Mag-log inChapter Four
Temptation in Plain Sight
NOVA POV
The day after my friends left me with the man whose company I’ve been dreading again since our last meeting started with my favorite panties going missing.
Not just any panties, it’s my soft pink lace ones.
The ones I bought after reading Velvet Nights because the heroine wore them before her boss bent her over a desk and ruined her for every other man in the city. They were my “just in case” panties. Just in case something scandalous ever happened.
Nothing scandalous ever happened.
Until now.
By lunch, I was trying to act like I wasn’t sitting at the table in a summer dress… commando.
Grant was already there, sleeves rolled, tie loosened, forearms like a Calvin Klein ad for “Sins You Can’t Afford.” He looked up from his plate, the smallest twitch at the corner of his mouth, like he knew something I didn’t.
“You’re late,” he said, his voice a low rumble.
“I overslept,” I muttered, sliding into the chair farthest from him like distance was bulletproof glass.
His gaze moved over me, not in that obvious way, but slow, assessing. Like he was cataloguing every possible way to dismantle me.
“Did you lose something?”
My fork froze mid-air. My brain screamed. Abort mission, abort mission, he knows.
“What?” My voice cracked like I’d just hit puberty.
“You seem… distracted.” His tone was bland. His eyes were not.
I shoveled food into my mouth to keep it shut, but the more I avoided looking at him, the more I felt his gaze, sliding over me like heat from a fireplace you shouldn’t sit too close to.
And yes… most of my thoughts were about him. And none of them were holy.
By evening, I’d taken refuge in the library to ease my stress for the day.
Which was ironic, considering the book in my lap had less plot than a TikTok trend and more filth than my search history. I was on the chapter where the heroine’s panties got ripped off in an elevator….Purely academic reading.
The door creaked.
His voice came first, the man I’ve been trying to dodge. . “Educational material?”
I nearly swallowed my own tongue. “It’s… fiction.”
Grant strolled past my chair, not even glancing at the cover. He smelled like clean smoke and expensive trouble. Something soft landed on the table beside me.
My pink lace panties. Folded.
My brain promptly left the building. He had touched them. Held them. Folded them.
“Next time,” his voice dipped low near my ear, “lock your door.”
I turned my head, only to find him leaning over the back of my chair, one arm braced beside my head, the other casually resting on the chair back, caging me in. My heart was beating like I’d just run a mile in stilettos.
“You leave your things lying around,” he murmured, his breath grazing my skin. “Someone might get ideas.”
Oh, but I have ideas. Graphic, NSFW, 18+ premium-content ideas.
“Someone already has,” I whispered, before my dignity could intervene.
Something flickered in his eyes, a tightening of his jaw, a brief flare of heat before his expression shuttered again.
“Careful, little girl.”
His fingertips grazed my shoulder just enough for my body to jolt before trailing down my arm and stopping short of my wrist. I wanted him to keep going. I wanted him to touch me the way men did in my books; hard, claiming and dangerous.
“Careful, little girl.”
The way he said it was low and steady, with the kind of voice authors describe as a growl.. set every book I’d ever read on fire in my head. In the novels, this was the part where the heroine’s pulse would throb in her ears and she’d lose all sense of logic.
Mine was doing exactly that.
“You make that sound like a… warning,” I said, because my characters always challenged the hero before he proved them wrong even if my own common sense was telling me to flee before this gets too far.
Grant’s smirk was almost imperceptible, the kind you only notice if you’re paying attention and I was.
“Warnings are for people who listen. But I don’t think you would.”
God. This was a scene. A full-on chapter ripped from the slow-burn section of my bookshelf.
He moved closer, his hand on the back of my chair sliding closer, and suddenly the air was thick enough to choke on.
In books, this was where the hero cages her in without touching her except he was touching me, knuckles brushing my shoulder, fingers grazing the side of my neck like they were checking my pulse.
I was certain he could feel it racing.
“You’re quiet,” he said, leaning down so his breath skimmed my ear.
“Plotting something?”
I almost told him I was mentally outlining exactly how this would go if we were in fiction. He’d pull me up from the chair, set me against the desk, his hand sliding—
“Your cheeks are red.”
“I’m fine.”
He chuckled.
