The Weight Of Letting Go

I sat still in my car for a long time after the tears had dried on my cheeks. My eyes felt heavy, my throat sore, and my mind numb.

I had cried until my chest hurt. But somewhere between my sobs, one thought kept echoing in my head- I couldn’t keep this secret anymore.

Maybe if I told my mother everything about Jeremy and me, maybe if I finally let it all out, I would be able to breathe again. Keeping it inside had done nothing but eat me alive. Bianca had already shown me she couldn’t be trusted. It was only a matter of time before she used it against me.

I sniffed, wiped my face with the back of my hand, and started the car.

I kept rehearsing what I would say to my mother- how I’d start, how I’d explain what really happened. But by the time I pulled into the driveway, all that confidence began to slip away.

I sighted a car that I wasn’t familiar with in the compound, parked beside my mum’s car.

I took a deep breath, gathered my bag, and walked into the house.

The moment I stepped i