Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and just barely recognizing yourself in the reflection? Well that is me, I have loved and lost. Survived and thrived, screamed and cried into my pillow tears nobody else got to see. But I never gave up hope, never lied down and never let them see me cry. Until him, he could see past the facade and see the real me. He wanted to love me, concole me and protect me. But I have lost hope in humanity, men, true love because life just arent a fairytale right? Its hard work and nothing comes easy even if you would like to believe it does it just doesnt. He is my mothers new husbands son and 10 years older than me. His blue eyes keep staring at me, it should warm me to the core right. Make me feel something anything. But it doesn't he makes women run after him and beg on their knees. But me, I have been down this road before. The charming smile, arrogant cocky attitude. It always ends the same, me covered in bruises crying on the bathroom floor. Thinking its all my fault, all me. But he just wouldn't let go. He wouldn't give up. And the more I turn him down the more it turns him on. I am only that strong before I give in,and even though I know how this is about to end. If he keeps staring at me with desire in his eyes as if I am the reason he is breathing. I know I am about to take the leap this can go down to damn ways. But the question is do I or dont I. Because fear can be your anchor or it can be your wings
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"You look beautiful sweetheart, this time it will be different I promise". I heard that so many times I have lost count luckily for me, I don't live with my mom anymore. I live on campus second year of college, I graduated highschool 2years earlier. So I don't have to go through all of this all over again. There is so many times I missed my twin sister she would have so much to say right now. So here we go again, I take one last look in the mirror my natural white blond hair frames my face. I left it the way it is, it's long and curly. One of the many features all 8 my girlfriends love to rave about. I have to admit I adore my hair, it's long and goes down just underneath my waist. I never wore makeup unless I went out, which is why I could hardly recognize myself. My pink and purple colored eyes were framed with my extra long eyelashes. I were the only person in the world with pink and purple colored eyes and to mom it made me special and unique. In the eyes of the world it made me weird, and a freak. My friends continously reminded me, that it was my best feature. Science can't explain it, but me and my twin sister used to be identical except for my eye color. She had our moms gorgeous blue eyes, and I were stuck with this. I straightend my dress, check my red lipstick and out we went.The car drive was quite, I guess my mom were just as nervous as me meeting her new man. It always went the same, they were charming and sweet. Until my mom got married, then you barely recognize the difference. It were like two different people, but she kept believing and so did I. The drive was short, but to me it felt like forever.At arrival the restaurant were classy, decorated to perfection. I followed my mom as she walked infront of me, she was tall and had curves on all the right places. She truelly is the most beautiful woman I have ever met. Long luscious blonde hair in curly waves like mine, and a smile that can lit up like the fourth of July. Her laughter always brought a smile to my face.I was happy if she was, it's our thing. But she is also extremely strong and brave. I adored my mom, we walked between all the tables as we heard the whispers and gasps. And then we reached them Mr.Clark and his son whose name I would love to forget. But now it was branded inside my skull. Mr.Clark also known as Richard and my soon to be stepfather is attractive I should give him that. Tall with salt and pepper hair. His smile breathtaking, and living proof that chivelray is not dead. All the more reason for me to back down and back of, but then I turned to him. Keegan Kruger Clarkhis bright blue eyes can see right through you I swear, and that side smile could make me scream his name. But then again, I know his type. But let me be honest I have never seen a beast of a man like him. With pitch black midnight hair, short at the sides and long at the top with a couple of stray strands in his eyes. Hell. Those gorgeous eyes framed with pitch black eyelashes that most woman would kill for. This man is meant to be a piece of art, a greek god of some sorts. I stood in awe staring, until I realized everybody was waiting for my reply. Immediatly my face flushed and I turned bright red, I could feel my ears lit up. And I immediatly averted eye contact, looking down and then back up I saw humor in his eyes and just like that the spell is broken. He is defintely used to the attention, used to woman acting like fools around him. Well... that just wont be me.Keegan P.O.VMy father barely dated, after my mother left him to raise a child alone he never looked at a woman. Until he started seeing Madelyn Evans a couple of months ago. He was smiling, laughing and all of the sudden texting like crazy. I am a ex Navy SEAL and medically discarged a couple of months ago. Now I have to start taking over my fathers company as only heir.I have never dated before, it has never been a thing for me. I have a extremely possessive and obsessive personality disorder. The therapist diagnosed me with psychotic tendancies, but my father wrote it of as ambition. Nothing wrong with knowing what you want and working hard to achieve your goals.But then I met her, my angel. The woman who at first sight made me lose all of my senses and flip the switches of every single tendancy I have ever had. I wanted her, craved her, protect her with every fibre of my being. I heard the gasps and whispers, and as I look up I saw her. Her mother and my fathers girlfriend was walking upfront, the only way I know is how fast my father got up. But my eyes focused on her, my heart rate sped up. She introduced herself to my father and the to me, Catalya Evans even her name is breathtaking. She's short 5.2ft and fragile she has the face of an angel and a body made for sin. I couldn't move, and it appears