26. What if?

MEGHAN

Had that really just happened?

I put my hands to my face to try to cool my cheeks. The burning was for sure real. I wasn't imagining how hot my cheeks were or how hot I was all over.

My body felt too hot with my skin being too tight and I wondered if maybe that was a little like how Adrian felt right now.

"Stop it! Stop thinking about it," I told myself.

Guys were always trying new ways to get it in. Adrian was playing with me. He was either trying to convince me to have sex with him or just trying to embarrass me to get back at me for---everything.

'Everything' was a lot; I wanted to know if it would ever go away or if it would be there between the two of us for the rest of our lives.

I didn't want running away to Boston to be the final mistake I got to make with Adrian.

The longer I was home, the more I realized I wanted to try things again with him even if he was a jerk.

Adrian was sort of like MY jerk so I was willing to deal with his moodiness, his sarcasm, his wise