CHAPTER ELEVEN

I don't know what else to do aside from to keep running. But eventually I have to slow. Eventually I have to figure out what exactly I should do next.

The trees call to me as I find a stream. The thick layers of green absorb my cries. They promise to protect me. They promise that I’ll be okay.

I know I'll never be okay again though.

I'm lost without a mate. I'm lost without a pack.

I don't know where to go. There is nowhere for me to go. I'm lost and I'll never feel whole again.

So, I shift back into my human form to forget the memories my wolf form had to witness. But in my human form, this all feels worse. My human form is much more vulnerable, so I can’t easily face this in it.

My heart feels like it's being ripped apart. I can physically feel the pain within me. And it's the worst agony. All I want to do is escape it, but I know I can't.

Barefoot, I walk into the water. It's cold against my skin. It wakes my senses. And I don't want them to be woken. I don't want to feel an