" this cannot be happening to me "The words pass through my head,when people say things like never do anything in anger cause you will regret it, listen to them because they are always right.
The realization that I shouldn't have done what I did while blinded by my anger is so annoying that I feel like hitting my head against a rock a few times before digging a hole for myself and then burying myself in it. I am calm most of the time, that chill slow to anger kind of girl that no one thinks has a malicious bone in her body ,I am that kind of girl. I can't even hurt a fly for crying out loud , so why did today have to be so different. I had a gut feeling that today wasn't going to be good but brushed it off since it was David's birthday and our anniversary so I kept saying today was going to be great ,what could go wrong? I thought my gut was wrong cause beginning of the day was going great . But I was the wrong one; always trust your gut feeling because it will never ever let you down. I should have listened to mine because then, bad things wouldn't have happened like what is happening now . Like my hand finding a glass cup candle instead of a hairbrush and flinging it at my ex-boyfriend, who I forgot, has fast reflexes that he loves bragging about and dodges it. The glass hitting the wall behind his sister, well, not his sister but his lover, who screams like a banshee jumping off the bed and scrambling as far away from the bed as possible, which, to be honest, was pretty funny to watch. The candle miraculously didn't go off but decided to light the whole bed on fire with the speed of light, which ended up with the whole room being engulfed in flames, before anyone could blink, talk less say anything. David's fast thinking luckily saves the day, fortunately for me, because I wasn't comprehending anything that was happening. He rushes to his phone and calls the fire department; he gets us out of the room as the flames seem to chase us out, we had to run away from a literal line of fire that seems to be following us out. Luckily, the firefighters arrived on time and put out the fire before it could kill us or give us third-degree burns; they investigated the cause and realized that a very flammable substance was poured everywhere, which led to the fire spreading like wildfire. Which they later identified as perfume. The matter should have ended there just like that, but before they could leave, Anastasia decided to act like the victim instead of the guilty culprit. "This is your doing; you nearly killed me and my boyfriend, you psycho stalker, "she shouts at the top of her voice. I stare at her in shock which has been my state of mind for the past hour if I am being complete, how dare she call me psycho she was the crazy bitch that pretended to be David's sister for the past four years and she is the dumbo that caused the accident, the fire would have been easily put out if the whole bed and the rest of the room was cover in her perfume. "What are you talking about you are the psycho bitch that decided to decide to lie about who you are just so you can sleep with my boyfriend without me knowing" "I just want to know, what did it feel like when you were being introduced to everyone as his sister, and he was introducing me as his girlfriend? I bet that hurt, didn't it ." I say with a wide smile on my face, enjoying watching how the innocent face she was trying to use to look like the victim transforms into a look of sheer hatred directed at me. "You fucking bitch!" she shouts, lunging at me; before I know we are in a hot cat fight, I am so angry and ready to beat her up but can help but hear the whispers from the firefighters that surrounded us. "Damn these women are going at it, those scratches look like they hurt but damn does that look hot " "Yeah we should probably stop them but I can't look away, one of them shirts is ripped " "Who knows how long it will take for them to rip all their clothes off " "All because of that guy, he is lucky " "We should stop them before they kill each " The more they whispered, the more my anger dissipated as well as my strength, till Anastasia successfully pinned me to the ground, choking me. She is pulled off by David while a firefighter helps me up; I look at her and notice that shirt that David managed to put her in before the firefighters arrived was ripped, and her boobs were nearly on full display. "We have a winner"the guy behind me murmurs to himself; I push myself off him, backing away slowly, trying to get my head straight. "Here, you go, "David says. I look at him, feeling like I haven't heard his voice in a while. He drops a jacket over Anastasia, who smiles sweetly before turning her face to me, still smiling, but it is no longer sweet but smug. He doesn't look at me. He looks everywhere else but at me and doesn't say anything either, just walks away, taking Anastasia to the paramedics. Staring at their retreating figure, the whispers from everyone become a bit louder, but I can't hear them. My mind blocks out everything around me, only focusing on them and my thoughts. He gave the universal signal saying it was over, I am dumping you and moving on you can too either with a guy, a girl or maybe off a cliff I couldn't care less "Miss I need to check your err... Wounds to see if there is any serious damage, "a paramedic says, bringing me back to reality. I nod