Chap 1

Mika

I couldn’t breathe properly. I didn’t know what to do.

“D-do I really have to… take my clothes off?” I asked him, my voice trembling.

I couldn’t look at him properly because of embarrassment.

He remained silent, so I slowly lifted my gaze toward him and found him leaning against the wall, staring at me.

There was not a single emotion visible on his face or in his eyes.

I swallowed hard and instinctively stepped back when he suddenly straightened up and started walking toward me.

“Do you still want to do it?” he asked as he slowly approached me.

I opened my mouth to speak, but not a single word came out.

It felt like I had lost my voice.

He tilted his head when he noticed my silence before letting out a sigh.

“Don’t worry. I won’t force you if you don’t want to. I’ll leave,” he said, about to turn away.

My eyes widened at what he said.

Leave?

That can’t happen. I’m sure my father would hurt me if he found out about this.

“W-wait,” I quickly said, grabbing his hand to stop him.

He stopped and faced me again, raising an eyebrow at me, making me sigh.

Slowly, I removed the white dress I was wearing. I wasn’t wearing any underwear—not even a bra—so I stood completely naked in front of him.

His expression seemed to brighten at what I did, but his eyes remained fixed on my flushed, embarrassed face.

“Do you hate me that much?” he asked.

I closed my eyes and let him pull me closer by the waist, allowing him to embrace me and feel my body.

I felt goosebumps rise on my skin when he started kissing me.

I bit my lip at what he was doing—an unfamiliar sensation spreading through my body with every touch he made.

“Ashton…” I whispered his name when I felt his hand squeeze my chest.

I took a deep breath when I felt the soft bed behind me and his body pressing over mine.

I opened my eyes and shyly looked at him as he removed his belt.

He stared deeply into my eyes while doing it, until he completely removed every piece of clothing from his body.

My face grew even hotter when I saw his arousal. I quickly looked away, overwhelmed with embarrassment.

I could feel the heat of his body when he leaned over me again and kissed my neck.

“It’s okay. I’ll take you slowly,” he whispered in his deep voice while kissing my neck.

“I’m still a virgin,” I whispered back, nervously looking at him.

This was my first sexual experience with a man. I didn’t know anything about this—I didn’t know what to feel or what to do.

“I know. That’s why I’ll be gentle with you. I won’t hurt you.”

The heaviness in my chest eased a little because of his words.

I let him do whatever he wanted with my body until I finally felt him enter me.

I shut my eyes tightly as a loud cry escaped my lips.

“Aghhhh!” I screamed.

The pain was overwhelming—it felt like my body was being split in two as I felt him inside me.

Tears streamed down my cheeks.

I opened my eyes to look at him.

His jaw was clenched, his gaze intense, as if he was holding himself back.

I was startled when he suddenly moved, but quickly stopped again, a restrained groan escaping my lips from the pain.

My nails dug into his chest because of what he did.

And it felt like I made a mistake when I moaned—his breathing became heavier, and I could see he was close to losing control.

“Fuck,” he cursed, immediately capturing my lips in a kiss.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. His kisses were harsh, yet gentle at the same time.

I couldn’t describe what I was feeling anymore. The pain I felt earlier slowly faded, and instead, my mind became consumed by our hot, intense kisses.

He sucked and bit my tongue, and I felt myself growing wetter because of the way he kissed me.

I didn’t know how long we stayed like that, but his kisses alone were enough to make me weak.

I barely noticed the slow, careful movements of his body inside mine.

“Ohh—g—ahh…” another moan escaped my lips.

Our lips finally parted, but his kisses didn’t stop. They trailed down from my jaw to my neck.

His soft kisses tickled, making my body feel weak.

His movements became slow and steady, and the moans I had been holding back finally started to escape.

“Fuck,” I heard him whisper before I felt his desperate kisses on my neck.

I shut my eyes tightly and moaned louder. The feeling was different now as his movements became faster.

His breathing grew heavier, and I could feel his hot breath against my neck. It sent unfamiliar waves of pleasure through my body.

My thighs began to tremble as he continued moving. I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn’t—I felt too weak from everything he was doing.

“Ohhhh…” I moaned loudly again when he suddenly thrust deeper, making me feel him fully inside me.

I wrapped my arms around his neck for support, but the overwhelming sensation made me dig my nails into his back. It didn’t seem to affect him as he continued what he was doing.

The only sounds filling the room were the sharp contact of our bodies and my uncontrollable moans.

As time passed, his movements became faster and deeper.

His grip on my waist tightened as my body arched beneath him.