Aaron"
He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap.
"Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth.
"Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.
Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered.
"Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou-" her voice cut him off.
"No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply.
"But-" he sighs.
It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.
She is doing the same which he did to her.
"Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.
He sighs already annoyed just by her voice. Her presence irritates him. "Come in" Grace walked inside and gave him a small smile, she stood in front of him nervously playing with her fingers. Her bottom lips between his teeth.
"What? Are you going to say anything or not?" Grace heart ramming inside her chest. Don't know how to ask him.
"Grace get out! You are wasting my time" Grace jumps at the booming voice of her mate.
"I-I want to a-ask you something" she hastily said, not wanting to annoy her mate more than she already did by her pathetic nerves.
"Ask away and get out!" Grace bites his lips.
"I-I thought if w-we should go and e-e-eat dinner outside, as a d-date?" she nervously asked, holding her breath. She was scared of what Aaron would say.
"What makes you think I will go outside with you, it's a shame even to call you my mate." Grace's eyes welled up with tears; her heartfelt a heaviness hurting to even breath properly like a pathetic girl.
Hearing from your mate, your that he is ashamed of you is the biggest slap at her face, making her insecure to the core she feels like a dirty fag to even stand in front of her mate. She feels ashamed of herself, not wanting Aaron even to see her face because she feels ugly and unwanted.
Her nose flared trying to keep in her tears as not to make Aaron think more ugly and pathetic that she already is of herself.
She apologized and turned around practically ran out of there but can't help the pathetic sob that left her throat at the solemn and hurt feeling in her heart. She choked on her tears on the way out of there.
Aaron sighs and rubs his eyes, the heaviness in his heart worsen as the image of his mates hurt, and crying mate comes into his mind fresh like it just happened yesterday.
How can he do this? How could he tell her such cruel words? And he's complaining why Grace is not coming with him.
It's his fault. All his fault.
He knows what it means to hear such words from your mate; it's not pleasant. No one will wish to listen to that from their mate. That crushed you whole, mates are fragile and soft heated they can't take it.
And no he's not ashamed of her, his mate. He's not; he will never.
At that time, there were some problems in his mayor office that he was highly annoyed and mad at, that he took it out on Grace when she asked him. He did feel bad after that because it was at the moment, he didn't want to tell her that. Sure he is always annoyed and irritated at him, but he never wishes to say something shameful to Grace. He's not that heartless to play with someone else's feelings.
Mostly when he also felt that... but that's a story for another time.
But he shrugged it off at that time; he was too prideful to apologize to anyone, even if he was her mate, his parents, his colleague. He won't apologize to anyone. His dominance and dignity didn't allow him to look down in front of anyone.
Is this how Grace feels when he rejects her every time she asks to go out. Is this how she feels she feels when he ignored him back then, not paying attention to her. When he jerked her away from himself every time she tried to make skinship?
How did she cope up with all his deeds?
It's so hard. His chest is blowing up with heaviness every time he thinks about the past. The guilt that made a permanent place in his heart worsened every new memory his mind popped up with making him feel regret every corner of his body creeping into his soul.
If he feels this hard to cope up this guilt and regret....
How can Grace do that?
She's a young fangirl, weakest of all out there.
Grace had to feel all the hurt and humiliation. She was living with all those hurtful words, his behaviour and the longing and much more.
And he's not even ten steps there to feel what Grace feels......
Now it was one of those lucky days for Aaron ,when he can be in Grace's presence.And it all thanks to his little baby.They were right now sitting on the living room couch, watching a Disney movie as per their son's wish, or ordering to watch a movie together as a family.The little indeed prefers his daddy more, but he also loves his mommy so much, but his mama always is so serious, never smiling at him. She never played with him. Never praise him. Never cuddle him. So the little mind of a child thought that she doesn't like him. So he always subtly tried to spend time with his mommy. Who doesn't talk unless it's much needed? But at least he's in his Mom's presence, that's all the baby wants.He never dares to disturb his mama, scared that his mama will get mad at him.So that's why he forced his daddy to see the family movie so he could be with his both parents.Right now, little Asher is sitting on his daddy's lap leaning onto his chest, which was sitting at the couch. And Grace i
Aaron's heart was erratically beating faster, his eyes darting here and there searching for the petite pale female that goes by the name with Grace.....his love.Who was missing?It's almost midnight, which means four hours, he's been searching for her non-stop. His stomach had a horrible feeling; his instinct is warning him, telling him something is not right. His mate bond was on high alert, fearing his mate safety.He's scared.Where's Grace? Where can she go at this hour? Why would she go? She never goes out of the house since age. What should he do? Where will he search for her?These are the questions flooding in his mind, almost blowing his mind out at the worry. Plus his instinct is giving him a strong signal to have his protective arms around Grace.He fisted his shirt on his chest where his heart is. He feels a sudden panic. Something is not good. She was in danger. He can feel it.He needs to get her in the safety of his protective arms before something happens to her. He w
