INICIAR SESIÓN“Calm down, Rhea,” I whispered under my uneven breath.
I shifted in the chair, feeling hot and restless. I hadn’t felt this warm even in the middle of summer. “Can I get you anything while you wait?” Darnell’s beautiful assistant asked with a polite smile. I shook my head quickly. “No, thank you.” “He’ll be here any minute. Please, make yourself comfortable.” As if that could calm me down. She stepped out of the office, closing the door softly behind her. He’ll be here any minute. My stomach twisted at the thought. For some reason, his assistant had asked me to wait in his office, his office of all places. I had spent days planning how I was going to avoid him until this internship was over. But how was that supposed to happen when I was sitting in his office on the very first day? I tugged at the collar of my cotton shirt, trying to let some air in. I should’ve worn something else. My eyes drifted around the room, searching for anything to distract me. The office was surprisingly simple. Clean lines. Dark wood. Minimal décor. Nothing flashy. Nothing like what I expected from someone like Darnell. I closed my eyes and took a slow breath in, then another, then another. When my breathing finally steadied, I opened my eyes and froze. He was already inside, and my heart slammed violently against my ribs. How had he gotten in without me hearing him? He stood beside the desk, sleeves rolled to his elbows, tie loosened slightly, his gaze fixed directly on me, watching. Without a word, he moved to the sideboard, poured a glass of water, then walked back and placed it beside me. My eyes flicked from the glass to his face. I had imagined seeing him again a hundred different ways. I’d imagined anger. I’d imagined telling him exactly what I thought of him. I’d imagined demanding to know why he left a pay like I was a hooker. But now that he was in front of me, I couldn’t say anything at all. “Drink,” he said calmly, moving toward his chair. “You look flushed.” My throat was dry enough to hurt, so I picked up the glass and took a long sip. “Did you miss me?” I nearly choked as a fit of coughing escaped me and the water went down the wrong way. When I looked up, our eyes met, and this time I saw it clearly: raw hunger. I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. It was like there was a switch that shut my brain off. “Why…” I coughed lightly. “Why are you doing this?” He ignored the question entirely. Instead, he opened a drawer, pulled out a file, and slid it across the desk toward me. “Fill it out.” I frowned and looked down. It was the same internship form I had already completed online. “I already filled this in.” “Do it again.” I blinked. “It’s ten pages.” “Then start now.” I picked it up, about to leave with it, when his voice stopped me. “Here.” My jaw tightened as I sat back down and uncapped the pen. Fine. If this was some twisted power game, I’d play along. I started filling out the first page, pretending I couldn’t feel his eyes on me, but I could feel them every second. If there was one thing I didn’t understand, it was what drove him, what his motive was, and most especially… why me? I was going to be his sister-in-law for goodness’ sake. He wasn’t doing anything, just staring, and somehow that made it worse. The pen in my hand trembled as I flipped through the pages. “Did you miss me?” There he went again. That same question. But there was something different about the way he said it that time, something I couldn’t ignore. I raised my head, and his dark brown eyes were already on me, intense… burning. “No.” Yes. I sure fucking had. I still did. “Are you sure?” I gulped, my throat suddenly dry. “Yes.” He stood, and my heart slammed against my chest like a runaway train as he walked toward me. Then he was behind me, too close. He crouched low, leveling himself with me, one hand gripping the edge of the chair. His mouth hovered near my ear, and a shockwave shot through my body. His scent, cedar and something deeper, something darker, wrapped around me, intoxicating with every breath I took. “I’ll ask you again…” he whispered, his voice low. “Did. You. Miss. Me?” I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to steady myself, trying to stop my body from betraying me. “No!” I could have just said yes and ended it, but I didn’t because a part of me wanted this, wanted to see how far he’d go and how far I’d let him. I had imagined this for days, and now that it was happening, I didn’t want it to stop. His hands moved to my shoulders, gripping them firmly and sending a sharp jolt through me that stole my breath. His breath trailed along my neck, slow and deliberate, and his lips brushed the edge of my ear. “I’ve been waiting for you,” he murmured, so low I almost didn’t hear it, but I did, and my heart stuttered. Me too. One of his hands moved to my neck, and my breathing instantly intensified. His fingers wrapped around it, firm but controlled, his thumb brushing slowly over my skin before he tilted my head back, forcing me to look at him. I could see it clearly now, the hunger in his eyes, and I wondered if he could see mine too. Our eyes locked, neither of us looking away, and then his grip tightened. My breath hitched, then disappeared. Air refused to come in as his hold constricted, my chest rising desperately, my lungs burning. My vision blurred at the edges, heat rushed to my face as it turned red, and my eyes stung before tears spilled over. “What is going to be your answer?” I nodded weakly, my body already giving in, tears slipping down the sides of my face. “I need a verbal.” His grip tightened even more, and panic flooded through me as darkness crept in. “Y… yes…” I choked out, my voice breaking. Immediately, his hold loosened. I gasped, dragging in air like I had been underwater for too long, my throat raw, a metallic taste settling on my tongue as I struggled to breathe properly again. His hand slid up, fingers brushing gently through my hair as if nothing had just happened. “You have nice hair.” I stared at him, completely baffled. He had just choked me, and now he was complimenting my hair? “You’re fucking crazy,” I coughed out, my voice hoarse. A low, calm chuckle left him, and it sent a chill down my spine. He walked back to his seat and sat down like nothing had happened, like I hadn’t just almost passed out in front of him. My chest was still rising unevenly, my