Mag-log inMantovani's P.O.V
I couldn’t understand why I acted like this around Candice. I had gone to her room to make up for being rude, but everything I said and did felt wrong. I hated myself for feeling things no brother should feel.
Conti was wrong to call Candice our sister.
I saw myself as a threat to her. I remembered the terrible things my father did to me and wanted to keep Candice safe from that. But after what happened with Jane, I feared Candice needed protection from me more than anyone else.
I couldn’t sleep. My mind kept drifting to Candice—her shy, quiet way, the way she moved. It made something twist deep inside me, a heat I couldn’t shake.
When she called me "brother," I felt a bit guilty, how could I have such thoughts and feelings towards my new sister? but it only made the desire burn hotter. I told myself it was just frustration, that I was craving something else.
"Argh, I can't sleep," I muttered to myself as I got out of bed and paced the garden, hoping the cool night air would cool my burning thoughts.
As I passed her door, I noticed it was slightly open. Giovanni and Aston said she’d been in there for the last hour. Knowing she’d tried to talk to the guards made me uneasy, but I was glad they kept their distance.
For once, Dad’s rules about keeping her safe made sense. I made sure guards stood close by her window—especially after hearing how Sherif’s men had torn apart other mafia families so brutally.
But all I could think about was her—how soft her skin must be, how fragile she looked. And how much I wanted to protect her... or maybe something more.
I stood in front of Candice’s room, pretending to check the window, but my eyes refused to look away. The moonlight kissed her skin perfectly, making every curve impossible to ignore. Her breasts caught me instantly—full, flawless, and so tempting. I could see the soft molds of her nipples pressing just beneath the skin. I whispered under my breath, “They are huge…” and the words burned hotter than I expected.
A fierce heat spread through me, raw and deep, a hunger I couldn’t push aside. I imagined cupping those breasts, feeling their weight in my hands, and suckling on them—taste, warmth, softness. The thought made my pulse slam against my ribs, twisting desire with guilt.
I forced myself to pull the blanket over her slowly, my fingers lingering too long, trembling with the fire inside me.
Backing out, my heart pounded like a drum. I told myself I couldn’t lose control, not now, not ever. But the image of her perfect body and those hard nipples was burned into my mind—and I knew it would haunt me for a long time.
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Candice's P.O.V
'Oh crap.' I cursed in my head. 'I forgot to lock the door.'
I lay in bed, confused by Mantovani’s strange behavior. He acted distant and kept running away from me, which only made me more annoyed. To distract myself, I tried talking to the bodyguards outside. My old friends ignored me now that I wasn’t useful to them anymore, and it made me feel lonely. Talking to Aston helped a little, but Giovanni stayed cold and distant. I planned to ask them about the heavy security—it made me uneasy.
That night, when Mantovani came into my room, I pretended to be asleep. I didn’t want to deal with his weird mood swings. I felt his eyes on me, my bare breasts pressing against the cool sheets. I couldn’t move—doing so would only make things more awkward.
Then I heard him whisper, soft and low, “They are huge…”
My heart raced. Nervous and excited, my mind spun with questions. What was he going to do? What if he touched me, or worse? The thought sent a heat rushing through me, and I scolded myself for feeling that way.
Then I felt the blanket gently cover me, and I realized, 'Maybe he wasn't as bad as I thought?'
The next morning...
I woke to Mom standing over me, her voice too bright for someone dragging me out of bed so early. “Candice, we’re going to visit Conti today,” she said, smoothing her already perfect hair. “You remember—Sanna’s adopted son.”
I didn’t bother hiding the irritation in my voice. “Conti, huh? Does it really matter?”
She smiled too wide, that fake kindness that always made my skin crawl. “It matters because he’s part of the family now. And you need to get along with him.”
I scoffed softly, sitting up. “I heard he has a fiancée.”
Mom’s smile didn’t falter, but I caught the twitch in her eyes. “Yes, he does. But that shouldn’t bother you.”
I clenched my jaw. Why did it bother me then? I told myself it shouldn’t. It wasn’t my business. But hearing about Mantovani having someone else made a dull ache in my chest.
Mom’s voice softened, almost sweet. “You know, appearances are important. People watch us. It’s how we survive.”
I stared at her, feeling the weight of years in that one sentence. I remembered how Dad always stood up for me before everything fell apart—how he never cared about appearances, only about me. Now, I had to swallow my pride and tolerate Mom’s endless acting for just one more year. One year, then freedom.
She reached for my closet, already picking out a dress. I sighed but didn’t argue. I knew how this would go.
When she handed me a short white dress, I pulled at the fabric, hating how fragile and exposed it made me feel. I didn’t want to wear it, but Mom’s voice cut through my thoughts.
“Candice, it’s what you need to wear. Trust me.”
I nodded slowly, putting it on, each moment feeling like I lost a little more of myself.
It was time for breakfast. Mantovani sat at the head of the table. He looked stiff and didn’t really notice me. He acted like I wasn’t there, and it made me feel uneasy.
Sanna, though, was very kind to me. He smiled a lot and seemed nice. That surprised me because I had heard stories about him being mean and proud. But right now, he seemed friendly, and that confused me.
Mantovani didn’t say much. When Sanna told him we had to visit Conti for the weekend, I saw Mantovani’s jaw tighten. He looked angry but didn’t argue. He just followed orders.
