Ch. 44: Visit to the Training Center - Pt.1

Explicit scene ahead… Continue at your own risk! =)

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As I kneel here, waiting for Jace to come back into the room, the anticipation of what’s to come is creeping higher and higher. I have all sorts of thoughts running through my head about the different ways that he could possibly punish me. There are so many things in the room that he can use to cause me the pain that I’m really needing at this moment. If he’s going to punish me, I hope he plans on it being more painful than a few swats on my butt with the paddle.

If my heart racing and my core dripping at the thought of Jace making this painful for me, doesn’t tell you just how messed up I am, then I don’t know what will. It seems like the times that I am under high amounts of stress or pressure is when I most want to feel the pain. Maybe because it takes away the stressful feelings and makes it so I don’t have to think about the things causing me the stress, I don’t know, but I do know that I need to feel something