It's been four years now. Four years ago, Grace gave birth to a baby boy named Asher. A strong but beautiful boy. He's brilliant and clever.
Many things have changed now and are for sure, not good. Grace has changed even Aaron did too.
Grace is not a bubbly person anymore. She lost her personality now. She lost her smile; she lost her heart, her emotions, her feelings.
She's not Grace who was trying to make her relationship with Aaron. She's not Grace who was seeking for her mates warmth and comfort. She's not that Grace, who was waiting for her mate. She's not that Grace, who was comforting herself telling herself a lie. She's not the Grace who once hoped for little things her mate did. She's not the Grace who hoped now. She's not the Grace who has been hurt not physically but emotionally and verbally. She's not the Grace who cried in longing and despair for her mate.
She's not Grace without her soul which hid in the depth of her pain long ago. Weak and miserable can't see the disgust and regret in her mate's eyes.
She lost herself.
And now she's just living without emotions, without the warmth. Without a fake hope. Without heart. Without love and her mate's care and affection.
Just like a living stone. Cold and still, but breathing. Walking, seeing, eating, but without any feelings.
Four years ago, she lost herself entirely after living in false hopes and holding onto her feelings and believing that one day she would get her mates attention and a little bit of love in his cold heart. She lost her pathetic hope of getting her mates affection and love.
Everything, she lost everything when one day she saw a picture of someone in her mate's closet hiding in the deepest of the corner in a beautiful box safely like he doesn't want it to have a little bit of crease. Like a most precious gem.
She cried for hours, whole night in betrayal, in hurt, in love. Knowing the one, she's longing for whom she's trying to get a little love in her heart, whom the baby she's carrying already has someone in his heart, mind and soul.
She lost herself the day when her beautiful baby was born, the day when her mate smiled so big looking so proud to have a baby boy, eyes shine with happiness when he held him the first time looking at a proud father showing his baby to his family forgetting the one who gave him his baby.
Not once did he ask if she was alright or in pain after hours of painful delivery. Not once did he look towards her when Grace was looking at him waiting for her mate to come and appreciate her because that's what all girls want when they give birth to a baby. They need attention and affection. They need their mate's warmth from the painful delivery, but nothing happened. Her mate never once looked towards her too busy admiring his baby.
Too busy that he didn't see the silent tears coming from her eyes, too busy in his happy feeling to notice her longing eyes.
Instead, Riya came to her asking about her health and feelings she just gave a small smile tears still leaking, but Riya thought her hurt and longing tears were actually from happiness. So she smiled at her and congratulated me.
Grace smiles tiredly but happily when she can hold her son finally. Her baby looks so tiny and cute. She caressed his cheeks, playing with his fingers when baby looked at her with his big doe eyes open a little. She smiled and kissed his chubby red cheeks. She kissed his fingers and hugged her sunflower to her chest, feeling the blooming happiness in her heart after a very long time.
But it went fastly just as it came when her tiny baby snatched away from her motherly arms by her mate's mother who looked at her in boredom and disgust. Her eyes longingly at her baby, she wants to hold her precious more, but her mother-in-law won't give him to her.
They gave her baby a name well Aaron gave. He just announced it not asking if Grace wants to or not. Suppose Grace has any name for his baby or not.
Aaron just proudly announced it.
That was the last day she cried, the previous day she broke down but whole entirely not a one-piece left. She lost it that day.
That day she got the most beautiful blessing, but that was also the day everything shattered entirely within her. She closed everything that day.
That day she closed the door of her dead and shattered heart, the day where he let all out at once and then closed it for forever.
No love, no attention, no mate and no forgiveness. Everything closed that day for good. She hid her scent that day who no longer can hold the bond between them, who got so weak and tired. She hides it for her good.
That was the last day of her misery and despair. She won't let anyone come now. She cried but for the last time. For good.