and follow him, looking down, my ear standing alert, picking up everything they whisper as I move away from them. "Well the winner got the guy, that lucky bastard " "When will I get girls fighting over me " "Well two hot ones though, the winner is super hot but the other is okay too but she dressed a bit weird maybe if she dressed up and wore makeup she would be pretty hot " "Agreed, I would happily fuck either of them though, fuck them both if possible" "you think he has done it " "You dudes are crazy let get back to work" The quiet snickers echo in my ears as I go out of hearing range, but the degrading thoughts follow me. Tears blur my vision, but I refuse to let them fall. After being checked by the paramedic who kept avoiding my gaze, when he asked me questions he said them so awkwardly that I couldn't help but feel embarrassed. Haven't you seen a survivor of a catfight before? "Miss Alexia Ross" A voice calls out from behind me. I turn and see two police officers, my stomach plummets to the ground at the sight of them. "I am she; what can I do for you? "I say, doing my best to maintain a cool tone and not sound scared. I take deep breaths, calming myself; they are maybe just here to see what the commotion is about, but they don't arrest women for catfights, do they? The officer stares at me and then at each other before they nod at one another; the first one walks towards me , before I can even react,I am turned around forcefully and cuffed. "Hey let go of me !" I shout but my plea's are left unanswered. "Miss Alexia Ross you are under arrest for arson, you have the right to remain silent" "Everything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law " "You have the right to get one phone call" "You have the right to an attorney ,if you can't afford an attorney ,one will be appointed to you"the other says leaving me shocked "What!"“Enmeshment”“That is what Mia has “he says calmly, his eyes bored into mine .“What is that “Ryan's expression was serious. "What I am about to explain to you. Is Something that might help you understand what's going on with Mia,so you can understand her reasons for do what she did “I nodded, intrigued. “So explain it to me “Ryan took a deep breath. “Enmeshment. It's a psychological concept that describes a situation where two or more people become overly involved in each other's lives. They lose their sense of identity and autonomy, and their boundaries become blurred."I frowned, trying to understand. "What do you mean?"Ryan's eyes locked onto mine. "In the case of you and Mia, it means that Mia has become so close that she is no longer sure where one of you ends and the other begins. You're like two threads that have become tangled together."I felt a pang of guilt, is that how she has been feeling all this while .Ryan's expression was gentle. "Enmeshment can be unhealthy,
Security guards rushed towards the scene, trying to break up the fight between Anastasia and I. Ryan quickly grabbed my hand and Mia's hand ,dragging us away from the commotion and Anastasia screaming about her broken nose and hair loss courtesy of me . "Come on, let's get out of here," he says ,his voice firm but calm. We follow him to a quiet alleyway behind the club, where we collapse against the wall, panting. Mia looked up at Ryan, a mischievous glint in her eye. "Thanks for saving us, Ryan. I owe you one “ Ryan smiles, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "No problem, Mia. But maybe next time, you can avoid getting into fights, huh?" Mia grinned. "No promises." “At least my plan was working great till David showed up “Mia says, kicking a can in anger . Ryan's eyes flicked to me, and I felt a surge of embarrassment. “What plan?" I repeat my question when Mia is still and nobody answers me , my voice sharp. "What plan,What do you mean?" “Umm,I…I…”Mia stammers out of control w
“Tell me now David , what the fuck are you doing with these bitches “she shrieks as she glares at me ,, her high pitched voice as annoying as ever . I return the glare hoping she gets the message that she doesn't scare me , she always tried to intimidate me before and I admit it sometimes worked but not anymore. “The only bitch I see here is you , Anastasia” I retorted to which Mia shouts oh snap dramatically making Anastasia scoff . “Wow I always knew you both were losers but please don't show it to the rest “she says with a dismissive hair flip . Mia and I look at each other before laughing , Anastasia looks confused as everyone else but we understand each other perfectly, nothing she says would affect us when we are both together. “Oh really thanks for the advice ,but I hope you start taking your own advice soon because it's obvious you have been broadcasting your stupidity since you were a child “mia comment which makes me laugh and I turn and notice both Ryan and David tryi
I hesitated, unsure of what to say. A part of me wanted to forget about David and move on, but another part of me wanted closure, wanted to know why he had hurt me so badly.Ryan's expression turned serious. "Lexi, I don't think that's a good idea. He's not good for you."I felt a surge of defensiveness. "You don't even know him," I say, which makes Ryan give me a weird look ,probably because of my weird outburst .Ryan took a step closer to me. "I don't need to know him to see the way he's affecting you. You deserve better than someone who's going to hurt you like that."I looked up at him, feeling a little bit between the lines of fuzzy and uncomfortable. Why was he being so protective of me?But before I could ask him, I saw David waiting for me by the corner of the club, his eyes fixed on me.I took a deep breath, feeling a sense of determination wash over me. "I need to go talk to him, just for some closure ," I said, my voice firm.Ryan's eyes narrowed. "Lexi, don't-"But I was