The deep, rich kind that made my stomach clench and his fingers drifted down, over my arm, toward my hip.
In my head, I was narrating.
…The heroine’s breath hitched as his touch skimmed the edge of her skirt, a silent promise in the slow drag of his hand.
Except… his hand did find the hem. His thumb brushed bare skin. My breath caught in real life.
“You read things like that for a reason,” he murmured, glancing at the book still in my lap. “You want to know how it feels.”
I didn’t answer partly because my voice would betray me and partly because in fiction, this was where words got replaced by action.
His knuckles skimmed higher, inch by inch. Not rushed or hesitant. He was deliberate, like he had the patience to watch me unravel one breath at a time.
The books always said, time stopped. I’d always thought it was cheesy. But right now, I couldn’t tell if it was ten seconds or ten minutes before his hand stilled.
This was the part where the hero would pin her between the desk and his body, where she’d feel the press of heat and muscle, where her knees would go weak but she’d still pretend she could stand her ground.
And Grant…. Mother help me… was following the script.
He stepped closer, the edge of the desk digging into my thighs, my brain short-circuiting at the scent of his clean, expensive soap with something darker, sharper.
It was like the smell of chapters where bad decisions tasted like heaven.
“You’re breathing like you’re scared,” he said, voice low, eyes locked on mine.
“I’m not scared.”
Lie.
My pulse was sprinting.
“No?” His thumb traced along my jaw, tilting my chin up. “Then why won’t you look away?”
Because in the books, you never looked away.
His hand skimmed down, resting at my waist, curling possessively. My stomach dipped. His lips brushed my ear barely.
“You know what happens to girls who don’t listen?”
My voice was barely a whisper. “What?”
“They end up right where I want them.”
Every nerve in me lit up. My mind was already running ahead, writing the scene where his mouth claimed mine and his hands pushed every of my boundaries.
But then… like a splash of cold water, Lena’s face crashed into my brain. My best friend. My very oblivious best friend.
Oh Mother...
My voice came out shaky.
“Grant… we can’t… you’re— you’re Lena’s dad.”
The air went still.
His gaze didn’t soften. If anything, it sharpened, his mouth curving into something dark.
“And?”
And? Did he just say ‘And???’
The word cut through my flimsy defense and before I could answer, his hand slid from my waist lower, curving over the swell of my hip like he was claiming territory.
The heat of his palm burned through the thin fabric, his thumb pressing just enough to make me aware of how close it was to somewhere it shouldn’t be.
“Does that make you want to stop?”
He murmured, voice like silk over steel.
“I—”
My breath hitched as his other hand brushed my hair over my shoulder, fingertips grazing the bare skin of my neck.
“That’s what I thought.”
His mouth hovered at my ear, not kissing, but letting his breath skate over the shell until goosebumps raced down my arms.
“You’re trembling.”
“I’m not—”
“You are,” he said softly, almost like he was pleased about it.
His hand at my hip slid forward, tracing the curve of my thigh. My knees wobbled.
In my head, a hundred filthy scenes I’d read blurred into one —the girl who said no while her body betrayed her, the man who didn’t need to push because he already had her coming apart just by being near.
“Grant…”
I meant for it to be a warning, but it came out like a sigh.
“Mmm.”
His fingers brushed higher, the lightest graze over the edge of my dress.
“You like this. You like knowing you shouldn’t… but you still do.”
I wanted to deny it, to tell him this was wrong, but my mind was wrapped around the way his thumb stroked lazy circles just above my knee, inching upward like he had all night to get there.
The part of me that remembered Lena was fading, getting smothered under the weight of his touch, his scent and the low rumble of his voice.
And then, just as my body leaned toward him, hungry for whatever came next… he pulled away.
At the door, he glanced back, gaze sliding down me with that same dark satisfaction.
“Let me know when you’ve dealt with your conscience, little girl.”
