite how impossible it may seem at the moment.

Dandelions by Ruth B.

Maybe it’s the way you say my name

Maybe it’s the way you play your game

But it’s so good, I’ve never known anybody like you

But it’s so good, I’ve never dreamed of nobody like you

And I’ve heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I’m pretty sure that you are that love of mine

‘Cause I’m in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you’d be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you’ll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

I think that you are the one for me

Cause it gets so hard to breathe

When you’re looking at me

I’ve never felt so alive and free

When you’re looking at me

I’ve never felt so happy

And I’ve heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I’m pretty sure that you are that love of mine

Cause I’m in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you’d be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you’ll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

Dandelion into the wind you go

Won’t you let my darling know?

Dandelion into the wind you go

Won’t you let my darling know that

I’m in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you’d be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you’ll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

I’m in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you’d be mine, mine

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