Anything for Love

Shanaya Singhania POV

Ryan was holding me and kissing me passionately and I was so lost at that moment. I was holding his shirt and he was wrapping his arm around my back and with his other hand he was holding my face and was going deeper and deeper I was out of oxygen and he stopped.

He smiled looked at me and hugged me gently. I was panting heavily but I got better after a while.

"It was your first kiss??"

"No, not at all."

"Oh really??? Come on don't lie."

I couldn't say no. I never got so attached to anyone. I was afraid of Dad and I wasn't sure how would he react to my affair so I never bothered for making one. Even when guys proposed to me I just said No.

But with him, I felt like I can let my guard down. He was always so charming and the best thing about him was that he always made me feel so special. He makes me feel Worthy.

"Okay don't answer. I know you are lying. But don't worry I have some experience I would make you an expert."

When he said experience I first time realized that I never asked him about his girlfriend. He once said that he had a girlfriend but we never got to discuss that.

Anyhow, we did our shopping and went back home. On the way, I discussed it with him.

"Ryan you never told me about your girlfriend. I mean what happened? How did it start ??"

"Oh, I don't think that's important. It's my past."

"I wanna know."

"Okay if you are insisting. Her name was Jennifer. We were in the same class and we got a project together and by the time project ended we became good friends. So she invited me to a party at her place and that night we went too close and after that, we started dating each other. She was nice."

"So what happened??"

"Nothing. I mean we both knew we can't be together forever. I mean I knew mom and dad wanted an Indian girl for me. I tried hard but Jennifer didn't like it there. So, she decided to break up and decided not complicated. Moreover, her dad hated Indians too. And she didn't want that. So it was best for us to separate."

"I am so sorry. I mean can you guys patch up now?? I mean it's never too late."

He stopped the car immediately.

"What?? What did you just say??"

"I mean is there any chance now?? I mean I can talk to my mom. "

"Oh come on Shanaya. It is okay. And it's been a year. She got married last month. And Listen don't you ever talk like that. I know I had someone in my past but you are my present and I want to make my future with you. So, stop being so generous. We are about to get engaged. I mean I am ready and I know I love you. But tell me Do you want this?? I mean if you don't want this I can't call off the engagement."

"No, No I didn't mean that. I was just feeling bad for you."

"Oh really. You can make me feel better right here."

He smiled and I knew what he wanted.

"No, we are getting late. Let's go back."

"Nope. We are not going without kids."

I kissed his cheeks and he smiled.

"It's okay I am relying on this but next time I won't be satisfied by this kiss only."

I was thinking all that while shopping and on the way back those memories were rushing and Mom asked.

"Shanaya?? Are you alright?? Look at me."

"Yeah, Mom I am fine. I just am feeling a headache."

"If you don't want this We won't force you."

"No mom. It's nothing like that. I can't just stick to my past for a person like him. I want this. I know it's best for me and all of us. Rahul is a good guy."

"Okay as you wish."

We went home and that evening Rahul called and wanted to take me out for the dinner. I remembered two days before our engagement Ryan also wanted to take me out for dinner. And my parents had no issues.

In the evening I got ready and Rahul took me out to a fancy restaurant. The food was amazing.He was talking to me and I was feeling great. After that, we went back home and he stopped me while I was going in. He hugged me and kissed me gently. It wasn't a long kiss but I had to bear it. So I said bye and went in.

I went to my room and I was laying and thinking about my date night with him. It was the wild night of my life. I remember we went for dinner and after dinner, he took me to a bar and we danced like crazy.

And on the way to our home. He stopped the car. He held my hand and kissed it he pulled me closer to him and rubbed his hand on my neck. It ran a sensation in my whole body.

"I don't know what you have. But I can't resist you Shanaya. I can't take my eyes off you. I can't think of anything else but you. I mean I can't stop myself from falling in love with you. You are driving me crazy with your love."

He then started kissing me and was kissing me crazily. I was lost in it. He was kissing my earlobe and gradually moving his hand towards my breasts.

He was rubbing them gently from above my dress and then he started kissing my neck and started trailing kisses from my neck to my cleavage and I couldn't stop him. I couldn't think of anything else 

At that moment I wanted nothing else but his love. His craziness.