Aaron, Well, where should we start from what he feels. Hmmm, how about let's go to the past and highlight from the day his baby was born four years ago.The most beautiful day of his life when he held his baby for the first time. His strong and handsome champ, Asher. That was the happiest day of his life.Two months after his baby was born, he started to feel or like realize things, concerning Grace.He noticed how things have changed. Grace doesn't talk like literally he never heard her saying anything. But he dismissed the thought thinking that maybe she's not feeling well or something and focused on his 2 months old baby.Time has passed by and little by little, he feels like there's something wrong. He can't think of anything, but every time he comes home, there is this feeling like-like, he doesn't know how to word it. It's so gloomy or sad?He doesn't know.But after ten months when his baby turned 1 year old, he felt something. He noticed that he couldn't smell Grace's scent. He
Day by day he's feeling something he shouldn't feel. He shouldn't be bothered if Grace won't talk anymore, or if Grace doesn't show any emotions anymore, he shouldn't feel bothered by Grace lack of interest, he shouldn't be alarmed if he can't scent her,he shouldn't be concerned about the distance Grace made from everyone, he shouldn't be bothered that their baby is always neglecting Grace and prefer him over Grace,he shouldn't feel bothered about Grace feels. He shouldn't fucking bother!!!!He's frustrated because he is.He is fucking bother by everything.And the big question is...WHY?He feels like clowning himself. He doesn't understand what's happening to him. He feels disregarded, gloomy but why. Simple...Because of Grace.He feels guilty without knowing the reason. His heart is scratching. His chest is sober; he feels like a criminal without doing any crime. What did he do to feel like this?He knows but just not accepting it like a coward.He came home after the long hours
He stood up after eating and discarded the dishes into the sink. He goes upstairs going towards his son's room first to check on him. He opened the door lightly not to make much noise and gets inside. He walks to him, smiling down at him, seeing his baby sleeping peacefully with an adorable pout on his lips.He caressed his hair, leaning down to kiss his forehead lightly. "Sweet dreams, baby."He gets up and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him. He walked to his room and entered going towards his closet to get the clothes.He took a long cold shower to relax his mind and heart, and wear comfortable clothes. He walked towards the bed and lay down. He looked to his side at the lump of his mate wrapped in a blanket far away at the very end of the bed.he signs remembering the time when they used to cuddle together"Aaron!! it tickle don't do that" Grace giggle adorably removing Aaron hands from her belly."But I want to talk to our baby," Aaron said and got to his business:
Aaron"He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap."Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth."Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered."Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou-" her voice cut him off."No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply."But-" he sighs.It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.She is doing the same which he did to her."Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.He sighs already annoye
Now it was one of those lucky days for Aaron ,when he can be in Grace's presence.And it all thanks to his little baby.They were right now sitting on the living room couch, watching a Disney movie as per their son's wish, or ordering to watch a movie together as a family.The little indeed prefers his daddy more, but he also loves his mommy so much, but his mama always is so serious, never smiling at him. She never played with him. Never praise him. Never cuddle him. So the little mind of a child thought that she doesn't like him. So he always subtly tried to spend time with his mommy. Who doesn't talk unless it's much needed? But at least he's in his Mom's presence, that's all the baby wants.He never dares to disturb his mama, scared that his mama will get mad at him.So that's why he forced his daddy to see the family movie so he could be with his both parents.Right now, little Asher is sitting on his daddy's lap leaning onto his chest, which was sitting at the couch. And Grace i
Aaron's heart was erratically beating faster, his eyes darting here and there searching for the petite pale female that goes by the name with Grace.....his love.Who was missing?It's almost midnight, which means four hours, he's been searching for her non-stop. His stomach had a horrible feeling; his instinct is warning him, telling him something is not right. His mate bond was on high alert, fearing his mate safety.He's scared.Where's Grace? Where can she go at this hour? Why would she go? She never goes out of the house since age. What should he do? Where will he search for her?These are the questions flooding in his mind, almost blowing his mind out at the worry. Plus his instinct is giving him a strong signal to have his protective arms around Grace.He fisted his shirt on his chest where his heart is. He feels a sudden panic. Something is not good. She was in danger. He can feel it.He needs to get her in the safety of his protective arms before something happens to her. He w
“You should be ashamed of yourself" Grace's cold but bitter voice reached straight at Aaron's heart, raising his guilt.Aaron turned grace around so that she can face himself; he looked at Grace's eyes holding the deepest pain and the broken look on her face, he felt the deep scratch in his heart. So decadent and painful.He held Grace's hands in his. Tightly pulling her a little closer still holding the hand he whispered sincerely. "I am so sorry.""I know what I did is unforgivable, but please I am sorry. Forgive me" his eyes filled with guilty tears running down his nose to his lips down his chin, coming one after another.He clasped his hands together with Grace's hand in between putting his forehead on their hands whispering. "I am sorry" and 'forgive me.'"I am so g-guilty Grace, so guilty. I regret ever t-treating you like this. You never deserve that babe, never." His painful voice showing his guilt and regret making anyone's heart soft but not Grace's.Grace snatched her hand
"G-Grace-i' am sorry- I-I didn't k-know you were f-feeling like that..."Aaron can't find the words to say; he's speechless. Even sorry is looking useless in front of Grace who was sobbing loudly holding onto her chest, covering her mouth. Her scent filled with pain, sadness, longing, guilt, betrayal and regret there's so much going through."T-That's the problem A-Aaron-you never know w-what's going on" Grace shakes her head, breathing to calm herself a little though it's not working."You never know how it feels to see the pity in other people's eyes for you.." she breathed, trying to subside her sobbing."You know Aaron when I gave birth to my baby; I was the happiest. When I h-hold his tiny body in my arms, when he is looking at me with his adorable doe eyes, I question myself that time, how can I say this little angel in my arms am-mistake.I felt so s-shameful to feel distant with my baby. Still, I can't do anything when my baby was s-snatched away from me that time by your m-mo