neither could she. I couldn't help but smile. Now finally I have something worth waiting for, something worth working for. I wanted her, and she will be mine no matter how long it takes. No matter what I have to do. Let's just say this is about to get interesting and I couldn't wait to see what happens next.Emily P.O.VThings were going great with me and Bryan, he couldn’t see each other every single day like I would’ve liked but overall every time we did see each other we were making out like teenagers. It’s just every time my mind would start to wander towards Caleb, I hated the idea it felt like I was being unfaithful. Me and Alexa met up for lunch and even though she isn’t the best friend I would love to share this with I knew she would never judge me. We sat looking at one another and I have to admit motherhood fitted her well. “So why do I get the honor of being the only one invited to lunch?” I sighed fuck how do I even start this “Okay so, I cannot discuss this with Cat, I mean she is our best friend but she is also black or white no in between and she is always the right way and all, and somehow I feel like I am betraying her in the process.” Alexa placed her order just like me and she started smiling “you know she’s the last person on earth that’s judgmental to right?” Aren’t
Emily P.O.VI really adored Bryan, and after he even helped out with the twins here and there. I just knew he was the most incredible man yet. We spent the entire day together even after Cat and Keegan left with the twins, we stayed in bed most of the day and watched Netflix and ate take out. We talked and got to know each other a lot better. He made me feel comfortable especially after he got my best friends approval. Cat really liked him and I was grateful, I really wanted all of my friends to get along. When the evening rolled around he told me he had to head home since he had fur babies at home, and that even made the whole feeling inside of me worse. Because I was always taught a person who loves animals are a keeper, so I didn’t even have a second thought when he kissed me goodbye, once again my mind wandered towards Caleb and I really wanted to know what his kisses would feel like. This all on its own made me feel like an absolute terrible person, here I was with the most incr
Emily P.O.V We both woke up the next morning wrapped up into each other’s embrace and since it was Saturday we got to sleep in a little. But his snoring must be a turn down right now, speaking of the turbo engine all fired up. He nearly had me off of the couch, his one arm thrown over his eyes to shield off the sun streaming in through the curtains. There was no sleeping in with this man, so I got up and started with the coffee I couldn’t really cook so we will have to go out and grab some. But with my luck Cat showed up with Keegan and their babies. That’s right I forgot to lock up last night, but to be honest Cat had no idea of privacy. Since she and Keegan had an open door policy she assumed all of us had. Before I didn’t mind, but I think Keegan might be a little intimidating for Bryan. Especially since Caleb was mad at me and thrown into the mix. But the moment that door burst open and I heard my screaming babies my heart didn’t care about anything right now, Bryan jumped up wi
Emily P.O.VI really liked talking to Caleb, I texted him earlier during the day and told him I had a date that night and asked if he would be able to save me should it happen that everything turned out horribly, for some kind of reason he disliked the idea of me going out on another date. He was short and asked where I was heading to. I gave him all the details and even though I was late tonight like always things turned out great. Bryan was a really nice guy, had a stable job and lived in his own place. He told me he was single and loved the outdoors and asked a lot about me. I enjoyed the company and he was at least a seven. He made me laugh which were a really big deal, I always loved a guy with a good sense of humor. He paid the bill and didn’t expect anything. He offered me a ride home but that was it, we shared a really nice kiss and even though the was no fireworks or me being turned on it wasn’t that bad either. Although by the time Caleb came out of the restaurant and Bryan
Emily P.O.VA couple of days later we were having our annual friend’s BBQ at Catalya and Keegan’s house. Their new born babies were so damn cute and a part of me was seriously jealous of them. Alexa’s baby boy to and our idea of fun as friends changed, truth be told I was incredibly grateful I hated having to always run for the baseball bat in my car’s trunk to defend my gorgeous friends. They all meant the world to me and protecting them was my only priority, because let’s face facts even though I might have my slight differences with Alexa and some of the other goody two shoes in our group we all are inseparable and love each other more than anything. But people had a neck for hurting Catalya since she is the sweetest and loving thing in the world. And the fact that both her and Alexa was now mommies and engaged was incredibly satisfying but also the envy I felt towards them wasn’t poisonous either. I admired both of them and they were truly the most incredible parents together wit
Emily P.O.VI should’ve known this day would end like this, in an absolute disaster. But no, I just had to come out to this darn date. My day started of like this, first the air was hot and humid. So much so that the sweat ran down my back, my make-up ended up in a complete disaster not to mention my hair. My heel broke before I even made it to work, I then broke of the other so that my feet could at least be equal height. After this I had a horrible day at work, meetings from start to finish and of course I did all of this with my broken heels and smudged make-up. After work I drove home and got a flat tire, I had to fix it all on my own because well this is how I grew up. Independent, I made it home just in time to grab a quick shower, dress and doll myself up for my super-hot date. We met on Tinder and I couldn’t wait we hit it off since I swiped left and he seemed really nice. But as soon as I stepped outside the day’s hot humid air collected into thunderstorm cloud hanging above
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