'Keep thinking I seeing water You playing tricks on me in the sun See your shadow in the courtyard Stay until the day is done .The dessert doesn't end The rain don't fall And I can't pretendI don't know what you are Cause I know what you are You are You are You are ' I sing silently as I make my way into the crowd trying to get to mia to dance or more like get away from the awkward situation with Ryan ,I know that I am pretty much exaggerating the who thing but I can't help but feel like I am being pushed into the ocean with a 50kg weight attached to my leg about the possibility of moving on from my ex .By the time I make it to Mia I realize that she is busy dancing with a guy that she looked really interested in even though I know she will probably get bored in the next five minutes ."I have decided to dance " I say tapping her shoulder, she turns to face me but looks clueless."What did you say?" she shouts, making me roll my eyes at the fact that has decided to go de
"The noise is so loud " I shout at Mia who is already looking jittery with excitement ."Isn't this fun she hits me while she laughs already acting as if she is drunk without having a sip of alcohol already . It is quite obvious that she doesn't need alcohol or to get drunk; she is naturally high without the drugs to go with it ."Remember the plan you promised thag you would follow " I ask and she nods like a child listening to a teacher giving instructions"Stay close to each other ""Don't leave my drink around and if I did I should forget about the drink ""Don't take drink from strangers or Allow them to buy me a drink ""Always be aware of my surroundings ""If I want to leave with a guyI should call you make sure we leave at the same time ""Keep your number and the police on speed dial"" And Use protection" she says with an eye roll but I know she is happy that I am here to remind her to take care of herself."Anything else I should write down in the 100 things to do in a cl
"no, no , no " "For the last time , I am not doing this "I tell Mia, flinging one of her dresses on the bed. "My baby " she shouts jumping on the bed to grab as if she was reaching out to someone that was about to fall off a cliff . "Why am I doing this again? " I ask ignoring her dramatics ,as she holds her dress close to her chest like it was a baby,she gives me a quick glare before rocking it like a baby . "To get drunk and hopefully laid , have you forgotten" "A normal home drinking isn't enough to get rid of the shittiness you have obviously been having this week or maybe it has been there for a month, because the weeks leading up to this disaster were not that pretty either "she says thoughtfully tapping her hand against her chin while I roll my eyes . "If we are talking about this critically ,my whole year has been shitty ... Scratch that my whole life has been a whole lot of what you call bullshit " "Why was I even brought into this world my life is worse that a horror
"What do you mean it's happening again?" Mia asked, her brows furrowed in concern. But all I could do was cry out in frustration. I shoved my chair back forcefully, the legs scraping annoyingly against the floor before it toppled over with a loud clatter.“I don’t know, Mia! I don’t fucking know!” I spat, my voice raw with emotion.“All I know is I feel really shitty right now when I’m supposed to feel fine.” My outburst startled both Mia and myself. I was on the brink of losing my composure, yet I struggled to articulate why. The confusion weighed heavily on my chest.“Calm down, Lexi. Just talk to me. We’ll work this out, okay?” “Just like we always do,” she reassured, moving closer to me. She placed a gentle hand on my shoulder, giving it a comforting squeeze that warmed my fraying nerves.Letting out a loud sigh, I allowed the tension in my body to ease slightly. I walked back to my chair and sank into it, while Mia mirrored my movements, her eyes fixed on me, silently urging me
I carefully whisk the batter in a large mixing bowl, ensuring that it becomes silky smooth and devoid of any lumps. As I dip my finger into the fluffy mixture and bring it to my mouth, the sweet, creamy goodness explodes on my tongue, evoking a smile that spreads across my face. At that moment, I realized how food really does soothe all of ones troubles.Setting the mixing bowl down on the countertop, I turn to the cabinet, rummaging through the cookware until I find the heavy frying pan. I pull it out and place it on the hot plate, allowing it to heat up properly. With a knife, I carefully slice off a generous piece of butter and set it aside, eagerly awaiting the moment the pan reaches the perfect temperature.Once the pan is hot enough, I drop the butter in, and it immediately sizzles and dances upon contact with the surface. The delightful aroma fills the kitchen as I swirl the melting butter around, ensuring the bottom of the pan is coated in a glossy sheen. Satisfied with its p