CHAPTER FIFTY SIXIVIN POVShe was in my car, Nalayna is alive, breathing and wrapped in my security jacket with her shoulder against the window and her hand still holding the other girl's even in sleep because Nala, even a shadow of herself was still Nala, still holding onto whatever she had decided to hold onto with everything she had left.I drove because that was the only option besides pulling her into my arms and I did not look at her in the mirror anymore because every time I looked at her in the mirror something happened to my ability to operate a vehicle safely and I needed to operate a vehicle safely right now.Fifteen whole days.I kept landing on that number like a sore spot you kept pressing without meaning to, fifteen days of just existing while all my thoughts and action raveled around a girl i was supposed to ignore, a girl that should mean nothing to me but apparently my world is a meaningless and faded white and black, she happens to be the splash of high definition
CHAPTER FIFTY FIVE NALA POVI don't know how long I cried on him.But it was long enough that my legs stopped working properly and he was doing most of the holding up without making it a thing. It was Long enough that his shirt was wet and I had moved past caring about that somewhere around the third wave of it. Also long enough that the crying stopped being about any one specific thing and became about all of it at once, the room and the sessions and the fever and the gate and Ethan's voice and the man in the good coat and thirty minutes and all of it, every single day of it coming out in the grey morning air against Ivin's chest.He didn't say anything.Didn't shush me or pat my back in that performative way people patted backs when they were uncomfortable with crying and wanted it to stop. He just held on to me with both arms, they were solid and warm and completely still the way only Ivin could be still, like he had decided this was where he was and nothing was moving him from
CHAPTER FIFTY FOUR IVIN POV (contd)Relief was too small a word for something that started in my chest and moved outward until I could feel it in my hands. Relief was what you felt when you found a lost object. This was something categorically different from that and I was standing in a room in a port warehouse at 5am finally looking at it directly.I was in love with her.Not in the general direction of love. Not the early proximity of it. Fully, completely, irrevocably in love with a stubborn sassy reckless redheaded woman who had walked into my life as a debt and dismantled every wall I had built since I was nineteen years old and hadn't even noticed she was doing it.I was going to have to sit with that.Later.Right now I crossed the room and crouched in front of her and put my hands on her face as carefully as I had ever put my hands on anything in my life and she closed her eyes and leaned into my palms and the sound that came out of her was so small and so completely wrecked
CHAPTER FIFTY THREEIVIN POVGabriel sent the coordinates at 4:47am.I was already in the car.I don't remember the process of me leaving the building and getting into the car. I don't remember the drive from the estate or putting on my jacket or checking my weapon but I remember the coordinates arriving on my screen and then I remember being in motion because staying still was no longer something my body was willing to negotiate with.Fourteen days.I had been counting without meaning to count.The way you counted something you were trying not to think about because the number kept getting larger and every time it got larger it meant another day she was somewhere I hadn't found yet and the rooms kept being empty and the leads kept being wrong and at some point in the last fourteen days something had happened to me that I hadn't fully looked at directly yet because looking at it directly required admitting what it meant.I was terrified.For the first time in my adult life, but it was
CHAPTER FIFTY TWONALA POVThe room they put me in while they waited for the handler smelled like industrial cleaning fluid trying to cover something older underneath it and failing completely, it smelled awful.I sat on the edge of a cot that had probably seen too many people's worst moments and stared at the wall and thought about nothing because nothing was the only thing my thoughts came up with nowadays.The handler came in twenty minutes later with a bag.He set it on the cot beside me without looking at my face. People had stopped looking at my face.I had noticed that. When you stopped being a person to someone they stopped looking at your face because faces were the part that complicated things and complications were bad for business."Get changed," he said, nodding at the bag.I looked at it.But I didn't move."Get changed." He repeated coldly in the same tone of someone who had said the same words in the same room to too many people and had run out of any version of patien
CHAPTER FIFTY ONENALA POVThere was a version of me that would have counted the turns as the van took another thorn.She would have been pressing her ear to the truck wall, memorizing the sounds outside, calculating distance from time and speed, building an escape plan out of nothing the way she had always built everything, out of nothing, out of stubbornness, out of the deep irrational belief that her brain plus her mouth plus her refusal to accept any situation as final was enough to get her out of anything.That version of me felt like someone I had read about once.Someone fictional.I sat in the dark of the truck with my shoulder against the cold metal wall and felt every pothole in my ribs and my face and every other place that had been keeping records for days and I did not count the turns. I did not press my ear to anything. I sat and breathed and watched the dark and thought about noth