“You should be ashamed of yourself" Grace's cold but bitter voice reached straight at Aaron's heart, raising his guilt.Aaron turned grace around so that she can face himself; he looked at Grace's eyes holding the deepest pain and the broken look on her face, he felt the deep scratch in his heart. So decadent and painful.He held Grace's hands in his. Tightly pulling her a little closer still holding the hand he whispered sincerely. "I am so sorry.""I know what I did is unforgivable, but please I am sorry. Forgive me" his eyes filled with guilty tears running down his nose to his lips down his chin, coming one after another.He clasped his hands together with Grace's hand in between putting his forehead on their hands whispering. "I am sorry" and 'forgive me.'"I am so g-guilty Grace, so guilty. I regret ever t-treating you like this. You never deserve that babe, never." His painful voice showing his guilt and regret making anyone's heart soft but not Grace's.Grace snatched her hand
"G-Grace-i' am sorry- I-I didn't k-know you were f-feeling like that..."Aaron can't find the words to say; he's speechless. Even sorry is looking useless in front of Grace who was sobbing loudly holding onto her chest, covering her mouth. Her scent filled with pain, sadness, longing, guilt, betrayal and regret there's so much going through."T-That's the problem A-Aaron-you never know w-what's going on" Grace shakes her head, breathing to calm herself a little though it's not working."You never know how it feels to see the pity in other people's eyes for you.." she breathed, trying to subside her sobbing."You know Aaron when I gave birth to my baby; I was the happiest. When I h-hold his tiny body in my arms, when he is looking at me with his adorable doe eyes, I question myself that time, how can I say this little angel in my arms am-mistake.I felt so s-shameful to feel distant with my baby. Still, I can't do anything when my baby was s-snatched away from me that time by your m-mo
A week, one week after that dreadful night for both Aaron and Grace. In which Aaron didn't see Grace at all. She locked herself in a guest room and never came out of it. Only when she feels Aaron is not at home or when she needs to make food for her child. She never talks or sees Aaron.And Aaron always knocks on her door or stays there the whole night leaning against the sidewall of the door sitting on the floor and just muttering loads of apologies again and again. Asking for forgiveness and begging for a chance. Tears were leaving his eyes wetting the bed with its drops, making a tiny pool of their own.Because he can't bear the pain and sadness that's coming from their bond, from Grace, he already has his pain and guilt that's hard to handle and feeling what Grace is feeling is doubling the regret.Grace never let him involve in a bond because Aaron also wasn't interested at first, Now when Grace opens up the bond, everything comes like a landslide and forces him in its fall under
Mama! Mama! Wate up mommy" Asher shouted coming into his mother's room that was unlocked thankfully and climbed on the bed with difficulty but succeeded and started jumping on the bed.Grace stirred in her sleep and rose to see her son jumping and shouting. She was shocked because never ever her son ever came to her by himself. Asher after seeing his mama sit on the bed quickly waddle towards her, climbing on her lap and hugged her neck tightly."Dood molnig mama(good morning)" he cutely says giggling. Meanwhile, Grace's eyes widen in surprise, she never imagines her baby hugging her or even coming to her in the morning. She quickly wrapped her arms around the small frame tightly and kissed his head lovingly.After so long she gets to hold her baby tightly without fearing to scare her Baby. She feels so relieved and unbearably happy to be able to, even if it's just another dream she's seeing but she wants to live that dream because she longed to do that so bad.Asher let go to see gra
Come come mama!" a four year old little boy dragged his mama out of her room and towards the kitchen where Aaron was standing nervously.Grace's happy smile instantly wiped out of her face looking at Aaron who was fidgeting with his fingers."Look mama, daddy and Asher made a surprise breakfast for mama" Asher excitedly says, still don't know the difference between R and L and misspelling it, jumping up and down while holding his mama's hand tightly in his small soft one.Grace look down at her happy Baby and smile softly at him then look up and ignore the standing Mate and walk towards the dining table and sit on the chair while the small Baby jump on his mama's lap wanted to sit there and who is Grace to say no, she happily made her Baby comfortable on her lap and peck her head."Do you like it mama, dada made it and Asher also helped dada" Asher says giggling cutely.Aaron cleared his throat and awkwardly sat on his chair. A little hurt by his Mate's ignorance but it was expected.
It's been a month now Aaron gave Grace her space but also getting all his chances to express his feelings to her. He constantly apologized to her but Grace always ignored him, pleading like he's not even standing there.But he never stopped, he knows it will take time for Grace to open up to him. So he tried his best to get Grace's attention.He never lost hope, not after what he did to Grace. The heaviness in his heart is still there reminding him about his wrong and heartless deeds.He gets downstairs after getting ready for his work. He saw his son playing with his toys and walked towards him."Hey Baby" he picked his son up in his arms. "Daddy~" Asher squealed."Give daddy a goodbye kiss" he puckered his lips. Asher instantly kisses and squirm to let go as he is disturbed from his playtime.Aaron chuckled."Ok ok but first tell me where's your mama?""Kitchn""It's kitchen baby" he corrected and gave one last kiss then let go. Asher instantly continued doing what he was doing befor