I wondered why Mantovani was so cold and quiet while Sanna was so friendly. Was Mantovani always like this? Or was he hiding something?
Just before we left, Mantovani hardly looked at me—except once, when his eyes quickly flicked to my chest. My heart jumped, and I wasn’t sure if I really saw that or imagined it. He seemed tense and answered in short words.
That made me curious and a little excited. Maybe spending the weekend with him would show me the truth. Was he really this cold, or was he secretly interested in me like I thought?
I wanted to find out. I needed to know.
Candice's P.O.V.The sun came streaming through the hospital blinds in fine golden bars across the bed, and made stripes across the chest of Mantovani as the bandages just showed their heads through the open neck of his gown. I had seen those stripes go on--slow, tireless, measuring them out as they had to be they were evidence that time still had some course, that we were still alive at night. It ached in my back where I had just left the chair, it hurt my eyes because I had not slept, and my fingers were sore because I had not managed to take my hand off his, but it did not make any difference.He was breathing.On his own.No engines pressurizing him. No alarms screaming. Only the hard, obstinate swell and heave of his chest, each breath a little wonder that I knew I was bones.I had not slept over a few minutes at a time since the time they wheeled him out of the surgery. Whenever I shut my eyes I would see once more the red mark on my chest, I
Candice's P.O.V.The very first time that Mantovani opened his eyes after the third crash I believed I was dreaming.The room we were in was dark--blinds half-open to the mid-morning sun, machinery clammering its constant, mechanical lullaby--and I had been staring at his face so long that I had begun to see at the edges. His skin was too pale over the white sheets, the coarse stubble on his jaw coming out in sharp relief, the new scar on his temple still angry and red. I knew every word of him that had been stuttered in the operation since surgery: the tiny freckle in the left eye, the tiny crescent scar on his chin of some previous fight which I knew him when he was still young, how his lashes brushed against his cheeks when he slumbered.I hadn't slept.Not really.Each time my eyes drifted shut I saw the color red dot on my chest once more, saw him leap, saw him hit back at me and spurred my blood through both our shirts and I screamed his name
Mantovani's P.O.V.The initial inhalation that I made in the absence of fire in my lungs caused me to feel like robbing something holy.Slow--deliberate--as though I had to relearn the operation of air. The hospital room smelled of bleach and coffee that was old and stale and the kind of sterile silence that rubs against your ears until you start hearing every little thing: the drip of the IV, the little beep of the monitor that was keeping track of my heart (steady now, stubborn) and the soft rustle of Candice in the chair beside me.She hadn't left.Not once.The head of her dark hair lay on the edge of the mattress against my hip, and the spilt hair was lying on the white sheet like spilt ink. One hand also remained clasped about mine in sleep--fingers woven together to such an extent that I felt her pulse as if it were my own still trembling where the right hand still trembled. There were bruises under her eyes, a nick on her cheekbone that was
As we split up, foreheads against each other, breathing each other's air, she said, The doctors told me you had hardly escaped a surgical operation. The bullet tore--cut your lung, your spleen. On the table they lost you twice. Sanna was screaming at them in Italian. Conti punched a wall. Mom wouldn't stop praying. Dad... Dad just held me while I cried."I shut my eyes, and imagined it--my father losing his temper, my brother smashing up, her parents seeing the shambles of the life we had led. The feeling of guilt in my stomach was more like the surgical scars."They're all here?" I asked quietly.She nodded. "Down the hall. They wouldn't leave. Sanna is arguing with the hospital administrator regarding security. The fact that Conti is guarding the door like Fort Knox. Mom and Dad are going to get coffee and make a show that they are not terrified.I exhaled shakily. "Family.""Yeah," she said, voice thick. Our beautiful messed-up family.A
Mantovani's P.O.V.My consciousness came back in bits--sharp jagged bits that cut deeper than the bullet ever had.Then there was the pain: a living entity, red-hot and angry, wrapped around my chest like barbed wire that was tightening with each inhalation. Then the cattle, the sounds, beeping monitors, low voices, chattering in desperate Italian and English, the drip, drip, drip of an IV line somewhere overhead. Odors ensued: antiseptic, blood (mine, mostly), the slight odor of coffee that some one had spilled somewhere. And finally--her.Candice.She lay huddled against the bed in the little corner beside me, with her head on the edge of the mattress, and one of her hands still clodded in mine even asleep. Her hair had dropped round over her face and strands of it had clung to the lines of tears that were still not quite dry. She breathed quietly and irregularly the type of rhythm that follows hours of weeping yourself to pieces. The view of her, weary
Mantovani’s P.O.V.Pain was the first thing that registered--sharp, white-hot, blooming across my chest like someone had driven a red-hot poker through my ribs and left it there to twist. Every breath felt like swallowing broken glass, shallow and ragged, each inhale dragging fire deeper into my lungs. The world came back in fragments: the low hum of an engine, the metallic taste of blood on my tongue, the faint scent of pine and gun oil clinging to the air. And then—her.Candice.Her hand was wrapped around mine, small but fierce, fingers locked so tight it hurt in the best way, grounding me when everything else wanted to pull me under. I could feel her trembling through the contact, could hear the soft, broken sound of her breathing—like she was trying not to sob and failing. My eyelids weighed a thousand pounds, but I forced them open anyway, blurry green meeting blurry green, and there she was, face streaked with dirt and tears, hair wild,