body trembling slightly as I tried to steady myself. He was a fucking nut job. If I hadn’t said yes, I was sure I’d have been on the floor right then. And the worst part? He didn’t look even a little bit sorry. The way he had choked me that time was different from that night. There was something about him I didn’t understand, something darker. A knock sounded on the door, and I turned just as Amy stepped in. “The meeting,” she reminded him, then her eyes flicked to my neck, lingering on the faint red marks. He gave her a small nod, unfazed. She hesitated for a second before quietly closing the door behind her. He pushed his chair back and stood, adjusting his cuffs, buttoning his shirt like nothing was out of place, like I wasn’t sitting there trying to recover. “Finish up that paperwork.” He didn’t even look at me. He walked past me, heading for the door, and for a second I thought he was just going to leave, but he stopped and turned slightly. “Welcome to Blackridge,” he paused, making sure I met his gaze. “Rhea Bennett.” And then he walked out.My jaw worked against the bread in my mouth, grinding it down before I forced it to stay there. I dipped my fork into the eggs, lifted it, stared at it for a long moment, and pushed it down my throat.I was pretty sure I was desiccating. Somehow eating was supposed to slow the process but all I felt was a thousand needles working through different parts of my body simultaneously, drawing out whatever was left of me.I stared at the wall ahead, eyes fixed on nothing, throat dry, skin crawling like something was living just under the surface. I grabbed the glass of water beside my plate and took a slow sip, trying to keep myself from folding."God, you look terrible."I set the glass down when it was half empty. My eyes moved to Serena as she pulled out the chair beside me at the dining table. I reached for my fork again and it trembled in my grip, fingers straining to hold it steady before it slipped and clinked against the plate."It breaks my heart to see you like this, Darnell.""Le
Dear Diary,I've started journalling again after two years. The reason I stopped was because of a man. And the reason I'm writing again is because of another man. I think I'm cursed in that department.I'm ten days into getting over Darnell and somehow it feels like I haven't made any progress at all. Like for one, if I'm really determined on getting over him, I wouldn't be writing it down in a damn book. I dropped the pen and closed the book harder than necessary. This wasn't working. I picked up my coffee and took a sip before setting it back down. I remembered asking for vanilla in my coffee but it tasted completely bland. One of the many reasons I missed Café Denise.I'd found this new place called Haven a few miles down the street and thought I'd give it a try. What I learned was that nothing was going to top Café Denise. At least nobody here was clearing out the entire café to corner me, and I was choosing to be content with that.It was around seven in the evening. I'd left th
I never entertained the idea of my own home becoming my personal hell. Somehow I doubt it's the house. Hell is wherever Maurice is. My grip on the headrest tightened and my eyes pressed shut.I'd checked everywhere. The closets, the bathroom, every drawer. I even checked the vents. There wasn't any left. Not even one.My eyes snapped open with the pounding ache and gnawing need. My blood pressure was climbing by the second and the sweat pooling on my skin was making everything worse.I let go of the headrest and grabbed the gum pack, pouring the last two pieces into my mouth to keep my jaw occupied. The bottle had held nearly fifty pieces and I'd opened it in the morning. It helped with the craving but it only lasted a few minutes before it came back worse than before.I can't do this.I strode toward the door and opened it, closing it behind me as I headed downstairs to the kitchen. There had to be something in the cabinets. Something to stop the drums in my head. Maurice was nowhere
"You haven't touched your food, you should eat. It'll help you recover faster," Simone said, hovering over me."I'm not hungry," I replied, dropping the fork onto the platter."You haven't eaten anything since yesterday."I sighed and looked at her, then past her at the white wall. "I'll eat when I'm out of here.""Darnell, you know you can't leave until you get better," Simone said."I feel better.""What she means is," Maurice said, walking in, "you can't leave until the doctors clear you."I sank my head into the stiff pillow and closed my eyes. I needed to get out of here."You're all acting like he's five. If he wants to leave we should let him," Serena said from the corner, and for once I actually agreed with something out of her mouth."...but he needs to walk out of this hospital unassisted."I take that back."I can walk," I argued, and all three of them gave me the same skeptical look.Serena got up and crossed to the bed. "Okay then," she said, lifting the tray off my lap a
Focus, Rhea. Focus.Re-evaluation of financial assets. I vividly remembered being taught how to do this but sitting here with the blank pages of my laptop staring back at me, I wasn't sure I knew how anymore. Or at least had the capacity to actually focus.I picked up my coffee and took a sip. The heat stung my tongue but I downed it anyway."Are you done with that?" Angela asked from behind me."Still working on it," I replied, setting the cup down and stretching my fingers over the keyboard like I was about to do something meaningful."You've been working on that since you came in."Right. I'd been trying not to look at the time since I got here and if you asked me I'd say I'd been sitting here for three miserable days.I typed gibberish. "I'll be done soon."With this speed, I had no idea what I meant by soon.She grabbed the back of my chair and spun it around to face her. I let her. Angela was a Black American woman in her mid-thirties and the only person at Blackridge I actually
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I dipped a grape into my mouth, staring out the jet window. I couldn't remember the last time the air smelled this fresh or the clouds looked so clear. Everything was impossibly perfect this morning."You seem happy," Maurice said from the other side of the plane.I turned to him. His eyes were he
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